Ethan

Christmas carols fill the air as I watch Riley, Ryder, Paisley and Parker zoom around the skating rink, giggling and laughing as they play tag and stage races. Fairy lights and boughs of holly have been strewn around the edges of the rink, and the scent of apples and cinnamon waft through the falling snow from a nearby hot cider booth.

My first afternoon back with the pups is the best day I’ve had since they were kidnapped – and certainly since I was paralyzed. It’s true that I’m heartbroken over Jane, but being with my children again at long last is pure joy. Ice skating has always been Paisley’s favorite Christmas pastime, but I’ve never seen her share the experience with anyone but me. It’s magical to see her playing with the others, so carefree. In the old days I had to hold her hand the whole time, she was never healthy enough to get rambunctious on the ice. Now she has no problem keeping up, and I couldn’t be prouder.

That said, every few minutes she comes racing over to the sidelines to beg me to come onto the ice with her. She doesn’t understand why I’m not out there with her like I always have been in the past.

Unfortunately my mechanized braces are great for pretending to walk, but there’s no way they can handle ice skating – the movement is too smooth, and the balance too precarious.

“Daddy please!””Paisley begs, giving me huge puppy dog eyes. “We came all this way to sees you and you’re not even skating!

“Daddy’s still recovering from his surgery.” I lie.

You remember how careful you have to be when you’re healing.”

But how much longer is it gonna take? She inquires. “I wanna play with you.”

I want to play with you too, angel. And I will- I’m just not up to skating.” I sigh. Besides you don’t need me anymore, you have your brothers and sister.”

Is not the same.” Paisley frowns. I never had to worry ’bout falling before. You were always there to catch me! What if I falls?”

“Sweetheart, you’re healthy enough to fall now.

thing. I promise, making my tone as gentłe as possible as I continue. You can’t go through your whole life holding Daddy’s hand.

be that close with their parents are so fleeting. However if I’m going to let them stay here it can’t just be for Jane, I have to take the opportunity to get my pups used to the idea of living without me. I have to teach her these lessons while I still have the chance.

be okay after I’m gone. In hindsight, I should have done this from the beginning, but I didn’t have the braces

buying my story. “Daddy what are you talking about?” She demands. “I don’ wanna grow ups if it means I haves

“None of us ever want to grow

eyes. “Daddy, you’re

“I know, I’m

weirds.” Paisley continues.

think wryly. The pups have always been too smart for their own good. That’s Jane’s doing- her genes were clearly stronger than mine when it came to passing down her brilliant mind. Usually I think it’s a blessing they’re

some way to answer her without giving up the game. Then, right on queue, Riley, Parker and Ryder skid to a

but eventually she turns to her

can’t let go even if other peoples are coming towards you!” Parker answers

have to weave and dodge and try to stay together as longs as possible!” Ryder

Paisley agrees excitedly, forgetting her

with a drawn expression. She hasn’t spoken a word to me since we fought this morning, and her eyes are still red from crying. She’s trailed behind the pups and I throughout

her, pulling my mouth into a hard line.

it a rest, Ethan.” She answers, glaring at me. “I’m trying, alright? I’m trying to do what’s right, I’m trying to shield them

have an easier time keeping myself together if you stopped hovering over me

it’s another entirely to walk away from her when she’s so raw and fragile. Part of me wants to feel hopeful like my Beta suggested, to leave a window open for myself in case I get better and

get better, I need to let her go. She deserves to find a better mate than me, I just have to make sure she’s not so broken that she runs from

make them more suspicious if there’s

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