True Luna by Tessa Lilly

Chapter 48 I Messed Up

Emma POV

I messed up.

I should have never let him kiss me.

Now I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I couldn’t stop thinking about his lips on mine, his hands on my body, and his scent all around me.

I messed up pretty bad.

I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was painfully aware of him sleeping in the room opposite mine. He’s already moved in.

Every part of my body wanted to run to him. I wanted to feel his hands on me. I wanted to feel his lips on my neck. I wanted to sink my canines into his neck, marking him and letting everybody know that he was mine.

But the voice inside my head kept screaming at me. I felt like I was tied up to my own bed, unable to do what my body craved to do.

And I knew that the voice was right.

Logan didn’t want me. He would soon realize that I was still the same small, weak she-wolf he rejected. Only this rejection would hurt so much more. It would probably kill me.

I was already battling with the memories from the cave. I had a hard time stopping Rolf’s words from constantly repeating in my mind. I could still smell that awful smell of wolfsbane mixed with my own blood. I could still see the orange hue that fire created on the cave walls. I could still feel the cold floor of the cave on every part of my

body.

My body was out, but my brain was still trapped inside that cave.

And I wasn’t sure I was ever going to get

out.

If I added the pain of his rejection on top of all that, I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to keep on going.

Especially now that I got a taste of him, now that I knew what it felt like to have his hands on my body.

I groaned and closed my eyes.

This was going to be so hard.

It would be so much easier if he stayed in the packhouse. I wouldn’t have to see him all the time. I wouldn’t have to feel him close to me. I wouldn’t be

surrounded by his scent all the time.

I opened my eyes and sighed.

‘Eliza?’ I called my wolf.

she

up for a run?’ I asked, hoping she would say

just for a little while. His scent was driving me crazy. I was seconds away from running to

and I could

knew Eliza wanted to be set free

I responded. ‘I need to get out

‘Let’s go, Em.’

hoodie over my pajamas and put on a pair of sweats. I put on socks and sneakers and walked over to my window, opening it as quietly as I could.

in the middle of the night. Maybe they wouldn’t forbid me to go, but they would surely want to come with me, and that would mess up my plans of getting away from Logan for a

snow. I stayed crunched down for a few moments, waiting to see

I couldn’t hear anything,

up

walked to the

and folded them in a pile under the tree. I was shivering,

Em?’ Eliza

said with a small

as painful as the first time,

said. ‘We haven’t shifted in a

I smiled and opened my eyes.

down

moonlight made me look like I

and took off.

his scent, I could think clearly. I couldn’t let him kiss me again. I couldn’t let him touch me again. Not until I had time to think about everything. Not until I had time to

him?’ Eliza whined after listening to my thoughts.

know.’ I sighed. ‘He doesn’t want me, Eliza.’

exclaimed. ‘Leon wants us. Logan wants us. Logan regrets

to remember why he

‘Nothing’s changed. I’m still the same girl he didn’t want. I won’t

with him close?’ she whined again. ‘We would still want

of leaving for a while.’ I shrugged. ‘Visit other packs, travel, get some new

Andrew and Asher? I don’t want to

would come back, Eliza.’ I

could respond, I heard the panicked voices of Andrew and

at the same

time.

stopped abruptly, tripped over my own feet, and landed snout-first

Shit.

you?! I could hear Logan’s panicked

now!

up and shook the snow off of

mind-linked them back. I’m close by. I just

back, Emma. Andrew said. Right now. It’s not

was he talking about?