The Woman From Hell

"B-But you're pregnant." Theo looked at me with a puzzled expression as though I had lost my memory.

Maybe he could not figure out why I would have such thoughts when I was already pregnant.

A pregnant woman's body was already precious, not to mention that I had miscarried before. Now that I expressed my intention to get a bone marrow transplant, it seemed to him like I was treating pregnancy like any normal cold.

"I know. That's why I wish to discuss whether or not we can choose to forgo this child for now?"

My voice grew softer and softer toward the end because I was losing confidence.

I was sobbing, looking at Theo who was completely frozen in front of me. He did not say anything for a very long time. I had never seen him like that before.

I was in a deep sleep back in the operating theater and dreamt of something.

I was holding Munchkin when he was still a baby and walking out of our small house. There were green pastures outside the house. When I realized what was going on, Munchkin had suddenly grown up.

my arms and wanted to run to the grass to have some fun. I put him down and watched him run farther and farther away. When I realized something was wrong and desperately cried out for him to come back, he could not

got slower and slower. I watched helplessly as Munchkin

and wanted to tell them that I intended to do a bone marrow transplant, they told me

get pregnant again, but I must not lose Munchkin. I had

isn't the final resort. We can

way. The best way to treat

learned about it when Amelia's son had

find another bone marrow match from someone else. It doesn't have to

no time for that." I began to cry. " Munchkin is still so young. Chemotherapy is so painful. He won't be able to take it. I don't want him to suffer either. I'm his mother.

do you know?" I did not know how to answer Theo's question. "What if yours don't

impossible. Munchkin is my

Even if the patient's parents are a good match, there's only a 50 percent chance. What if yours don't match? Are you going to give up on the child because of that? Do you think that's fair to me?" Faced with Theo's continuous questioning, I had no way of answering. Tears