The Woman From Hell

"B-But you're pregnant." Theo looked at me with a puzzled expression as though I had lost my memory.

Maybe he could not figure out why I would have such thoughts when I was already pregnant.

A pregnant woman's body was already precious, not to mention that I had miscarried before. Now that I expressed my intention to get a bone marrow transplant, it seemed to him like I was treating pregnancy like any normal cold.

"I know. That's why I wish to discuss whether or not we can choose to forgo this child for now?"

My voice grew softer and softer toward the end because I was losing confidence.

I was sobbing, looking at Theo who was completely frozen in front of me. He did not say anything for a very long time. I had never seen him like that before.

I was in a deep sleep back in the operating theater and dreamt of something.

I was holding Munchkin when he was still a baby and walking out of our small house. There were green pastures outside the house. When I realized what was going on, Munchkin had suddenly grown up.

run to the grass to have some fun. I put him down and watched him run farther and farther away. When I realized something was wrong and desperately cried out for him to come back,

to chase after him, but my pace got slower and slower. I watched helplessly as Munchkin disappeared in front

a grievous state and wanted to tell them that I intended to do a bone

get pregnant again, but I must

anxious right now, but this isn't the final resort. We can still figure something out to

The best way to treat

about it when

marrow match from someone else. It doesn't have

Chemotherapy is so painful. He won't be able to take it. I don't

how to answer

my

there's only a 50 percent chance. What if yours don't match? Are you going to give up on the child because of that? Do you think that's fair to me?" Faced with Theo's continuous questioning, I had no