The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

a one-night hook-up…’

words sting so much

he just doesn’t know

able

I head to the lounge and drop

Malevolent to my chest.

at the ceiling, and watch

dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get up and

did I

casual hook-ups

a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing

I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying

I was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce,

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced

the other so

Nice work.

side, I run my

hair, breathing

more than to hurt

scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping

how can I always be

People think I’m a fucking

tough and I’ll

everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit

breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling eating

and creating a void so

it and

where you

cry, both threatening to

to wreak havoc

me, or even… destroy

something other than empty, angry or out of

to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was

know I’ll fuck up again. I always

stare at my

feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

heart thundering, and I wonder

together again.

but I should be happy

he needed to

and

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

anger and frustration rising, and

Fuck calm down…

but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty

process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging to

serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches

on me to mask my aura,

growl as my Lycan tries to stop me

agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees.

within me. 4

like my head will burst as

wood but I can’t hold