True Luna by Tessa Lilly

Chapter 48 I Messed Up

Emma POV

I messed up.

I should have never let him kiss me.

Now I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I couldn’t stop thinking about his lips on mine, his hands on my body, and his scent all around me.

I messed up pretty bad.

I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was painfully aware of him sleeping in the room opposite mine. He’s already moved in.

Every part of my body wanted to run to him. I wanted to feel his hands on me. I wanted to feel his lips on my neck. I wanted to sink my canines into his neck, marking him and letting everybody know that he was mine.

But the voice inside my head kept screaming at me. I felt like I was tied up to my own bed, unable to do what my body craved to do.

And I knew that the voice was right.

Logan didn’t want me. He would soon realize that I was still the same small, weak she-wolf he rejected. Only this rejection would hurt so much more. It would probably kill me.

I was already battling with the memories from the cave. I had a hard time stopping Rolf’s words from constantly repeating in my mind. I could still smell that awful smell of wolfsbane mixed with my own blood. I could still see the orange hue that fire created on the cave walls. I could still feel the cold floor of the cave on every part of my

body.

My body was out, but my brain was still trapped inside that cave.

And I wasn’t sure I was ever going to get

out.

If I added the pain of his rejection on top of all that, I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to keep on going.

Especially now that I got a taste of him, now that I knew what it felt like to have his hands on my body.

I groaned and closed my eyes.

This was going to be so hard.

It would be so much easier if he stayed in the packhouse. I wouldn’t have to see him all the time. I wouldn’t have to feel him close to me. I wouldn’t be

surrounded by his scent all the time.

I opened my eyes and sighed.

‘Eliza?’ I called my wolf.

Emma?’ she responded sleepily.

for a run?’ I asked, hoping

for a little while. His scent was driving me crazy. I was seconds

Eliza asked, and I could feel

since my birthday. I knew Eliza

responded. ‘I need to get out

immediately. ‘Let’s go,

I pulled a hoodie over my pajamas and put on a pair of sweats. I put on socks and sneakers and walked over to my window, opening it as quietly as I

happy with me wanting to go for a run in the middle of the night. Maybe they wouldn’t forbid me to go, but they would surely want to

the roof. I landed in soft snow. I stayed crunched down for a few moments,

couldn’t hear anything, I stood

up

to the

a pile under the tree. I was shivering, and

Em?’ Eliza asked

I said with

as painful

said. ‘We haven’t shifted in

I smiled and opened my eyes.

wolf’s eyes. I looked down

of snow and moonlight made me look like I was

and took

was running through the woods, feeling the cold air brush through my fur. The feeling was amazing. The fresh air helped me clear my mind. Now that I was away from Logan and his scent, I could think clearly. I couldn’t let him kiss me again. I couldn’t let him touch me again. Not until I had time to think about everything.

to reject him?’ Eliza whined

I sighed. ‘He doesn’t want me,

exclaimed. ‘Leon wants us. Logan wants us. Logan regrets rejecting us, Emma. He loves us.’

to

in the first place.’ I said. ‘Nothing’s changed. I’m still the same girl he didn’t want. I won’t be able to survive the next rejection, Eliza. It will

to live in this pack with him close?’ she whined again. ‘We would still want him.

for a while.’ I shrugged. ‘Visit other packs, travel, get some new

about Andrew and Asher? I don’t want to leave

would come back, Eliza.’ I sighed.

I heard the panicked voices of Andrew and Logan in

at the same

time.

so scared I stopped abruptly, tripped over my own

Shit.

are you?! I could hear

back right now!

up and shook the snow off of my

back. I’m close by. I just wanted to go for

said. Right now.

What was he talking about?