The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

me, and the urge to

Azura and

around, my eyes

That’ll hurt Azura!

flash as I raise my hands, ready to snatch her from Azura’s hold, the urge to kill overpowering me.

as Azura

back, and it hits

I’m…

I’m a monster.

one hand and slowly

with the

an abomination.

sorry little

with those wide blue eyes

it was easier to stop myself the vile thought

“Leave,” I command.

demon is rooting for you. I was

SAID GET THE FUCK

before

and I glare at Delsanra.

I’m in front of her, grabbing her by

and she pushes me back with a blast of

her. “Sky… calm

out then!”

the door,

to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my heart

that out

glimmer of a smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters

whispers gently. The confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking deserve this confidence

playing, the

I might

her because I used force. Dad catches her, but her face

little time.” She says

“It’s alright Sky-”

leave!” I scream. I might hurt him again, fuck what if I hurt him

stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the

have cameras,

scoff. How

If they know who I really am… what my thoughts are, they’d

to tear her heart out.

alone, even Malevolent seems

me, but with it

gasp, trying to come out of the depths of my mind. I’m going down a dark train of thought…

it’s still dark, it’s still painful… even out here…

Reaching down I lift her into my arms and hug her tightly, unable to stop the sudden tears that fill my eyes as I rock myself on the bed, trying not to let a sound escape me as tears spill down my

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

I said

your father’s daughter, you are the

did to him?

things I said, the things I’ve done. The crimes I’ve committed…

to be a

Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I

first time… and far

training I was given wasn’t enough.

my Lycan, but how do you control something that just wants to kill?

that the real

A killer?

quickly putting Malevolent down and backing

her

as I back up towards the bathroom.

can smell blood.

see blood.

my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying to get close to

is breaking for her.

“Stay away!”

the one behind

them coming, trying to use all my willpower to calm

can never be forgiven…

some clothes, but I have no intention

opens and I stare at Leo and

my

Kill him.

I

my hand before he motions for Royce to move back.

look at Royce again, the concern in his eyes…

Why?

anything for

are you looking at?” I ask

most beautiful woman in the

He responds.

woman, but a