The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

and the urge

can take Azura and

eyes falling on Phoenix.

That’ll hurt Azura!

snatch her from Azura’s hold, the urge

thunders as

to step back, and it hits me what I was about to

I’m…

I’m a monster.

lower one hand and slowly caress

with the other.

an abomination.

sorry little

at me with those wide

it was easier to stop myself the vile

“Leave,” I command.

even this little Chibi demon is rooting for you. I was

THE FUCK OUT!” I snarl,

before she bursts

off me, and I glare at

spit. In a flash I’m in front of her, grabbing her

pushes me back with a blast

swirl around her. “Sky…

out then!” I

door, but

alone! I want to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my heart skipping a beat.

say that out

of a smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters the room and cups my

this.” She whispers gently. The confidence in her eyes is messed

show them I’m not playing, the thought makes my stomach churn and instead I settle for shoving

might hurt her

her because I used force. Dad catches her, but her face hides the pain I’m sure that push

little

“It’s alright Sky-”

him

my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the door

cameras, right?

How pathetic.

ground. If they know who I really am… what my thoughts are, they’d hate me.

own mother. Thought to tear her heart out. What a lovely

even Malevolent seems wary of

with it the self-doubt and hatred that I once used

to come out of the depths of my mind. I’m going down a dark train of thought…

even as I try, it’s still dark, it’s still painful… even out here…

stop the sudden tears that fill my eyes as I rock myself on the bed, trying not to let a sound escape me as tears spill down my cheeks.

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

I said

that… you are almost there…. You are your father’s daughter, you are the one that the

to him? I don’t deserve

echoing in my mind, the things I

never meant to

me a Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

I lost control and Dante pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost ripped another

was the first time… and far from the last

training I was given wasn’t

how

that the real

A killer?

quickly putting Malevolent down

hurt her

to pound as I back

can smell

can see

before my eyes, blinding me and I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying

is breaking for her.

“Stay away!”

he’s the one behind the cameras…

can hear them coming, trying to use all my willpower to calm

can never be forgiven…

and some clothes, but I have no intention of having a shower. I

and I stare at Leo

is surfacing as my full attention turns to my ice god.

Kill him.

I scream.

before he motions for

to look at Royce again,

Why?

never done anything for him… just used

at?” I ask instead.

beautiful woman in the

He responds.

a woman, but