The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

me, and the urge to rip everything to

can take Azura and Kataleya!

spin around, my eyes

That’ll hurt Azura!

eyes flash as I raise my hands, ready to snatch her from Azura’s hold, the urge to

as Azura tenses.

back, and it hits me what I was about

I’m…

I’m a monster.

lower one hand and slowly caress

with the other.

an abomination.

sorry little gremlin…

stares at me with those wide blue eyes

and – although this time it was easier to stop myself the vile thought had crossed

“Leave,” I command.

I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want to dress her up as a little

SAID GET THE FUCK

Phoenix’s lips droop before she

rages off me, and

front of her, grabbing her by the

she pushes me back with a

swirl around her. “Sky… calm down.” She warns

out then!”

and Dad appear at the door, but

be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my heart skipping a

say that out loud? 4

glimmer of a smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters the room

The confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking deserve this

heart out to show them I’m not playing,

might hurt her

force. Dad catches her, but her face hides the pain I’m

give you a little time.” She

“It’s alright Sky-”

scream. I might hurt him again, fuck what if I

and I stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the door shuts, and

have cameras,

scoff. How pathetic.

ground. If they know who I really am… what my thoughts are, they’d hate me.

Thought to tear her heart out. What a

Malevolent seems wary

carefully, nudging her head against my leg. Warmth fills me, but with it the

out of the depths of my

I try, it’s still dark,

into my arms and hug her tightly, unable to stop the sudden tears that fill my

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

I said to

You are your father’s daughter, you

and did to him? I don’t deserve

the things I said, the things I’ve done. The crimes I’ve

was never meant to

Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost

and far from the

training I was given

Lycan, but how do you

is that the real

A killer?

Malevolent

her next…

I back

smell blood.

see

night flash before my eyes, blinding me and I hit my leg on

heart is breaking for

“Stay away!”

the one

coming, trying to use all my willpower to calm

I’ve done can

grab a towel blindly and some clothes, but I have no intention of having a shower. I just. want to be

opens and I stare at Leo

surfacing as my full attention

Kill him.

OUT!” I

my hand before he

force myself to look at Royce again, the concern in

Why?

for

are you looking at?” I ask instead.

woman in the

He responds.

not a woman, but a monster.