The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 17

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

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Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’ Why

so much

my head; he

won’t be able to go back to

head to the lounge

cradling Malevolent to my

staring at the ceiling, and watch the

reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but

I do

casual hook-ups aren’t

who I know and is a teacher at the school?

know I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not

and I know it makes me a bitch, but if

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet

the other

Nice work.

onto my side, I

hair, breathing deeply,

than

I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness

how can I always be

People think I’m a

tough and I’ll

you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside my

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling

and creating a void

and never return.

where you want

both threatening to

havoc

me, or even…

just want to feel something other

myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed

down, I know I’ll fuck up

at my

to talk

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

jolt upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder

together again.

thought hurts, but I should

doesn’t mean he needed to

and stop

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

can feel my anger and frustration rising,

Fuck calm down…

away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if

dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I

lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra

to mask my

as my Lycan tries to

it, but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting

within me. 4

eyes sting and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the

but

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