The Luna Trials by Marissa Gilbert

Chapter 68

“Savvy, what do you mean?” Kai’s face went pale, and the princess’s smile dropped. She expected him to be over the moon about it, or at least stunned, but she could feel waves of tension radiating from him now and did not know what to do.

“Kai Fionnlagh, this is not the reaction I was counting on,” she informed him with her brows knitted together.

“Savvy,” he pulled her into his embrace and cupped her chin gently. Nevertheless, she could tell he was nervous. “Are you-”

“I don’t know yet, if I am honest,” she admitted, blushing softly. “I think it’s possible.”

Savannah felt his grip on her stiffen and instantly knew that something was wrong. She distanced herself from him, the mood sour all of a sudden. Was the possibility of the two of them having children together so scary for him? Weren’t they talking about expanding their family right after they got married before all the drama? Did he change his mind? A panic attack started without warning, affecting every single cell of her body. Why was it going all wrong?

“If you don’t want the child-” She fiddled with the sheet, lowering her eyes, and he growled, getting her back into his arms and onto his lap.

“Savvy, I want it more than anything. You, me and an army of our little pups. I want it all,” the King assured her. “There is one problem, though. I… Sawy, I think I f*cked up.”

Now he was the one who couldn’t look her in the eye, and she started to get worried.

“What is it?” She brushed his cheek with her palm, tilting his head towards her. Surely, it couldn’t have been that bad.

“I’ve been blessed by a god, Savannah,” Kai confessed, and she breathed out in relief. She kind of figured this one out already.

“It seems to be a common theme lately,” she chuckled. “I only heard about it in legends, and now I know three people who have had the honour.”

“Three?” He shot her a puzzled look.

“You, Ria and… Bjorn,” she admitted, letting out an exasperated sigh. “There is this deity that helps him- You know, never mind. This night is ours, and I want to only speak about us.”

“You see, Sav, there is a difference between me and the others,” Kai decided to be honest with his mate. He didn’t want to start their new life together with lies or hiding essential information. Their family wouldn’t be like that, and his Luna deserved to know everything. She deserved all the best things in life; especially choosing her own destiny. Unfortunately, that was one thing he partially deprived her of now.

“What do you mean?” Savannah was ready to listen to whatever it was he had to share with her. She could see how not easy it was for him and gently laced their fingers together to give him the reassurance he needed.

“The deity who blessed me was Fenrir,” Kai revealed, but this was something she already suspected.

“Well, it was to be expected,” Savvy asserted with her lips curled into a gentle smile. “He is the patron of the North, after all.”

“You see, the problem is, I don’t think he wanted to bless me,” the King sighed, avoiding her gaze.

“Then how?” Now Savannah was lost. Surely, a god had to know what he was doing. And why wouldn’t Fenrir want to save the lycan who served him his whole life?

“He is… not what we imagine him to be. He looked… like he didn’t care. Long messy hair, a beard and a few scars on his face,” Kai closed his eyes, trying to remember any details. “He didn’t come to help me. It was an accident.”

“An accident?” The princess gasped. Here she thought that Kai had a similar experience to Riannon’s, but apparently, that couldn’t be further away from the truth. “Is that even possible?”

was all he wanted. But the moment he touched it, something happened,” and a jolt of divine power went through me. This

even sure that it was Fenrir?” Savvy couldn’t believe what she was

am certain of that. It’s hard to explain this, but he is my deity. At some level, a part of me has always heard his call inside of my soul. It spoke to him even if

why didn’t he want to save you then?” She couldn’t comprehend this. The Moon Goddess went to great lengths to help Riannon because she believed that her sister-in-law was worthy of a second chance and that they deserved to win the war against the foxes and bears. Why didn’t Fenrir feel the same way about the King who worshipped him his whole life and served the North with his whole

replied after a while. “Not godly at all. He looked like he was just passing by. If not for the spear, I don’t think he would have bothered helping me at all. He told me that my life was

true.

here right now was just

you will understand. I was already on the other side, dead and gone. And all I knew was that I left you alone at the worst of times. My house was in flames, and I saw dead bodies around me. I saw Zack, and I could smell the scents of the bears that had already left. I

with pale, trembling lips, only now realising how worried he really was. He did something. Kai did something he couldn’t forgive

the Northern King repeated himself, “and I begged him to help me. I held the spear in my hands, not letting him pull it out, fighting him for it. I knew very well that the moment he retrieved it, I would go back to the other side, and you would

do?” Savannah’s nails dug

there would be a price,” Kai said, his voice void of emotion as he couldn’t bring himself to look into his mate’s eyes. “I said that I was ready to do whatever it

This was the moment when she knew there was a life inside of

or pretend that it wasn’t there. She was with child, and this child would be taken away from

was so cruel indeed… Why was it so merciless? What did she do to deserve this? Was she so horrible that all the

an option anymore. She couldn’t be weak. She couldn’t afford to be weak. Even though she wanted to fall apart, she knew that now she had to be stronger

Kai continued, guilt written

at him. “What

much time to think about it, as you can imagine.” He couldn’t bear to see her this way. He couldn’t tolerate the fact that this time, it was his fault. All he wanted was to protect

covering her face with

a clinic, use a surrogate and someone else’s egg-”

him from saying that it was a horrible

so sorry!” he wanted to pull her into a hug but was afraid to even

that the mate he had waited for so long, the one whom he loved more than life itself, the one for whom

turn into a wolf and follow her around as a loyal

palm cupped his cheek, and he flinched, realising he was shaking before that moment. The

do that again. I won’t be able to live without you anyway. I am not wasting time on quarrels. Everything is against us once again, but I’m not going to let it break us. Just know that I’m not planning to give up

to the other side than let anyone touch a hair on our child’s head. It did not look like Fenrir wanted her too much, to begin with. I’m sure

her hair and letting her scent envelop him. He could feel the cold glow of his mark on her, and in some way, it brought him peace. It wasn’t the end,

himself from her and made her look at him. “What do you mean by any of the gods that want him

not think it was possible, but Savannah’s

Bjorn, Joran, made me a similar offer. He wanted me to promise

under his breath. “What do they all need from

if anyone would know, it will be Riannon. Her gift lets her see many

top of her head, murmuring something else she couldn’t understand, but then added louder, “We need all

up, and soon they would

fell back into the bed, placing her head on his chest and stroking her hair gently, “tell me everything that happened there. I want to know everything there is to

her lip, not sure if it was a good idea. “It’s not a

to share everything with me,” he caressed her more, hoping that he could make her feel safe despite