The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

than a one-night

sting so much more

he just

be able to go back to

the lounge

cradling Malevolent to my

ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are

I

casual hook-ups aren’t

a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing

was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was

makes me a bitch, but

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be

to the other so

Nice work.

side, I run

my hair, breathing deeply,

than to hurt

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

can I

People think I’m

because I’m tough

one sees the fucked up shit

my fingers, trying to

a void so big I may

and never return.

state where you

threatening to take

wreak havoc

or

want to feel something other than empty, angry or

lip quivers and I stare at the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible

deep down, I know

at my phone.

I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened and

together again.

I should be

mean he needed to

with me… and stop talking

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

can feel my anger and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I

phone in the process; it

lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches

my aura, are not enough right

growl as my Lycan tries to

I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away at the

within me. 4

will burst as I grab

the wood but