The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

the urge to rip everything to shreds

take Azura and Kataleya!

my eyes falling

That’ll hurt Azura!

to snatch her from Azura’s hold, the

as Azura tenses.

almost ready to step back, and it hits

I’m…

I’m a monster.

hand and slowly caress

with

an abomination.

so sorry little

me with those wide blue

– although this time it was easier to stop myself the vile thought

“Leave,” I command.

aren’t yourself and we’re here for you,” Azura says firmly. “Look, even this little Chibi demon is rooting for you. I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want to dress her up as a little kitten or a voodoo doll

SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!”

lips droop before

off me, and I glare at

I spit. In a flash I’m in front of her,

she pushes me back

her. “Sky… calm down.” She

then!” I scream.

the door, but I shake my

be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my heart skipping

that out

glimmer of a smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters the room and cups my

this.” She whispers gently. The confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking deserve this confidence from her.

to rip her heart out to show them I’m not playing, the thought makes my stomach churn and

that I might hurt her

catches her, but her face hides the pain I’m

a little time.”

“It’s alright Sky-”

I scream. I might hurt him again, fuck what if I

I stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the door shuts, and I know they’re probably still watching…

cameras, right?

How

the bed, staring at the ground. If they know who I really am… what my

mother. Thought to tear her heart out. What a

Malevolent seems wary of

me carefully, nudging her head against my leg. Warmth fills me, but with it the self-doubt and hatred that I once used to

depths of my mind.

I try, it’s still dark, it’s still painful…

that fill my eyes as I rock myself on the bed, trying not to let a sound escape me

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

said to

are your father’s daughter,

I said and did to

things I said, the things I’ve done. The crimes

was never meant to be

a Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

time I lost control and Dante pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost ripped another kid’s throat out…

was the first time… and far from

I was

but how do you

is that the real me?

A killer?

quickly putting Malevolent

hurt her next…

continues to pound as I back up towards

smell

can see

last night flash before my eyes, blinding me and I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent,

heart is breaking for

“Stay away!”

one behind the

to use all my willpower to

can never

blindly and some clothes, but I have no intention of

and I stare at Leo and

surfacing as my full attention turns to my ice god.

Kill him.

OUT!” I scream.

in my hand before he motions

Royce

Why?

never done anything for him… just used him…

you looking at?” I ask instead.

woman

He responds.

woman,