The Perfect Luna by Marissa Gilbert

Chapter 36. Tell Me What Happ…

Riannon couldn’t believe her own happiness when she opened her eyes and saw him lying in front of her and watching her.

Amate. She had a mate. A real one. Not a chosen one. A smile curled onto his lips and she reciprocated it. There were no regrets. Whatsoever.

This was very different from what she had with Brayden back in the day. Now that she thought about it, if this was what Brayden felt when he met his own mate, she could

understand why he couldn’t reject Roxanne.

• She would never reject Gideon if she knew.

.

.

This did not cancel all the horrible things that Roxy did to her and to others in their power struggle. But she could understand now.

Partially.

This was not changing her plan. But it gave her some understanding. “Onyx,” she called her wolf, “Are you there?” At first, all she heard was silence. But then the familiar voice sounded in her head.

“I will be soon…”

She tried calling her again, asking what was going on. But Onyx spoke no more.

However, this was better than nothing. This was a promise. And just knowing that her wolf didn’t abandon her made Riannon smile wider.

The motion did not go unnoticed. Gideon pulled her closer. So that her head was now

tucked into his chest, and he was able to dig his face into her hair and breathe in her scent that

he loved so much was able to enjoy for the first time.

“I can’t believe this is real,” he muttered, “From the moment I saw you… I dreamt of this. of holding you like this, of having you as mine.”

She looked up at his handsome face and slid her hand to brush his cheek with a short stubble that prickled her fingers slightly.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” She asked. “Would you believe me if I simply told you?” He arched his brow at her.

“I guess not,” she admitted honestly. She had too much on her plate to simply believe some lycan who approached her out of the blue insisting that she was his mate: Even if he was a king. Not to mention that Onyx, the little hyena, never told her that they were mates on the rare moments she spoke to her. She couldn’t believe her wolf would waste her strength to tell

everything

On the other hand, Onyx was smarter than regular wolves. Ria always knew that. She proved it to her many times. And to be honest, maybe it was for the best that she did not throw them into a situation where Riannon knew that he was her mate from the very beginning yet

did not feel the connection. In that way, Gideon had to work for it and earn her trust.

Yes, that wolf of hers wasn’t simple at all. She took a bet and look at where it got them…

“Yesterday,” he traced his fingers over her bare hand, “You said the word. You called me Mate. How did you know?”

“Onyx called you that,” Ria decided to confess. Now that they were together, she did not want secrets from him. It was hard starting to trust the new man in her life but what they had was so much different from what she experienced before.

It was bigger. And better. And so special. Everything one could wish for.

“Is Onyx back?” Gideon asked with hope in his voice. They were already together but he would still feel much better if he knew that the wolf was there.

“Partially,” Ria gave him a vague smile, “I feel her presence somewhere there inside of my soul but she is not at full strength yet. I think she is trying to restore after.”

She stopped talking and he suddenly got serious. This was not a joke to him at all. He knew about a few people who had lost their wolves. He started reading about them when he found out about Onyx’s absence. This was rare. But it did happen several times in shifter’s common history.

When the beast was lost, the host was becoming just an empty shell as half of their soul

did not happen to Ria yet. But a mostly missing wolf was

destiny that he wanted for his

thing that bothered him.

against forces much stronger

bears or other creatures sacrificed themselves to protect their hosts.

was slowly

worse than death.

beast’s eyes, to stop sensing what he or

sense…

and ability to move properly at once for humans. Probably even worse because something inside was missing as well. Everything was lessened, everything was different… Less vibrant. It was

not everyone could cope

one of those who would be able to cope, though. She was strong. In some sense

wish for her to have that kind of fate. For her, he

everything

on her showed, and his spies were among the best, her life was a typical Luna life. She had her hardships

pack behind the closed curtains that made her almost

you to be absolutely honest. You can trust me. All that I do from the

even though she knew

that was about

of yours?” Gideon tried not to show it, but she felt

by the way his grasp on her

and no,” she sighed. How could she

be okay about

you physically?” the Lycan king asked

at once to calm him down. Luckily, it was

palm and made her look at him, “Something that made you want not only divorce but fight for your pack. Something that broke you so much that your wolf

time she spoke. She tried to convince herself that it was just

to their rebirth and their chosen mate

was everything? And more…

to miss any

no matter what was happening, he was going to be by her side. Whatever

himi..

gave her a soft smile. “Let’s hope

promised, and she took everything away from me. She killed the people I cared about, made Brayden reject and humiliate me, taking my title. And even then, after I already lost everything, she still killed me with the help of one of the wolves from my own pack. It was horrible. But then I somehow came back to the very moment it all started. Gideon, I literally opened my eyes when the door opened and the two of them walked in into our packhouse. This was when I lost Onyx. And since that day I had to live again during the most horrible days of my life. Only that I didn’t want for everything to repeat. I wanted to change what happened. And I started tweaking

when she noticed the frozen expression on his face. Did she overdo it? Was it too much for him? Should she have stopped after

to process it. He thought that she was joking at first, but she was too serious and

all. But some of the things did. Their very

then her appearance at the ball. Her husband brought out his mate and mistress for everyone to see. Anyone

exactly the opposite.

one was that bold. Unless… they were on the brink of death and had nothing to

worried she was about everything and wanted to tell

her and pulled her

but she knew that he believed her. And it did

sorry you had to go through this,” he said, kissing her hair as he couldn’t reach anything else from

too, embracing his warmth and his wonderful scent. Embracing the feeling of safety that he gave her.

she could finally afford to let it all out. The pain, the loneliness, the fight, all her raw emotions were out

felt so

arms as long as she needed, hurting together with

than he expected. But his beautiful Luna never ceased to

him with puffy eyes, embarrassed

last tear away with

next day in his room. Only ordering food in and

more. It started with the rebirth and then went on to their previous life. Then

But later they started to simply plan what

was so different with Gideon. And not at all what she expected. They weren’t finishing each other’s sentences. He wasn’t agreeing with everything that she told him the