The Perfect Luna by Marissa Gilbert

Chapter 36. Tell Me What Happ…

Riannon couldn’t believe her own happiness when she opened her eyes and saw him lying in front of her and watching her.

Amate. She had a mate. A real one. Not a chosen one. A smile curled onto his lips and she reciprocated it. There were no regrets. Whatsoever.

This was very different from what she had with Brayden back in the day. Now that she thought about it, if this was what Brayden felt when he met his own mate, she could

understand why he couldn’t reject Roxanne.

• She would never reject Gideon if she knew.

.

.

This did not cancel all the horrible things that Roxy did to her and to others in their power struggle. But she could understand now.

Partially.

This was not changing her plan. But it gave her some understanding. “Onyx,” she called her wolf, “Are you there?” At first, all she heard was silence. But then the familiar voice sounded in her head.

“I will be soon…”

She tried calling her again, asking what was going on. But Onyx spoke no more.

However, this was better than nothing. This was a promise. And just knowing that her wolf didn’t abandon her made Riannon smile wider.

The motion did not go unnoticed. Gideon pulled her closer. So that her head was now

tucked into his chest, and he was able to dig his face into her hair and breathe in her scent that

he loved so much was able to enjoy for the first time.

“I can’t believe this is real,” he muttered, “From the moment I saw you… I dreamt of this. of holding you like this, of having you as mine.”

She looked up at his handsome face and slid her hand to brush his cheek with a short stubble that prickled her fingers slightly.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” She asked. “Would you believe me if I simply told you?” He arched his brow at her.

“I guess not,” she admitted honestly. She had too much on her plate to simply believe some lycan who approached her out of the blue insisting that she was his mate: Even if he was a king. Not to mention that Onyx, the little hyena, never told her that they were mates on the rare moments she spoke to her. She couldn’t believe her wolf would waste her strength to tell

everything

On the other hand, Onyx was smarter than regular wolves. Ria always knew that. She proved it to her many times. And to be honest, maybe it was for the best that she did not throw them into a situation where Riannon knew that he was her mate from the very beginning yet

did not feel the connection. In that way, Gideon had to work for it and earn her trust.

Yes, that wolf of hers wasn’t simple at all. She took a bet and look at where it got them…

“Yesterday,” he traced his fingers over her bare hand, “You said the word. You called me Mate. How did you know?”

“Onyx called you that,” Ria decided to confess. Now that they were together, she did not want secrets from him. It was hard starting to trust the new man in her life but what they had was so much different from what she experienced before.

It was bigger. And better. And so special. Everything one could wish for.

“Is Onyx back?” Gideon asked with hope in his voice. They were already together but he would still feel much better if he knew that the wolf was there.

“Partially,” Ria gave him a vague smile, “I feel her presence somewhere there inside of my soul but she is not at full strength yet. I think she is trying to restore after.”

She stopped talking and he suddenly got serious. This was not a joke to him at all. He knew about a few people who had lost their wolves. He started reading about them when he found out about Onyx’s absence. This was rare. But it did happen several times in shifter’s common history.

When the beast was lost, the host was becoming just an empty shell as half of their soul

But a mostly missing wolf was a bad

a destiny that he wanted for

that bothered him. Those people he read about were

who fought in battles. Sometimes against forces much stronger than them. In

cases known in history, it was always the same. When on the brink of death, the wolves, foxes, bears or other creatures sacrificed themselves to protect their hosts. The hosts survived but

was slowly

worse than death.

seeing through your beast’s eyes, to stop sensing what he

sense…

as losing hearing, sight, and ability to move properly at once for humans. Probably even worse because something inside was missing as well. Everything was lessened, everything was different… Less vibrant. It was the same as sucking

could cope with

to cope, though. She

did not wish for her to have that kind of fate. For her, he was ready to

everything

research on her showed, and his spies were among the best, her life

what was done to her in that pack behind

this earlier. But this time I want you to be absolutely honest. You can trust me. All that I do from the day I met you is for your protection. You are my Luna even in spite of being

she knew that she wasn’t

that was

That husband of yours?” Gideon tried not to show it, but

rage by the way

sighed. How could she tell him everything that

to be

the Lycan king

once to calm

her chin into his large palm and made her look at him, “Something that made you want not only divorce but fight for your pack. Something that broke you so much

spoke. She tried

their rebirth and their chosen mate bond breaking. But

was everything? And more…

how to say it,” she sat up, wrapping the Egyptian cotton sheets around herself, Gideon following her motion not to miss

no matter what was happening, he was going to be by her side. Whatever she was going to

himi..

gave her a soft smile. “Let’s hope

she pronounced everything in one go as she was letting it out, “I already lived this part of my life. With Brayden and his mate Roxy in my pack. He never rejected her as he promised, and she took everything away from me. She killed the people I cared about, made Brayden reject and humiliate me, taking my title. And even then, after I already lost everything, she still killed me with the help of one of the wolves from my own pack. It was horrible. But then I somehow came back to the very moment it all started. Gideon, I literally opened my eyes when the door opened and the two of them walked in into our packhouse. This was when I lost Onyx. And since that day I had to live again during the most horrible days of my life. Only that I didn’t want for everything to repeat. I wanted to change what happened. And I started tweaking things one by one. Big and little. I changed them and they were changing the reality. Yet main events are still the same. For example, when I tried to fight Roxy joining the pack, I still lost. But when I

his face. Did she overdo it?

tried to process it. He thought that she was joking at first, but she was too serious and nervous about that. And now

all. But some of the things did. Their very first conversation.

husband brought out his mate and mistress for everyone

exactly the opposite.

she spoke to him. No one was that bold. Unless… they were on the brink

He could see how worried she was about everything and wanted to tell him to forget about

in the next moment, he grabbed her

anything, but she knew that he believed her. And it did not

so sorry you had to go through this,” he said, kissing her hair as he couldn’t reach anything else from this position but

him too, embracing his warmth and his wonderful scent. Embracing the feeling of safety that he gave her. And for

moment, she could finally afford to let it all out. The pain, the loneliness, the fight, all her raw emotions were

it felt so

as long as she needed, hurting together with her. Even Mars was howling inside

his beautiful Luna never ceased to amaze him.

puffy eyes, embarrassed by

the last tear away with his thumb, “Tell me everything from

the whole next day in his room. Only ordering

seemed that there was always more. It started with the rebirth and then went on to their previous life. Then they were discussing their possible theories of what everything that had happened

But later they started to simply plan what they would

how to work in a team. She was doing it with Brayden for years. But it was so different with Gideon. And not at all what