The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

inside of me, and the urge to rip everything to shreds

can take Azura and Kataleya!

around, my eyes falling

That’ll hurt Azura!

my hands, ready to snatch her from Azura’s hold, the urge to kill overpowering

thunders as

it hits me what I was about

I’m…

I’m a monster.

hand

cheek with the

an abomination.

sorry little

at me with those

my own blur with tears – and – although this time it was

“Leave,” I command.

aren’t yourself and we’re here for you,” Azura says firmly. “Look, even this little Chibi demon is rooting for you. I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want to dress her up as a little kitten or a voodoo doll

GET THE FUCK OUT!” I

Phoenix’s lips droop before she bursts

me, and

I spit. In a flash I’m in front

she pushes me back with

“Sky… calm

out then!”

and Dad appear at the door, but I shake

I want to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my heart skipping a

that out loud? 4

lips as she

in her eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking

heart out to show them I’m not playing, the thought makes my stomach churn and instead I settle for shoving

I might hurt her

Dad catches her, but her face hides the pain I’m sure that push must have given

a little time.” She says

“It’s alright Sky-”

might hurt him again, fuck what if I hurt him

heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the

have cameras, right?

scoff. How pathetic.

bed, staring at the ground. If they know who I really am… what my

pushed my own mother. Thought to tear her heart out. What a lovely daughter

even Malevolent

me carefully, nudging her head against my leg. Warmth fills me, but with it the self-doubt and hatred that I once used to

of the depths of my mind. I’m going

I try, it’s still dark, it’s still painful… even out here…

her into my arms and hug her tightly, unable to stop the sudden tears that fill

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

said

think about that… you are almost there…. You are your father’s daughter, you are the one that

did to him? I don’t deserve him!

things I said, the things I’ve done.

meant to be a

me a Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost ripped another kid’s

and

was given wasn’t

to learn how to control my Lycan, but how

the real

A killer?

Malevolent

hurt her next…

to pound as I back

smell blood.

see blood.

eyes, blinding me and I hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying to get close

heart is breaking for her.

“Stay away!”

one behind

coming, trying to use all

done can never be

and some clothes, but I have no intention of having a shower. I just. want

and I stare at

as my

Kill him.

I scream.

in my hand before he motions for

to look at Royce again, the

Why?

done anything for him… just used him…

at?” I ask instead.

woman

He responds.

not a woman, but a monster.