The Luna’s Choice by Kat Silver

Chapter 51: Ayla

I froze when my hand touched the cold metal door handle.

What the f*ck was I doing?

I had blocked Theo from me in my anger, but he was still coming through to me. I could feel his turmoil and confusion. I could feel his pain. Pain that I caused. And for what? Because he wouldn’t kill someone for me? Because he wouldn‘ t let me kill him?

What kind of monster was I?

A million questions and accusations ran through my mind as my knees gave way, and I sunk to the hardwood floor.

What the hell was wrong with me?

Theo was right. This wasn’t me. Throughout our entire fight, M knew what he was saying made sense. I knew we needed to keep him alive to get information. But my rage was so

consuming that I didn’t care. I hated Lloyd so much I felt like I was on fire.

I couldn’t pinpoint what cleared my mind from that haze, but something had. Now, I just felt remorse and pain and fear. I was scared of how I just acted. I felt Theo next to me. I was scared of the damage I just did.

I don’t know how long it took for me to finally calm down. Theo just held me like he always did. Whenever I came close to composure, I thought about how amazing he was and another wave would hit me. When I finally felt like it had all

passed, my body ached from crying and my face was thoroughly covered in tears and snot.

“I’m sorry, Theo,” I said once more as I released my hold on him. “I shouldn’t have said those things. I shouldn’t have tried to leave. I shouldn’t have been mad at you. I don’t know what came over me.”

Theo sighed, brushing my hair back and wiping my cheeks with his thumbs. “You’ve been overwhelmed, baby. You’ve had a rough day. I think it’s just time to call it and go to bed. And tomorrow, your life will be about the normal things, okay? School, work, friends, all those good things.”

I needed that more than I thought. It was still a little painful to admit I couldn’t handle it all, but I

I was exhausted but I couldn’t fall asleep. I was pressed against Theo, feeling the rise and fall of his chest, but I still felt a subtle distance between us. He was still upset

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his forehead on my head.

“Ayla…”

“Yes,” I murmured.

me

guilt washed through me as the weight of my threat hit

squeezed him tighter, and he did

please, please, don’t ever f*cking leave me,”

I repeated.

for a while. I thought he had fallen

will be worse for

I asked, looking

promise you that. He will get what he deserves.

comforting, but it was reassuring. And it brought me a small sense

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class until later, so Theo got up and made a big breakfast for us. The distance I had felt last night was gone and I felt a weight had been lifted off of

Kingston,” he said, pushing away from the table to go

follow, hanging back a little as he opened the door

Chapter 51; Ayla

them in.

Kingston said

night. And by the looks of it, his temper had also gotten the better of him a time or two. There were various smatterings of blood on his clothes and his knuckles were bruised