True Luna by Tessa Lilly

Chapter 48 I Messed Up

Emma POV

I messed up.

I should have never let him kiss me.

Now I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I couldn’t stop thinking about his lips on mine, his hands on my body, and his scent all around me.

I messed up pretty bad.

I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was painfully aware of him sleeping in the room opposite mine. He’s already moved in.

Every part of my body wanted to run to him. I wanted to feel his hands on me. I wanted to feel his lips on my neck. I wanted to sink my canines into his neck, marking him and letting everybody know that he was mine.

But the voice inside my head kept screaming at me. I felt like I was tied up to my own bed, unable to do what my body craved to do.

And I knew that the voice was right.

Logan didn’t want me. He would soon realize that I was still the same small, weak she-wolf he rejected. Only this rejection would hurt so much more. It would probably kill me.

I was already battling with the memories from the cave. I had a hard time stopping Rolf’s words from constantly repeating in my mind. I could still smell that awful smell of wolfsbane mixed with my own blood. I could still see the orange hue that fire created on the cave walls. I could still feel the cold floor of the cave on every part of my

body.

My body was out, but my brain was still trapped inside that cave.

And I wasn’t sure I was ever going to get

out.

If I added the pain of his rejection on top of all that, I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to keep on going.

Especially now that I got a taste of him, now that I knew what it felt like to have his hands on my body.

I groaned and closed my eyes.

This was going to be so hard.

It would be so much easier if he stayed in the packhouse. I wouldn’t have to see him all the time. I wouldn’t have to feel him close to me. I wouldn’t be

surrounded by his scent all the time.

I opened my eyes and sighed.

‘Eliza?’ I called my wolf.

she responded sleepily.

I asked, hoping she would

just for a little while. His scent was driving me crazy. I was seconds away from running to

could feel her getting excited.

I knew Eliza wanted to be

responded. ‘I need to get out

understood immediately. ‘Let’s go, Em.’

a pair

for a run in the middle of the night. Maybe they wouldn’t forbid me to go, but they would surely want to come with me, and that

I stayed crunched down for a few moments, waiting

couldn’t hear

up

walked to the tree line.

my clothes and folded them in a pile under the tree. I

Em?’ Eliza asked me.

I said with a

It wasn’t as painful as the first time, but it

sorry, Emma.’ Eliza said. ‘We haven’t shifted in a

and opened my eyes.

wolf’s eyes. I looked down

combination of snow and moonlight made me look like

grinned and

the cold air brush through my fur. The feeling was amazing. The fresh air helped me clear my mind. Now that I was away from Logan and his scent, I could think clearly. I couldn’t let him kiss me again. I couldn’t let him touch me again. Not until

him?’ Eliza whined after

don’t know.’ I sighed. ‘He doesn’t want

us. Logan regrets rejecting us,

going to remember why

me in the first place.’ I said. ‘Nothing’s changed. I’m still the same girl he didn’t want. I won’t be able to survive the next rejection,

live in this pack with him close?’ she

a while.’ I shrugged. ‘Visit other packs, travel, get

and Asher? I don’t want to leave my brother,

I sighed. ‘We wouldn’t leave forever.’

she could respond, I heard the panicked voices of Andrew and

at

time.

tripped over my own feet,

Shit.

you?! I could hear

back right now! Andrew shouted.

and shook the

back. I’m close by. I just wanted to go for a run. I’m

back, Emma. Andrew said. Right now. It’s not

was