The Perfect Luna by Marissa Gilbert

Chapter 36. Tell Me What Happ…

Riannon couldn’t believe her own happiness when she opened her eyes and saw him lying in front of her and watching her.

Amate. She had a mate. A real one. Not a chosen one. A smile curled onto his lips and she reciprocated it. There were no regrets. Whatsoever.

This was very different from what she had with Brayden back in the day. Now that she thought about it, if this was what Brayden felt when he met his own mate, she could

understand why he couldn’t reject Roxanne.

• She would never reject Gideon if she knew.

.

.

This did not cancel all the horrible things that Roxy did to her and to others in their power struggle. But she could understand now.

Partially.

This was not changing her plan. But it gave her some understanding. “Onyx,” she called her wolf, “Are you there?” At first, all she heard was silence. But then the familiar voice sounded in her head.

“I will be soon…”

She tried calling her again, asking what was going on. But Onyx spoke no more.

However, this was better than nothing. This was a promise. And just knowing that her wolf didn’t abandon her made Riannon smile wider.

The motion did not go unnoticed. Gideon pulled her closer. So that her head was now

tucked into his chest, and he was able to dig his face into her hair and breathe in her scent that

he loved so much was able to enjoy for the first time.

“I can’t believe this is real,” he muttered, “From the moment I saw you… I dreamt of this. of holding you like this, of having you as mine.”

She looked up at his handsome face and slid her hand to brush his cheek with a short stubble that prickled her fingers slightly.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” She asked. “Would you believe me if I simply told you?” He arched his brow at her.

“I guess not,” she admitted honestly. She had too much on her plate to simply believe some lycan who approached her out of the blue insisting that she was his mate: Even if he was a king. Not to mention that Onyx, the little hyena, never told her that they were mates on the rare moments she spoke to her. She couldn’t believe her wolf would waste her strength to tell

everything

On the other hand, Onyx was smarter than regular wolves. Ria always knew that. She proved it to her many times. And to be honest, maybe it was for the best that she did not throw them into a situation where Riannon knew that he was her mate from the very beginning yet

did not feel the connection. In that way, Gideon had to work for it and earn her trust.

Yes, that wolf of hers wasn’t simple at all. She took a bet and look at where it got them…

“Yesterday,” he traced his fingers over her bare hand, “You said the word. You called me Mate. How did you know?”

“Onyx called you that,” Ria decided to confess. Now that they were together, she did not want secrets from him. It was hard starting to trust the new man in her life but what they had was so much different from what she experienced before.

It was bigger. And better. And so special. Everything one could wish for.

“Is Onyx back?” Gideon asked with hope in his voice. They were already together but he would still feel much better if he knew that the wolf was there.

“Partially,” Ria gave him a vague smile, “I feel her presence somewhere there inside of my soul but she is not at full strength yet. I think she is trying to restore after.”

She stopped talking and he suddenly got serious. This was not a joke to him at all. He knew about a few people who had lost their wolves. He started reading about them when he found out about Onyx’s absence. This was rare. But it did happen several times in shifter’s common history.

When the beast was lost, the host was becoming just an empty shell as half of their soul

But a mostly missing wolf was a bad

that he wanted for

there was another thing that bothered him. Those

Sometimes against forces much

in history, it was always the same. When on the brink of death, the wolves, foxes, bears or other creatures sacrificed themselves to protect

when the beast died, the owner was slowly becoming

worse than death.

stop seeing through your beast’s eyes, to stop

sense…

to move properly at once for humans. Probably even worse because something inside was missing as well. Everything was

everyone could

able to cope, though. She was strong. In

for her to have that kind of fate. For her, he was ready to

everything

research on her showed, and his spies were among the best, her life was a typical Luna

that pack behind the closed curtains that made her almost lose her

this time I want you to be absolutely honest. You can trust me.

though she knew that she wasn’t going

was about

of yours?” Gideon tried

way his grasp on her

no,” she sighed. How could she tell him everything that happened

him to be

he hurt you physically?” the Lycan king asked

said at once to calm him down.

something happened to you,” he took her chin into his large palm and made her look at him, “Something that made you want

tried to convince herself that

weakness due to their rebirth and their chosen mate bond breaking.

was everything? And more…

don’t even know how to say it,” she sat up, wrapping the Egyptian cotton sheets around herself, Gideon following her motion not to miss any trace of emotion on her beautiful face.” You will probably think I was crazy,”

so that she could see him. He hoped that she would understand that no matter what was happening, he was going to be by her side. Whatever she was going

himi..

he gave her a soft smile. “Let’s hope so,” she gave him a

was horrible. But then I somehow came back to the very moment it all started. Gideon, I literally opened my eyes when the door opened and the two of them walked in into our packhouse. This was when I lost Onyx. And since that day I had to live again during the most horrible days of my life. Only that I didn’t want for everything to repeat. I wanted to change what happened. And I started tweaking things one by one. Big and little. I changed them and they were changing the reality. Yet main events are still the same. For example, when I tried to fight Roxy joining the pack, I

when she noticed the frozen expression on his face. Did she overdo it? Was it too much

to process it. He thought that she was joking at first, but she was too serious and nervous about that. And

Their very first conversation. She was already

the ball. Her husband brought out his mate and mistress for everyone to see.

exactly the opposite.

No one was that bold. Unless… they were on the brink of death and

how worried she was about everything

he grabbed her and pulled her into the tightest

say anything, but she knew that he believed her. And it did

hair as he couldn’t reach anything else from this position

embracing his warmth and his wonderful scent. Embracing

let it all out. The pain, the loneliness, the fight, all

felt

in his arms as long as she needed, hurting together with her. Even

he expected. But his beautiful Luna never ceased to amaze him. She

looked at him with puffy eyes,

away with his

his

with the rebirth and then went on to

to simply plan what they would

with Brayden for years. But it was so different with Gideon. And not at all what she expected. They weren’t finishing each other’s sentences. He wasn’t agreeing with everything that she told him the way