The Luna and her Quadruplet Pups by Jane Above Story

Ethan

That night I lay awake in bed, replaying my conversation with Jane over and over in my head.

For the first time since I got my diagnosis, I feel like I have a purpose again. It’s taken me a while to reach this place, but Jane’s return made it only too clear that giving up and pushing my family away wasn’t working for anyone. What’s more, being paralyzed has finally given me the perspective to understand that there’s more than one kind of strength, and just because I can’t protect them with my wolf, it doesn’t mean I can’t care for them in other ways. Above all else, I’m realizing that my possessiveness and determination to make Jane mine again was never about her welfare, but satisfying my own ego and selfishness.

The wheels in my mind are turning swiftly now, overflowing with ideas for how to put my plan in motion. When I started making my list of goals, I intended to help Jane and impart lessons on my children in the brief time we have left together, but now I see that it doesnt have to stop there. Already my wolf feels calmer, less on edge and erratic. I’ve been flailing and drowning for more than a month now, holding onto everything I felt I was losing and letting the pain rip me apart. But it’s amazing how soothing it can be to simply let go.

I’m still lying there, staring at the ceiling fan when my door cracks open, and tiny footsteps cross my floor. Paisley’s sweet scent wafts over me, and the next thing I know her precious voice is whispering beside me. “Daddy, are you awake?”

I might be.” I tease, cracking one eye open. “But you shouldn’t be, it’s way past your bedtime.”

“Can I sleep with you?” She asks anxiously, almost as though she’s worried I’ll refuse her.

of course, angel.” I agree, lifting the covers for her to crawl onto the mattress next to me.

I’ ve missed you so much, Daddy.” She murmurs, snuggling her head against my chest. I don’t like the Dark Moon pack.”

“But aren’t you happy being with Mommy and your brothers and sister?” I press, guilt assailing me once more.

Paisley is quiet for a long moment. I loves them.”

She finally answers. “But I loves you too, and you’re all alones now. I don’ like it. Mommy has Ryder, and Parker and Riley… but without me you don’ have anyone.”

That was the point. I think wryly. If I’m alone I can’t hurt anyone.

It’s very sweet of you to worry about me, Princess.”

“But it’s a Daddy’s job to worry about his pups, not the other

course it’s my job to worry

together

and that means I want what’s best for you, even if it’s hard for me.” Her green eyes are glowing up at me in the darkness, and I can’t help but wonder if our new baby will be as perfect as our first four. Will they still take after me, will they luck out and

Paisley argues. “No one asked me where I

if I

you’ve been dreaming of having a Mommy your whole life.” I remind her. It’s all you ever

I got a Mommy we’d all be together. No one ever told me that I’d

sigh, hating to see my

going to need your Mommy more than me the older you get. I could teach you how to be a pup, but she can teach you about being a woman. It’s right for

going to be a woman for ages and

to happen faster than you think,’munchkin.” I chuckle, tapping the end of her

Paisley questions, sitting up and brushing my hand away from her face. “You promised you’d never leaves me,but after you rescued

I didn’t leave you, Paisley.” I

your Mommy, and I let you go because I want what’s best for

you’re what’s best for me!”

are you

I’ve been sleeping in them out of fear that I’ll

little one. I’m sorry this is all so hard, but everything always seems better after a good night’s sleep. Just try to rest.” I instruct, my heart racing as I try not to panic. She can’t find out. If Paisley finds out it will only be a matter of time before the others do too, and then they’ll never leave me. Jane will be stuck with me out of hopeless love or misplaced duty,

know if I can be cured yet. I’m determined to fight, but I won’t be

my h!p and over my legs. “Daddy, what are these things

insist. Just something

things are on your legs.” The more she pokes and prods, the more I can see her sharp mind putting the pieces together. You’ve been walking funny..” She muses, gnawing on her lower lip in precisely the same way Jane does when she’s thinking.

it.” I try to command, but I can see it’s too

Paisley asks, looking