True Luna by Tessa Lilly

Chapter 48 I Messed Up

Emma POV

I messed up.

I should have never let him kiss me.

Now I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I couldn’t stop thinking about his lips on mine, his hands on my body, and his scent all around me.

I messed up pretty bad.

I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was painfully aware of him sleeping in the room opposite mine. He’s already moved in.

Every part of my body wanted to run to him. I wanted to feel his hands on me. I wanted to feel his lips on my neck. I wanted to sink my canines into his neck, marking him and letting everybody know that he was mine.

But the voice inside my head kept screaming at me. I felt like I was tied up to my own bed, unable to do what my body craved to do.

And I knew that the voice was right.

Logan didn’t want me. He would soon realize that I was still the same small, weak she-wolf he rejected. Only this rejection would hurt so much more. It would probably kill me.

I was already battling with the memories from the cave. I had a hard time stopping Rolf’s words from constantly repeating in my mind. I could still smell that awful smell of wolfsbane mixed with my own blood. I could still see the orange hue that fire created on the cave walls. I could still feel the cold floor of the cave on every part of my

body.

My body was out, but my brain was still trapped inside that cave.

And I wasn’t sure I was ever going to get

out.

If I added the pain of his rejection on top of all that, I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to keep on going.

Especially now that I got a taste of him, now that I knew what it felt like to have his hands on my body.

I groaned and closed my eyes.

This was going to be so hard.

It would be so much easier if he stayed in the packhouse. I wouldn’t have to see him all the time. I wouldn’t have to feel him close to me. I wouldn’t be

surrounded by his scent all the time.

I opened my eyes and sighed.

‘Eliza?’ I called my wolf.

she

for a run?’ I asked, hoping she would say

needed to get out of here just for a little while. His scent was driving me crazy. I was seconds away from running

and I could feel her getting excited.

hadn’t shifted since my birthday. I knew Eliza wanted to be set

‘I need to get

‘Let’s go, Em.’

hoodie over my pajamas and put on a pair of sweats. I put on socks and sneakers and walked over to my window, opening it as quietly as I could.

and they wouldn’t be happy with me wanting to go for a run in the middle of the night. Maybe they wouldn’t forbid me to go, but they would surely want to come with me, and that would mess up my plans of

window carefully and jumped off the roof. I landed in soft snow. I stayed crunched down for a few moments, waiting to see if

hear

up

the tree

the tree. I was shivering,

Eliza asked

I said with a small smile.

and let Eliza take over. It wasn’t as painful as the first time, but it

sorry, Emma.’ Eliza said. ‘We haven’t shifted in a while. It will get easier.’

I smiled and

down and saw my white

of snow and moonlight made me

and took

I was away from Logan and his scent, I could think clearly. I couldn’t let him kiss me again. I couldn’t let him touch me again. Not until I had time to think about everything. Not until I had

to reject him?’ Eliza whined after listening to my thoughts.

‘He doesn’t

us. Logan regrets rejecting us, Emma. He loves us.’

is going to remember why he

me in the first place.’ I said. ‘Nothing’s changed. I’m still the same girl he didn’t want. I won’t be able

in this pack with him close?’ she whined again. ‘We would still want

while.’ I shrugged. ‘Visit other

Andrew and Asher? I don’t want to leave my

come back, Eliza.’ I sighed. ‘We wouldn’t

the panicked voices of Andrew

screamed at the

time.

got so scared I stopped abruptly, tripped over my own feet,

Shit.

are you?! I could hear Logan’s

now! Andrew shouted.

the snow

I’m close by. I just wanted to go for a

back, Emma. Andrew said. Right now. It’s not

was he