The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

me, and the urge to rip

Azura and

eyes falling on Phoenix.

That’ll hurt Azura!

hands, ready to snatch her from

heart thunders as Azura tenses.

ready to step back, and it hits me what I

I’m…

I’m a monster.

one hand and slowly caress

with the other.

am an abomination.

little gremlin…

me with those wide blue

my own blur with tears – and – although this time it was easier to stop myself the vile

“Leave,” I command.

is rooting for you. I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want

SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!” I

droop before she bursts into

command rages off me, and I glare at

spit. In a flash I’m in front of her,

red, and she pushes me back with

swirl around her. “Sky… calm

then!” I

appear at the door, but I shake

fuck alone! I want to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my

that out loud? 4

Mama’s lips as she enters the room and cups

confidence in her eyes is messed up. I don’t

not playing, the thought makes my stomach churn and

that I might

I hurt her because I used force. Dad catches her, but her face hides the

little time.” She says instead.

“It’s alright Sky-”

Just leave!” I scream. I might hurt him

heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the

cameras,

How

ground. If they know who I

pushed my own mother. Thought to tear her heart out.

Malevolent seems wary of

nudging her head against my leg. Warmth fills me, but with it

my mind. I’m going down a

try, it’s still dark, it’s still

Reaching down I lift her into my arms and hug her tightly, unable to stop the sudden tears that fill my eyes as I rock myself

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

I said to

that… you are almost there…. You are your father’s daughter, you are the one that

I said and did to

echoing in my mind, the things I said, the things I’ve done. The crimes I’ve

to be a

Lycan

I am dangerous.

a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost ripped another kid’s

was the first time… and far

was given

how to control my Lycan, but how do you control something that just wants to kill?

that the real

A killer?

Malevolent down and backing away.

hurt her

as I back up towards

smell

see

I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying to get close to me,

breaking for her.

“Stay away!”

one behind the cameras…

coming, trying to use all

I’ve done can never

have no

I stare at Leo and Royce.

is surfacing as my full attention turns

Kill him.

I scream.

glances at the towel in my hand before he motions for

force myself to look at Royce again, the concern in

Why?

anything for him… just used him…

you looking at?”

beautiful woman in the world.”

He responds.

not a woman, but