The Stained Omega by Elle T Jefferson

A Luna’s Dilema.

(Anna)

I’m standing in front of the mirror in Momma Beth’s bedroom, my dress is white and drapes around my bump in a beautiful way. Lace is cascading down my shoulders and the fine buttons in the back are holding the dress all together. My hair has been lightly curled and teased to fall down my back in a seductive manner, my lips have a slight hint of cherry hue but otherwise my face is bare. My eyes are blazing blue and wide in both surprise and shock, as I stand here ready to be properly announced as Luna to the Swiftmane pack I can’t help but think of how far I’ve come in my life. And how I feel like I haven’t moved at all.

The nightmares of my father have become a thing of the past since I started sleeping in Fraction’s arms. My nights are filled with new horrors now, I have nightmares of John and how he tormented me, of how Eve held me down as I was raped by the only family I have ever known. Nightmares of a woman I don’t know being snatched from her family and being forced to carry a child that would become me, attack me in my sleep.

When I wake, my days are filled with such joy I feel I can barely contain it, anything and everything I need is taken care of. I simply mentioned a giant bean bag and the next day not one but two arrived at the packhouse. When I wanted to use my mouth on Fraction, he was patient and allowed me the time to explore and truly appreciate my first time doing it. Then the pain starts again. I can see he wants to touch me, to return the pleasure I gave him, my b*dy and mind just won’t allow it. At night when we curl up to sleep in my little nest, I can feel him nestled between my butt cheeks and all I want to do is push him off me. I have to swallow down my revolution for the only man I

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have or ever will love.

In some ways I feel healed, in others I feel I have just created a new cave to hide in. Traded one fear for another, instead of flinching from my father’s hands, I flinch from my own memory. I’m sleeping during the day because my nights are filled with me gazing at the ceiling and wishing Fraction would move and pull me closer all at the same time.

“Anna we are about ready for you,” Momma Beth comes into the room, “Anna what on Earth is wrong? Why are you crying?” She rushes over to me as I turn to her.

“I can’t do this Momma Beth.” I cry crumbling to the floor; she gets down with me and cradles me in her arms.

“Oh Anna, why ever not?” She says while stroking my hair.

my heart will burst with it. I can’t be

whisper words into my ear. “After everything you have gone through you are allowed. to have doubts and worries, we can work through them together as a family. As for a future Luna, well dear,

you don’t understand.” I sniff and I’m kind of grossed at the amount of snot and

again.” I just look at

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world would crumble around her if she moved. She thought no man would ever see her as beautiful because of the scars. she carried on her back. She fell into a fit of

I ask in a

Anna, there is no amount of time that can be put on it but eventually one day you will wake up with a clear mind and fresh eyes. And Fraction, will help you get there. Put your trust in him.” She slowly stands and holds her hand out to me, “we are family now Anna. You never have to do anything alone again.” I grasp her hand and stand from the

going down her back. I can’t tell how far they go as her dress stops about three quarters of the way up her back. It’s right then I realise

Momma.” I say as

smile she says,

arm we walk out of the room and down the stairs to

(Fraction)

yard is the whole pack. Every man, woman and

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to anyone, and I

arm in arm with my mother, she looks stunning. She’s draped head to toe in white lace, her hair is free of its bun and her lips look absolutely k*ssable. Her eyes are red, and she looks like she’s been crying, I flick my eyes to my mother who gives me a small nod to let