The sickened luna’s last chance

Chapter 148

Chapter 148

Alexander

I’d been avoiding Ella for three days, and it was slowly driving me insane.

Every morning, I left the house before she woke up. Every evening, I made sure to only return after I was absolutely certain she had already gone to bed.

During the day, I buried myself in pack business, trade negotiations, campaign documents- hell, I would even just drive around for hours. Anything to keep my mind off the conversation we’d had about children and the look of hurt that had flashed across her face when I had coldly mentioned the contract.

But no matter how busy I kept myself, my thoughts always, always circled back to her.

I kept thinking about the way she’d felt beneath me that night, warm and responsive and utterly perfect.

I thought about the soft sounds she’d made when I touched her, the way she’d offered her throat to me at the very end.

And then I thought about the question she’d asked about having children, and the hope I’d seen in her eyes before I’d crushed it with my cowardly response.

“She wants pups with us,” my wolf kept reminding me. “Our mate wants a family.”

And Goddess help me, I wanted that too.

I’d spent the last three days trying to convince myself otherwise, listing all the reasons why it was a terrible idea. Ella might be a spy. Her family had likely orchestrated my parents’ deaths. I couldn’t trust her completely, not yet.

But every argument felt weaker by the day.

Because I’d seen how her own family treated her. I’d watched them ignore her, dismiss her, treat her like an inconvenience rather than a beloved daughter. If she was their spy, they were doing a damn good job of making it look like they couldn’t care less about her wellbeing.

And then there was the way she’d responded to me that night. The look in her eyes when we took each other’s virginity, the complete vulnerability she’d shown despite how cruel I had been to her over the years.

Either she was the most accomplished actress I’d ever met, or those emotions had been completely and utterly real.

Today, on the third day of my self-imposed exile was one of those days when I would rather drive aimlessly than do anything else. Sitting in my car while the rain pelted my windshield, the forest rushing past me on both sides, I finally admitted the truth to myself.

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to reject Ella. I wanted to mark her, claim

beside her every morning and fall asleep with her in

love her openly, without reservation

should have terrified me. Instead, it felt

things between us with my reaction to her question about children. She probably thought I was disgusted by the idea of having a family with her, when the truth

how bad at that we

a divorce months ago, why she seemed so adamant about being rejected only to turn around and have such a beautiful night with me.

was. Maybe she was protecting herself because she thought I

it was time to prove

home. The house was quiet when I returned, but I headed straight upstairs, expecting to find Ella holed up reading a book

to her, but I would have to figure it out. We both would. Because I wasn’t going to keep dancing around like this any

opened the bedroom door, the

out, checking the bathroom. She wasn’t here, and her purse was gone,

to look for her when something on her

stomach dropping

pregnancy test. With

beside it, a pamphlet titled “Safe

nearly gave

child. And she was

the test with

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why she had asked about children, wasn’t it? She was carrying my baby and wanted to know if I might want it. And I’d thrown the contract in her

three at a time “Lilith!” I shouted.

was eerily quiet. I checked every room, growing more frantic by

you seen Ella?” My voice was frantic, my hair falling into my eyes,

around, clearly surprised to see me. “I… I think I saw

you see which direction

shrugged. “Looked like they were headed toward

They’d gone to town.