The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

me, and the

Azura and Kataleya!

my eyes falling

That’ll hurt Azura!

as I raise my hands, ready to snatch her from

thunders as

says, almost ready to step back, and it hits me what I was about to do…

I’m…

I’m a monster.

hand

cheek with the

am an

little gremlin… 2

at me with those wide blue

this time it was easier to stop myself the vile thought

“Leave,” I command.

even this little Chibi demon is rooting for you. I was

SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!”

lips droop before she

me, and I glare

I’m in front

she pushes me back with a blast of power.

Kat’s aura swirl around her. “Sky… calm down.” She warns me

then!” I

the door, but I shake

the fuck alone! I want to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my

that out

smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters the room

gently. The confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking deserve this

her heart out to show them I’m not playing, the thought makes my stomach churn and instead I settle for shoving her away.

I might hurt her

Dad catches her, but her face hides the pain I’m sure that push must have given her.

little

“It’s alright Sky-”

leave!” I scream. I might hurt him

walk to the door and I stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room

cameras, right?

How pathetic.

If they know who I really am… what my thoughts are, they’d hate me.

Thought to tear her heart out. What a lovely daughter

even Malevolent seems

but with it the self-doubt and hatred that I once used

the depths of my mind. I’m going down a dark train of

try, it’s still dark, it’s still painful…

down I lift her into my arms and hug her tightly, unable to stop the sudden tears that fill my eyes as I rock myself on the bed,

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

said to Royce…

your father’s daughter, you are the one

what I said and did to him? I don’t deserve him!

the things I said, the things

meant to

a Lycan was

I am dangerous.

lost control and Dante pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost ripped another

first time… and

was given

how to control my Lycan, but how do you control something

the real me?

A killer?

quickly putting Malevolent down and backing away.

her next…

pound as I back

smell

see blood.

I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying

breaking

“Stay away!”

the one behind the cameras…

use

can never be

no intention of having a shower. I just. want

door opens and I stare at Leo and Royce.

me is surfacing as my full

Kill him.

OUT!” I

the towel in my hand before he motions for

Royce again, the concern in his eyes…

Why?

for him… just

you looking at?” I ask instead.

most beautiful woman in

He responds.

woman, but a monster.