The Luna Trials by Marissa Gilbert

Chapter 68

“Savvy, what do you mean?” Kai’s face went pale, and the princess’s smile dropped. She expected him to be over the moon about it, or at least stunned, but she could feel waves of tension radiating from him now and did not know what to do.

“Kai Fionnlagh, this is not the reaction I was counting on,” she informed him with her brows knitted together.

“Savvy,” he pulled her into his embrace and cupped her chin gently. Nevertheless, she could tell he was nervous. “Are you-”

“I don’t know yet, if I am honest,” she admitted, blushing softly. “I think it’s possible.”

Savannah felt his grip on her stiffen and instantly knew that something was wrong. She distanced herself from him, the mood sour all of a sudden. Was the possibility of the two of them having children together so scary for him? Weren’t they talking about expanding their family right after they got married before all the drama? Did he change his mind? A panic attack started without warning, affecting every single cell of her body. Why was it going all wrong?

“If you don’t want the child-” She fiddled with the sheet, lowering her eyes, and he growled, getting her back into his arms and onto his lap.

“Savvy, I want it more than anything. You, me and an army of our little pups. I want it all,” the King assured her. “There is one problem, though. I… Sawy, I think I f*cked up.”

Now he was the one who couldn’t look her in the eye, and she started to get worried.

“What is it?” She brushed his cheek with her palm, tilting his head towards her. Surely, it couldn’t have been that bad.

“I’ve been blessed by a god, Savannah,” Kai confessed, and she breathed out in relief. She kind of figured this one out already.

“It seems to be a common theme lately,” she chuckled. “I only heard about it in legends, and now I know three people who have had the honour.”

“Three?” He shot her a puzzled look.

“You, Ria and… Bjorn,” she admitted, letting out an exasperated sigh. “There is this deity that helps him- You know, never mind. This night is ours, and I want to only speak about us.”

“You see, Sav, there is a difference between me and the others,” Kai decided to be honest with his mate. He didn’t want to start their new life together with lies or hiding essential information. Their family wouldn’t be like that, and his Luna deserved to know everything. She deserved all the best things in life; especially choosing her own destiny. Unfortunately, that was one thing he partially deprived her of now.

“What do you mean?” Savannah was ready to listen to whatever it was he had to share with her. She could see how not easy it was for him and gently laced their fingers together to give him the reassurance he needed.

“The deity who blessed me was Fenrir,” Kai revealed, but this was something she already suspected.

“Well, it was to be expected,” Savvy asserted with her lips curled into a gentle smile. “He is the patron of the North, after all.”

“You see, the problem is, I don’t think he wanted to bless me,” the King sighed, avoiding her gaze.

“Then how?” Now Savannah was lost. Surely, a god had to know what he was doing. And why wouldn’t Fenrir want to save the lycan who served him his whole life?

“He is… not what we imagine him to be. He looked… like he didn’t care. Long messy hair, a beard and a few scars on his face,” Kai closed his eyes, trying to remember any details. “He didn’t come to help me. It was an accident.”

“An accident?” The princess gasped. Here she thought that Kai had a similar experience to Riannon’s, but apparently, that couldn’t be further away from the truth. “Is that even possible?”

mate admitted. “It was all he wanted. But the moment he touched it, something happened,” and a jolt of divine power went through

Fenrir?” Savvy couldn’t

I am certain of that. It’s hard to explain this, but he is my deity. At some level, a part of me has always heard his call inside of my soul. It spoke to him even if he did not respond. The moment our eyes

comprehend this. The Moon Goddess went to great lengths to help Riannon because she believed that her sister-in-law was worthy of a second chance and that they deserved to win the war against the foxes and bears. Why didn’t Fenrir feel the same way about

think he would have bothered helping me at all. He told me that my life was over, and I had to go to the next world, that it

have been true. She could

him. Him being here right now was just dumb luck and

was pressed against his lips. “I will always be at fault about this, but I hope that you will understand. I was already on the other side, dead and gone. And all I knew was that I left you alone at the worst of times. My house was in flames, and I saw dead bodies

how worried he really was. He did something. Kai did something he

the Northern King repeated himself, “and I begged him to help me. I held the spear in my hands, not letting him pull it out, fighting him for it. I knew very well that the

Savannah’s nails dug into his flesh, demanding

he couldn’t bring himself to look into his mate’s eyes. “I said that I was ready to do whatever it took. You were my number one priority. So, when he said

the moment when she knew there was a life inside of

that it wasn’t there. She was with child, and this child would

did she do to deserve this? Was

and she blinked them away because she knew crying wasn’t an option anymore. She couldn’t be weak. She couldn’t afford to be weak.

hoped we would have more time,” Kai continued, guilt written

eyes at him. “What could possibly

He couldn’t tolerate the fact that this time, it was his fault. All he wanted was to protect her, to save her, and now he ended

she whispered, covering

thought that maybe I could go to a clinic, use a surrogate and someone else’s egg-”

interjected, sparing him from saying that

but was afraid to even

had waited for so long, the one whom he loved more than life itself, the one for whom he came back from hell would

turn into a wolf and follow her around as a loyal dog until the end of his days because he couldn’t part with her again. He would spend

and he flinched, realising he was shaking

change, Kai. I already lost you once, and I am not going to do that again. I won’t be able to live without you anyway. I am not wasting time on quarrels. Everything is against us once again, but I’m not going to let it break us. Just know that I’m not planning to give up

our child’s head. It did not look like Fenrir wanted her too much, to begin with. I’m sure

he did pull her into his chest, burying his face in her hair and letting her scent envelop him. He could feel the cold glow of his mark on her, and in some way, it brought him peace. It wasn’t the end, and they would find

him. “What do you mean by any of the gods that want him

it was possible, but Savannah’s face

He

the-“Kai swore under his breath. “What do they

it will be Riannon. Her gift lets her see many things. If anyone

on the top of her head, murmuring something else she couldn’t understand, but then

rising with his skin. Their peaceful time was almost up, and soon they would have to get back to the castle. It couldn’t wait any longer, and

he fell back into the bed, placing her head on his chest and stroking her hair gently, “tell me everything that happened there. I want to know

bit her lip, not sure if it was a good

with me,” he caressed her more, hoping that he could make her feel safe