The Rejected Werewolf Princess by Didiadeyemi

Chapter 59

At first there was complete shock on his face. The shock slowly morphed into understanding as the words settled in his head followed by a deep sigh as he took his seat. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him looking at me but I couldn’t bear to meet his eyes. I wanted to be able to keep a clear head and an even clearer mind while he spoke.

“I don’t know where to start,” he began. “I don’t know where the issue started from. I don’t know what you saw or what you heard but I know one thing is I would have never dreamed of doing anything to hurt you. Camilla, I lo-,”

“Don’t say it, please,” I was annoyed at how weak my voice sounded. I was annoyed that I knew what he was about to say and I didn’t want to hear it because those three words would promptly end this conversation and I would be back in his arms like nothing ever happened.

I hated how weak it made me feel and how easy it would be for him to just sway me and get me back in his arms like nothing happened. Everything was suddenly so confusing because I don’t even know what to believe anymore. I don’t know if I should believe what I saw or what mother and Ryker say.

I know I believe my mother because she wouldn’t lie to me and I hate to say it but I already believe Ryker. Judging by what mother said, he didn’t cheat but that doesn’t explain what I saw. It is like there is a war raging in my head and I don’t know what is real and what isn’t anymore. I don’t know who to believe or if I can even trust myself at this point.

“Camilla,” Ryker’s voice was soft and pleading. “I have never looked at Lauren twice since I met you. I don’t want her, I have never wanted her. Since the moment you stumbled across my border, even when I told you I didn’t want a mate, even when you wouldn’t look me in the eye like you wouldn’t right now. I was wholly and completely yours from the first moment our eyes met and I don’t know what I can say to make you believe me because you know what you saw and I believe you when you say you saw that but I know for a fact that I was nowhere near Lauren while you were at the pack house.”

“Then who was with her?” I asked finally turning to face him. “Who was the man who looked exactly like you that she was f**king in your office? She was bent over your desk and someone was standing behind her. Who was it if not you?”

“I don’t know.”

I threw my hand up in frustration and stood to my feet. If I had a scrap of sense or dignity, I would walk away right now. It makes no sense how I know I saw him there but he is adamant that nothing happened and he wasn’t even there. If someone else were in my position I would have told them to leave because he was trying to gaslight them but I am here and I can see the sincerity in his

eyes.

He looked just as frustrated as I did. He looked annoyed by the entire thing and he just looked sad. He looked like he wanted it all to be over and his emotions mirrored mine because I wanted it all to be over. I wanted to be back in his arms, I wanted to forget everything and I just wanted him.

I ran my hands down my face in barely concealed frustration and I could see Ryker watching me carefully as if I was a ticking time bomb on the brink of explosion. He looked like he was preparing for the worst case scenario.

“Where is Lauren now?” I asked. “Where has she been in the past four years?”

“I would assume she was in the pack but I’m not sure because I never checked on her once. I didn’t care what she was doing because my main focus was finding you. My only reason for waking up every day was to find you. I told you a few days ago that she wasn’t found at the pack. I don’t know how long she has been missing.”

“You don’t have a child with her,” I repeated just to be sure and he nodded.

“You are the only woman I have and have ever wanted a child with. If Lauren truly was pregnant then you

I know this, you cannot believe a word Lauren

problem is was Lucy in on that lie? Was everything I saw a lie? I don’t know what is real and what is not anymore. It is frustrating and it makes me feel like I am running in circles. It makes me feel like I am in the woods blindfolded and I am nearing a cliff but I don’t know how to

asked softly because I didn’t know what else to do or say. “What

She is the only other common denominator in everything and she is the only person who knows the truth. I don’t expect you to believe me or come back to me Camilla but I truly hope that you give me a chance. I miss you and you don’t want me to say it but I love you. You are all I have thought of in the past four years. I scoured every corner of the earth looking for you. I

response. “Why would you spend so

on.”

his feet now and he crossed the length of the room until he was standing directly in front of me.

face and I knew I should pull away but I allowed him hold me. I allowed him stroke his thumb across my cheek softly and I allowed myself relax in his hold

It felt like we were in our own personal bubble and for once, I could forget everything that had happened and just do what I wanted to

I breathed softly, “We shouldn’t. It will get too complicated

is nothing complicated about

meant to come out as a warning but it sounded more

our lips were practically brushing and I couldn’t even bring myself to pull away.

his lips moved against mine with every word. “While we search for the truth, let us start over. I want you

then we would be strangers before becoming friends or anything more) We

footstool to be used at your disposal. I would rather be a speck of dust in your world than a king in a

was spinning and this time I clearly knew that I was the one who bridged the gap between us when I kissed him. I knew that it was completely irresponsible and st upid of me to do

the one who kissed him first but he was the one who was in control. He claimed my mouth with unmatched passion and I could

his tongue caressed my mouth, I could feel

he ran his hands through his hair while muttering the word f**k over and over again. He started to pace the length of the room and I could see that he was confused and conflicted. I had my hand over my lips that were still

time. I don’t want you to regret this a second time. I can

of disbelief. “I don’t know what is going on but I know that I don’t regret it. I’m confused Ryker. On one

want to make this

us together and start assuming things. I don’t want to hurt our daughter by making her think something is

there staring at me with wide eyes as if he was shocked. I wanted to ask why he was looking at me like that but I knew it was

a stray strand of hair behind my ears. There was a look in his eyes, one that I couldn’t quite put

if you’ve said it before

simply. “And if we are going to do this then we have to keep her out of it. I don’t know what’s going to happen after the coronation and I don’t know

what I want,” he assured me.

made the move and he kissed me. I don’t know how long we stood there in the dead of night with our lips speaking multitudes of words for us. It felt so innocent and pure but also forbidden because the last thing I wanted to