The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 17

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

one-night hook-up…’ Why

so

my head; he just doesn’t know

be able

head to the lounge and drop

sofa, cradling Malevolent

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch

I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get up

did I

casual hook-ups

know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come

wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah,

and I know it makes me a bitch, but

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be

other

Nice work.

side,

my hair,

more than to hurt

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper

how can I always

I’m a fucking

tough and I’ll

everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up

I flex my fingers, trying to rid the

void

into it and never

state where you want to

both threatening to take

wreak havoc and destroy

me, or even…

other than empty, angry or out

regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him.

know I’ll fuck up again.

at my phone.

feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

and I wonder if

together again.

hurts, but I should be happy

he

with me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if

dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel

my aura

me to mask my aura, are not

as my Lycan tries to

in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my

within me. 4

head will burst as I grab

splinter the wood but I

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