The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’

sting so much more

shake my head; he just

be able to go back

head to the lounge

sofa, cradling Malevolent to my chest.

up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of

window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are

did I do

hook-ups aren’t

know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that

know I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense.

know it makes me a bitch, but

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

other so

Nice work.

side,

my hair,

more than

scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

I always be

People think I’m a fucking

because I’m tough

no one sees the fucked up

in a deep breath, I flex my fingers,

void

and never

you want to

cry, both threatening to

havoc and destroy

me, or even…

feel something other than empty, angry

thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with

it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again.

stare at

but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter?

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

thundering, and I wonder if

together again.

I

That doesn’t mean he needed to cut

with me… and stop talking to

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

my anger and frustration rising, and my claws

Fuck calm down…

move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory

open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging

off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful

mask my aura, are not enough

Lycan tries to stop

I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to

within me. 4

like my head will burst as

but I