The Silent Alpha (Natalia)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12: Turmoil

***Natalia***

Zane leaves to collect his things and Agnes from Nikki and Micah’s place, giving me the chance to really think about what I just agreed to.I head to the bathroom to splash cool water on my face and neck, letting out a huge sigh as I wipe the sweat from my brow.

My reflection mocks my pathetic situation, laughing at me for accepting yet another wolf into my life.

‘Don’t let him get too close” I remind myself.

‘ Every kind gesture, every kiss, every gentle caress of my face…it will all be a lie.He doesn’t really love me.He doesn’t care about me no matter how much he says he does”

Tears spring to my eyes as I think about all the times Christian looked me in the eyes with such false sincerity, professing his undying love for me all the while f*****g my sister behind my back.

Wiping the tears that stain my cheeks, I inspect my reflection, my eyes scrutinizing every imperfection.

Dark circles hug my eyes from my restless night.

Fearful that Zane would find me, I called out of work this morning, keeping Kota home instead of taking him to daycare.

Of course, my attempts proved futile.

The wolf found me without much effort.

‘I am not good enough to fall in love with anyways” I shrug to myself, drying off my face.

‘I couldn’t even keep my husband interested in me before he looked elsewhere…Perhaps Zane will also find me inadequate as a mate and move on as well..” I nod at my reflection reassuringly.

‘Yes.Sooner or later, he’ll stop liking me and I’ll be free”

Having given myself the pep talk of the century, I hurry to find little Kota playing in the backyard and call him to me.He happily waddles over to me with a grin on his face.

“Where’s Zane, mommy?” he asks, looking behind me into the living room.

“Can he come play with me?”

I crouch down and lift him into my arms, carrying him over to the living room and sitting him down on the sofa.I smooth down his hair and cup his chubby cheeks in my hands.

“Kota,” I say, forcing a smile for him.

“What do you think about Zane staying with us … just for a little bit?”

His eyes widen with joy.

“Yeah!” He cries, jumping up on his feet and clapping his hands.

“Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!”

“You like that idea?” I ask, raising an eyebrow at him.

Kota jumps onto the couch and bursts into laughter.

“Yeah,” he giggles, resting his chin in his hands.

“And what about Agnes? Can she stay here too?” I ask.

Kota bounces on his toes, shooting his fingers up in a happy I pout at him.

“I thought I made the best cookies…”

“No,” he grins, shaking his head and jumping up like a rabbit.

I feign hurt at his honesty and he rushes up to kiss me square on the lips.

“But Mommy makes the best pancakes!” He chirps.

Kota suddenly stretches out his arms like a plane and flies over to his toy chest, pulling out his favorite toy train and action figures.

“What are you doing?” I ask as he makes a small pile of toys.

“To play with Zane,” he shrugs as if that were the most obvious answer.

Worry fills my heart as I realize that Kota would be affected by Zane’s imminent departure.

I would need to do everything in my power to make sure Zane rejects me quickly and leaves us both in one piece.

“Remember, Kota,” I sigh, crawling over to him.

“He’s only here for a little while.He won’t be here forever.Entiendes? understand ?”I ask.

He nods and continues to make a pile of toys for Zane when he arrives.

Seeing no point in explaining any further, I rush off to the guest room and ensure it’s comfortable for Agnes, changing the sheets and myself to share my space with a man.

drawers for Zane and make room in the closet for his shoes and

my belly as I stare at the Queen sized bed I was expected to share with

was large enough to fit us both but we would inevitably touch

me in my pajamas

not punish me so! I readjust the pillows and an idea pops into my head, making me laugh

sun begins to set in the horizon and a small part of me

enters my mind, the doorbell rings, my

cleaning up the bed and rush over to the

at me, Nikki and Micah

saliva will soothe my dry throat,

carry a single small bag with what I assume are their belongings while

up to the

“You’re here!”

large man throws his bag over his shoulder and bends down flip at the sight of my son running into Zane’s arms so freely

won Kota over.Would I fall so easily for him too?

Be strong.I have to be strong

“Sorry we’re late,”

we’d take her to town to go shopping for more clothes.They…they didn’t bring

Micah and

to Zane and have him

is your room”

the hall to the left,” I say, pointing down the hall

I find it impossible to hate her.She was not my mate.She had not forced me into this

eyes widening as she takes

and he smiles

and comfortable it is, her hand feeling the soft fabric of the quilt I put on

her eyes and rushes to hug me, my body stiffening It was just a simple room

my arms around

leaning his

why she crying?” He

to Zane for an explanation but he remains silent as ever, only patting Kota’s back

pulls away, her cheeks flushed pink

the room

me,” I say curtly, gesturing to Zane and

puts Kota down and follows close behind

my thoughts elsewhere as I feel

I mutter

arrive at my room and I point

left some space in the closet for you to hang your things,” I shrug.I turn to find

the bedding arrangement, I

I smirk, pointing to

me completely dumbfounded at the

“What?” I shrug indifferently.

agreement states we share the ‘bedroom’ It did

assume is annoyance and nods solemnly,

feel bad for making this small adjustment but it could

with a wolf, a stranger no less, but I could not stomach the idea of sleeping in the same

his entire species

I will leave you to

with Micah in the living room, Kota inspecting

He chirps as

on his

glance at Micah’s tattoos and

I say, forcing

Nikki asks as she comes in with

and the possibility that my friends were not who I

looking over at Kota who continues

Zane and Agnes?” I ask, clasping and unclasping my

and Nikki exchange glances before Niki sighs a

we know he’s your mate

a cold anger tremble under my skin, not at their lie but at the fact that I had never

aspect of my life

us?” Niki asks, a worried look on

you or Kota any harm,” she adds quickly, as if to clarify that they were not the monsters

hurting you or Kota.” I almost scoff

won’t hurt

promised before they sank their teeth

at you,” I reply

what you are.Besides, what’s done is done.” Niki shifts nervously on her feet

packs nearby?” I

wolves came looking for me.I would need to leave at once

Micah shakes

are the only wolves in Poulsbo.Nikki and I are rogues just like Zane and

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