The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

me, and the urge to rip everything to

can take Azura and

my eyes falling on Phoenix.

That’ll hurt Azura!

my hands, ready to snatch her from Azura’s hold,

as Azura

it hits me what I

I’m…

I’m a monster.

hand

with

an

so sorry little gremlin…

me with those wide blue eyes

blur with tears – and – although this time it was easier to stop

“Leave,” I command.

for you. I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want to dress her up as a

FUCK OUT!” I

lips droop before she bursts into

rages off me, and

In a flash I’m in front of her, grabbing her

red, and she pushes me back with a blast of power.

around her. “Sky… calm down.” She warns me

then!”

Dad appear at the door, but I shake my

want to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my heart skipping a

that

she enters the room and cups my

She whispers gently. The confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking

not playing, the thought makes my stomach

that I might

hurt her because I used force. Dad catches her, but her face hides the pain

you a little

“It’s alright Sky-”

I might hurt him

to the door and I stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in

have cameras, right?

How

ground. If they know

Thought to tear

alone, even Malevolent seems wary

Warmth fills me, but with it the self-doubt and hatred that I once used to feel returns tenfold. 1

to come out of the depths of my mind. I’m going down a dark

even as I try, it’s still dark, it’s still painful… even out here…

that fill my eyes as I rock myself on the

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

said

there…. You are your father’s daughter, you are the

what I said and did to

voices are echoing in my mind, the things I said, the things I’ve done. The crimes I’ve

never meant to

a Lycan was

I am dangerous.

remember the time I lost control and Dante pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I

time… and far from

was

had to learn how to control my Lycan, but how do you

is that the real me?

A killer?

Malevolent down and backing

her next…

pound as I back up towards

can smell

see blood.

blinding me and I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying

breaking for her.

“Stay away!”

one

use all my willpower to calm

can

towel blindly and some clothes, but I have no intention of having a shower. I just.

I stare at Leo and Royce.

my

Kill him.

I

in my hand before he motions for Royce to move

myself to look at Royce again, the concern in his eyes…

Why?

for him… just used him…

you looking at?” I

woman in the

He responds.

she’s not a woman, but