True Luna by Tessa Lilly

Chapter 48 I Messed Up

Emma POV

I messed up.

I should have never let him kiss me.

Now I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I couldn’t stop thinking about his lips on mine, his hands on my body, and his scent all around me.

I messed up pretty bad.

I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was painfully aware of him sleeping in the room opposite mine. He’s already moved in.

Every part of my body wanted to run to him. I wanted to feel his hands on me. I wanted to feel his lips on my neck. I wanted to sink my canines into his neck, marking him and letting everybody know that he was mine.

But the voice inside my head kept screaming at me. I felt like I was tied up to my own bed, unable to do what my body craved to do.

And I knew that the voice was right.

Logan didn’t want me. He would soon realize that I was still the same small, weak she-wolf he rejected. Only this rejection would hurt so much more. It would probably kill me.

I was already battling with the memories from the cave. I had a hard time stopping Rolf’s words from constantly repeating in my mind. I could still smell that awful smell of wolfsbane mixed with my own blood. I could still see the orange hue that fire created on the cave walls. I could still feel the cold floor of the cave on every part of my

body.

My body was out, but my brain was still trapped inside that cave.

And I wasn’t sure I was ever going to get

out.

If I added the pain of his rejection on top of all that, I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to keep on going.

Especially now that I got a taste of him, now that I knew what it felt like to have his hands on my body.

I groaned and closed my eyes.

This was going to be so hard.

It would be so much easier if he stayed in the packhouse. I wouldn’t have to see him all the time. I wouldn’t have to feel him close to me. I wouldn’t be

surrounded by his scent all the time.

I opened my eyes and sighed.

‘Eliza?’ I called my wolf.

she

run?’ I asked,

to get out of here just for a little while. His scent was driving me crazy. I was seconds

could feel her getting

hadn’t shifted since my birthday. I knew Eliza wanted

responded. ‘I need to get out of here for a while.’

understood immediately. ‘Let’s

over my pajamas and put on a pair of sweats. I put on socks and sneakers and walked over to my window, opening

wouldn’t be happy with me wanting to go for a run in the middle of the night. Maybe they wouldn’t forbid me to go, but they would surely want to come with me, and that would

my window carefully and jumped off the roof. I landed in soft snow. I stayed crunched down for a few moments, waiting to see if Logan or Andrew woke up.

hear

up

to the tree line.

them in a pile under the tree. I

Em?’ Eliza asked

I said with a

take over. It wasn’t as painful as the first

shifted in a while. It will get easier.’

smiled and opened

down and

of snow and moonlight made me look like I

grinned and took off.

me clear my mind. Now that I was away from Logan and his scent, I could think clearly. I couldn’t

you going to reject him?’ Eliza whined after listening to

I sighed. ‘He doesn’t want me,

wants us. Logan wants us.

going to remember why

girl he didn’t want. I won’t be able to survive the next rejection, Eliza. It will kill

live in this pack with him close?’ she whined again. ‘We would still want him. It would be

while.’ I shrugged. ‘Visit other

gasped. ‘What about Andrew and Asher? I don’t want to

would come back, Eliza.’ I sighed. ‘We wouldn’t leave forever.’

voices of Andrew and Logan

at the same

time.

tripped over my own feet, and

Shit.

are you?! I could hear Logan’s

back right now!

stood up and shook the snow off

them back. I’m close by. I just

back, Emma. Andrew said. Right now. It’s not safe.

was he talking