Untouchable by Marii Solaria

Chapter 36 – The Longing

“The Irony of the human heart is that it’s tormented both by the presence and absence of its own soul’s counterpart.“– Crystal Woods

“I doubt it.” My dad shook his head. “Honestly, I’d prefer it that way. Another wolf carrying your mother’s scent would make Angelo and I go crazy.”

He stood on his feet, walking towards the fireplace ledge that held our family picture frames. His hands take one of my mother on their wedding day, cloaked in white with a smile as pure as gold. “The mind is a powerful force, Neron. It governs everything in our bodies. Without it, we’re nothing. It could empower us and ruin us at the same time. It could take us to the highest of pleasures or the lowest depths of our misery.”

His thumb runs over the picture of Mom, his blue eyes misting. “Thirteen years. It’s been thirteen years since she joined with the Moon Goddess, and I miss her terribly. I miss my baby girl, too. Her smile and laughter were the best medicine for an awful day. I always wonder what she could have been if she lived this long. She would have made a powerful Alpha, courageous in her own right.”

“Some days, I smell their scents. Before I sleep or when I awake. It is worse when I was in the depths of my alcoholism. When you miss someone too much, the mind likes to trick you to believe that your loved one is still there. It has been in pain for so long that it tries to ease the burden in ways it thinks it should when only it makes the agony worse. I would think my Celeste was just around the corner or in the kitchen, but when I approached, there is nothing. It is one painful reminder after another that I no longer have my beloved or my angel.”

He smiled, deep sadness reflecting in his old face. “Sometimes I hear your mother’s laughter, or Nuria calling out for me to read her a bedtime story. Either your old man is going crazy, or my mind has been in pain for so long it wants to get out.”

I say nothing. What am I supposed to say? He missed Mom and Nuria just as much as I did. Humans say that time heals all wounds, but that couldn’t have been further from the truth. There were days where I spot Dad at their graves, reading Nuria her favorite stories, or chatting with Mom. That is his mate–the other half to his soul. That pain never goes away.

I knew exactly how he was feeling. And I wish I never did.

“I smelled her, Dad.” I feel his eyes on me, but I don’t dare to look up. “At the Garnet Moon territory a few days ago. I wanted to chase after it, to see her again, but…I couldn’t.”

“You’re speaking about Halima, aren’t you?”

I nod. Onyx is certain that Halima is alive, despite all evidence proving otherwise. I want to have that same level of assurance, but, how could I? Was her ghost tormenting me? Everything I’ve seen and heard proves

that my mate is no more.

But why do I have this feeling that she was alive? That she was okay? Why do I still feel the broken bond when I couldn’t feel the person on the other side?

A hand gently grips my shoulder, thumb rubbing circles in the back. My father sat back down next to me, our coffee mugs now cold. I sigh in frustration, my head in my hands.

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your mother and Nuria is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I miss them terribly, but

Do the same.”

my teeth, tears threatening to fall

never coming back. By the grace of our beloved goddess, there could be a chance that you have a

feel guilty? For what we’ve done to her? We brutalized her for years and I f*cked everything up! I hated her for the longest and now that she’s gone, my heart

day. She was a special girl and I destroyed my best friend’s youngest daughter over what my brother did, and no amount of repentance could ever amount to the pain we all inflicted on her. But,

is right?” I scoffed. “That’s what I kept telling myself every time I laid my hands on her. Every time I watched her bleeding and crying on the floor.” I shake my head. “And

gaze was like a hawk, watching for faulting movements.

do? What would you tell

that child would grow up to be my mate in the future? But that future is gone. Pain wracked my body from head to toe. threatening to burst from my chest. Could Onyx feel this pain too? I didn’t just ruin our friendship, but I took away his wolf mate without giving him a chance to know who she was. I’ve never seen Halima shift, despite knowing she had. “That I would spend the rest of my life repenting and making up for what I did to her. To show her I can and will change, and that I’m not the same man she was unfortunate enough to grow up with. I

bro.” Valerian’s voice rang in my head. “Odessa

grown–up women, they can handle

his nap. Raina is three seconds away

Without looking back, I left his modest home back to the packhouse. The passing

because I needed to take my mind off the

Kiya

Birria tacos are amazing.

taste buds ascended in heaven. Who invented this wonderful concoction? They

– The

medal!

of the flavors, tender meat, veggies, and cheese is

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in my parents‘ home, devouring tacos one after another. I couldn’t help it. Isn’t it obvious how hungry I am? The consommé soup with the tacos is a combination

you should slow down a bit.” I heard Mom say. I quirked an eyebrow, my eyes on her and ch*eks.

still stuffing my face with

crossing his arms. “At least leave some for your old man, damn! And don’t

the empty plates. Several empty plates, and empty cups that were once filled with soup littering the coffee table. Embarrassed,

fails to send delightful chills down my spine. I was my parents‘ little Moonbeam. Mom planted a soft k*ss on my forehead before handing me a napkin to wipe my mouth. “You never eat this much unless something is

entire kitchen if I felt an inkling of anxiety. My favorite coping mechanism. I couldn’t help it, food made me feel better. It made me feel good and it helps me forget my troubles. Plus, my stomach was a bottomless pit. Tossing the dirty napkin down on the empty

their territory to train their soldiers for the next few

that hurt me.”

bottled water. “I see why you’re so nervous. But Mija, this could be a

“To what? Implode?”

“To face your past.”

now than you were before. You worked hard to get where you’re at and you should be proud. However, do

catching my interest. So shiny. “I know. I know I’ll be safe from death since they have exonerated me, but…” Mom and Dad knew about my