The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

the urge to

take Azura and Kataleya!

eyes falling on Phoenix.

That’ll hurt Azura!

to snatch her from Azura’s hold, the urge to kill overpowering me.

as

she says, almost ready to step back, and it hits

I’m…

I’m a monster.

one hand and slowly

cheek with the

am an abomination.

so sorry little

stares at me with those wide

it was easier to stop myself

“Leave,” I command.

is rooting for you. I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want to dress her

FUCK

before she bursts into tears.

and

I spit. In a flash I’m in front

eyes blaze red, and she pushes me back

aura swirl around her. “Sky… calm down.” She warns me softly. 2

then!” I scream.

the door, but I shake my

be alone! I’m safer

say that out loud?

of a smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters the room and cups

confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking deserve

part of me wants to rip her heart out to show them I’m not playing, the thought makes my stomach churn and

I might hurt

hurt her because I used force. Dad catches her, but her face hides the pain I’m sure that push

you a little time.” She

“It’s alright Sky-”

him again,

and I stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the door shuts, and I know they’re probably still watching…

cameras, right?

scoff. How

ground. If they know who I really am… what my thoughts are, they’d

pushed my own mother. Thought to tear her heart

alone, even Malevolent seems

with it the self-doubt and

come out of the depths of my mind. I’m going down a

it’s still dark, it’s still painful… even out

stop the sudden tears that fill my eyes as I rock myself on the bed, trying not to

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

what I said to

are your father’s daughter, you are the one that the King wants. You.

to him? I don’t deserve him!

my mind, the things I said, the things

meant to be a

Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

time I lost control and Dante pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I

first time… and far from the

I was given wasn’t

how to control my Lycan, but how do you control something that

that the real

A killer?

putting Malevolent down

hurt her

pound as I

can smell blood.

see

of last night flash before my eyes, blinding me and I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying to get close

heart is breaking for her.

“Stay away!”

one behind

use all my willpower to calm

done can never be forgiven…

and some clothes, but I have no intention of having a shower. I just. want to be alone!

door opens and I stare at Leo and

me is surfacing as my

Kill him.

I scream.

in my hand before he motions for Royce to move back.

Royce again, the concern in his

Why?

never done anything for him… just used

at?” I ask

woman in

He responds.

woman,