The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night

words sting so

my head; he just doesn’t

be able to go

the lounge and drop

Malevolent to my

ceiling, and watch the

the window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no

did I

casual hook-ups aren’t

someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am

his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m

I was, and I know it makes me a bitch,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from

the other

Nice work.

onto my side, I

my hair, breathing deeply,

more than to

to scream, and cry, the guilt

can I always be so

People think I’m a fucking

tough

I have… but no one sees

a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling eating

and creating a void so

it and never

you want

cry, both threatening to take over,

to wreak havoc and destroy

me, or even… destroy

to feel something other than empty, angry or out

let it happen again even if

is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll

at my phone.

refusing to

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened

together again.

thought hurts, but I

doesn’t mean he needed to

me… and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do something

the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast

of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches

on me to mask my aura, are not enough right

growl as my Lycan tries to stop me

win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding

within me. 4

like my head will burst as

but