The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 142

To Protect Them

A.N: The chapter may contain some triggering content – Skyla hits a very low point.

SKYLA.

My eyes snap open and they’re blazing purple, an arm is draped over my waist, and I turn to see Kataleyà next to me, her eyes open as she looks at me with concern.

“Hey, afternoon, Sky.” She whispers.

I can smell Royce’s scent lingering in this room. I look down at the shirt I’m wearing. I don’t know how, but I know he put this on

What the hell happened?

My body feels as if it’s been hit by a damn rhinoceros.

The events of what happened suddenly rush back to my mind and my stomach twists as the influx of memories and emotions make it hard to breathe.

I tried to kill Dad…

I hurt Royce.

Again.

I tried to kill him…

That’s all I ever do, cause him pain…

I hurt him, mentally and physically.

He’s too fucking good for me.

“Skyla?”

I turn my back on her. The overwhelming guilt of what happened is suffocating me.

It’s better if I’m dead. This time they were able to stop me… but what if next time they can’t?

Why aren’t they locking me up?

Why are they allowing me to fucking do this shit?!

When will they realise I am a monster? When someone is dead? 1

“Sky, come on, let’s go to your room, “

Kataleya says, I turn and look at her, she’s standing there, a smile on her face, her long hair in a messy plait over her shoulder as she holds her hand out to me. “Come on Sky, let’s go.”

‘Come on Kat, let’s go play! I got you!’ 1

For a moment, I’m hit with a wave of nostalgia. It feels like Déjà vu, only this time, the roles are reversed.

I was there for Kat when she began to close in on herself, not wanting to go out as she thought about the Little Boy Hook who had left. Who had gone through so much?

But the difference is even at her lowest point, she didn’t try to kill anyone… I did. 1

I take her hand distractedly, allowing her to lead me out of this room and down to my room.

The guilt inside of me is growing in my mind.

I remember screaming at Leo that I’ll kill him first…

Accusing Royce of raping me!

Fuck!

“Sky… Your heartbeat…” Kataleya’s soft voice is faint as I simply stare at the ground in front of me.

I don’t care if I fought it; it wasn’t enough, I still hurt them, I still hurt my baby.

Every single fucking time…

“Oh, hey! Morning!” Delsanra says, smiling from where she stands by my cushion.

I step into my room and suddenly feel a gentle wave of lightness overcome me.

Magic?

But it does nothing for the feeling of drowning that is overcoming me from within.

Azura is standing by the closet, carrying Phoenix but the way her and Delsanra are here…

They’re up to something!

Are they ransacking my room or some shit trying to find more poison or something?

My vials!

Ripping free from Kataleya’s gentle hold I cross the room and push past Azura, pulling open my drawers.

My heart thunders as I realise they’re gone.

They’re all gone…

of me, and the urge to rip everything to shreds

can take Azura

spin around, my eyes falling on Phoenix.

That’ll hurt Azura!

eyes flash as I raise my hands, ready to snatch her from Azura’s

as Azura

and it

I’m…

I’m a monster.

lower one hand and slowly

cheek with the

an abomination.

little gremlin… 2

me with those

my own blur with tears – and – although this time it was easier to

“Leave,” I command.

and we’re here for you,” Azura says firmly. “Look, even this little Chibi demon is rooting for you. I was telling Delsanra earlier that I want to dress her up as a little kitten or a voodoo doll

FUCK OUT!”

Phoenix’s lips droop before she bursts

rages off me, and

I spit. In a flash I’m in front of her, grabbing her

pushes me

aura swirl around her. “Sky…

out then!”

at the door, but I shake my

I want to be alone! I’m safer alone!” I snap, my

that out loud?

of a smile crosses Mama’s lips as she enters the room

eyes is messed up. I don’t fucking deserve this confidence from her.

I’m not playing, the thought makes

might hurt her

I hurt her because I used force. Dad catches her, but her

you a little time.” She says

“It’s alright Sky-”

scream. I might hurt him again, fuck what if

the door and I stand there, my heart pounding. Alessandra lets Malevolent in the room before the door shuts, and I know

cameras,

How

know who I really am… what my thoughts are, they’d hate me.

tear her heart out. What

even Malevolent

nudging her head against my leg. Warmth fills me, but with it the self-doubt and hatred that

depths of my mind. I’m going down

dark, it’s still painful… even

I whisper. Reaching down I lift her into my arms and hug her tightly, unable to stop the sudden tears that fill my eyes as I rock myself on

My heart hurts.

‘Fight it.’

Bastet?

‘Never doubt yourself.’1

what I said to Royce…

almost there…. You are your father’s

and did to

are echoing in my mind, the things I said, the

to be a

a Lycan was dangerous.

I am dangerous.

lost control and Dante pinned me down during a game of hide and seek when I had newly shifted… I almost ripped another kid’s throat

first time… and

training I was given

to control my Lycan, but how do you control something that just wants to

that the

A killer?

Malevolent

hurt her

I back up towards the

smell

can see blood.

hit my leg on something. Turning, I push Malevolent, who is trying to get close

breaking

“Stay away!”

one

can hear them coming, trying to use all my willpower to

I’ve done can never be

some clothes, but I have no intention of

I stare at Leo and Royce.

as my full attention turns to

Kill him.

I

hand before he motions for Royce to move

at Royce again, the

Why?

done anything for him… just used

at?” I ask

beautiful woman in

He responds.

she’s not a woman, but a