Untouchable by Marii Solaria

Chapter 94 – Reminiscing

“Last night I lost the world, and gained the universe.“–C Joy Bell C.

Krya

“Disbanding..

There wasn’t much to say, or there was, but I couldn’t muster up the courage to speak. Neither of us uttered a word to each other. The sounds of the surrounding nature drowned out our silence. My eyes followed Neron’s movements as he twirled his ring between his fingers. His eyes narrowed on the object, disgust reflecting on his orbs, grimacing.

“I found out the truth about my family, Kiya.” Neron spoke with momentous contempt woven in every syllable. “When you went missing. I searched high and low for answers. Osiris allusion to my family’s history made little sense at first. Why did he condemn my bloodline every chance he got? There were so many secrets that I was unprepared to uncover. I never knew that the paternal side of my family was so… violent.”

The Alpha ring slid into his palm and he hid it inside his fist, tightening it as if he wanted to crush it. “All the men before me only cared about power and they hurt people to get it.”

“How did you find out?”

“I found journals of my grandfather and great–grandfather hidden in the library,” Neron explained. “I confronted Dad about it, and he defended their behavior, claiming they were martyrs. The pain of others was worth the elevation of the Prince name.” Neron slumped his head into his free hand, rubbing his temple. “He painted their tyranny as their ambition! I… I couldn’t stomach the thought of running Zircon Moon after that. My family history was diluted and painted into something else entirely.”

I didn’t miss the break in his tone, and it broke my heart. I couldn’t fathom being fed fabrications about your own lineage for years and discovering the truth in the worst timing possible. What did he go through while I was gone? Neron sighed, wiping his tears before they had the chance to fall, sucking in deep breaths to calm his quaking hands.

“I was lied to my entire life. All this shit just to be a “good Alpha‘ wasn’t worth it in the end. It felt like everyone I held close to my heart betrayed me; Dad, Odessa, who knows who else?”

“You have Valerian and Kwame.” I quipped, scooting my body closer to him. “They o

didn’t lie to you.”

“Yeah, but I didn’t listen.” Neron gazed upon my face, his reddening eyes searching in mine. “If I have children, I wouldn’t want to pass this legacy to them. I don’t want them to discover it as late as I did and be reminded that their history was full of plunder and deceit. What does it make me to continue my rule as Alpha after finding this out? I couldn’t turn a blind–eye to this.”

“What did you do with the journals?”

“Burned them.” Neron said. “I never want to look at that shit again.” Neron turned his head to face the pack house, a shadow falling over his face. “I’m not proud of Zircon Moon, even more so when I think about what we put you through. I’m disbanding this pack because I want to create a new legacy that I know I can be proud of, building it from the ground up.”

“Neron, packs take years to establish, not to mention the time and resources allocating to it.” I explained, folding my hands in my lap. “Don’t you think it’s so sudden to be making a radical decision like this?”

Neron chuckled, his lips curling into a smile, turning his head to me. “Kiya, this plan has been on my mind for weeks. As harsh as it sounds, Zircon Moon is a name that needs to die. 200 years of living is long enough.”

“Right.. I whispered, soaking in the impact of his words. “How do Anthony and my dad come into play?”

“They’ve been helping me seek potential land sellers and buyers. Luckily, Dad had a decent amount of money. stashed away in his savings and from investments in stocks in Carson City and Las Vegas. He won’t be using that anytime soon, so I’m putting it to good use.”

“Oh. Well, that’s good.” I offered a small smile. “Have you thought about where you want your new pack to

be?”

“Away from here.” Neron snorted. “I’ve outgrown Nevada. I want to stay on the west coast, so maybe Oregon or Washington, despite the shitshow with Osiris. The East Coast as awful winters, the South has hurricanes and tornadoes and the Mid–West is just… corn and farm life.”

incredulous look, placing my fists on my lips. “The West

haven’t touched us

my life

distant pack house, snippets of flashed before my eyes. This place was where my life began and ended. Through the laughter, smiles, tears, and blood, this land held significant memories that I would never forget. Neron was right, it is time

Ko.

glad that with time, this place

moving on, and so was

led to another sensitive topic that we needed to touch on. Or, at

you thinking about?”

pond. Tiny fish leaped out of the water while birds took their baths around the exterior, Most of the people who hurt me are dead. This summer was a journey that tested my boundaries and my strength. Life threw one obstacle after another at me, whether as a snake or a painful memory. I’ve fallen, gotten back up, and fallen again; a never–ending cycle ceasing when I landed in a coma. With all that time to rest and relax with Artemis, I’ve thought about a lot of things, including how I wanted to move forward. “I don’t know whether this is

tossed his ring in the air and caught it with

mine.”

to get to where we are right

something I feel we need to talk about now

distractions.”

d that be?”

“What would that be?”

“Forgiveness.”

Chapter 94 – Perunisong

had stopped the tossing, his body stiffening like he

full of trepidation. He was nervous, and I was too. Forgiveness wasn’t an option for me, at least, not the type many thought it

my legs and crossed them again. “Neron, can you answer

“Yes.”

you really need my

his hip, propping his knees on his thighs in his silence. I wish I had the power to poke and prod inside Neron’s mind to discover the inner mechanisms of his thought process. A twinge of pain pierced the side of my heart at the plethora of answers he could give,

it became less about wanting your forgiveness and more on realizing that I was a shitty person. I had acted in ways that I’m sure Mom would’ve slapped me for. I understood how love got lost in translation and how I was performing

Neron. You had no room for flexibility. That shouldn’t be

hurt you, Kiya.” Neron turned his body to face me. “If I could take my actions back, I would, but I can’t. Did I need your forgiveness to

you still want

us, with the sunlight highlighting his facial features. “I want to be better than I was yesterday. I know I’m changing, but there is this fear in the back of my mind that I’ll turn out like my father, and it

right now. Your father wouldn’t have held down a fucking naga to save me. He would never think about putting others before himself. Above all, he wouldn’t have fought as hard as you did to stop hell from raising over. You died for

ever be

Neron and Jonathan as the same man, even if they shared blood. Neron helped pull me away from the darkness while Jonathan catapulted me into it. I wish

“He’s still in me.”

can’t

Chapter 94 – Remmeng

matter.” His voice cracked again. “He’s always in my head, telling me I’m a failure. Dad still lives, whether

a phenomenal douchebag and I hope he suffers in hell for all he’d did to the both of us. I swallowed the urge to yell at Neron at how wrong he was,

as a kid that is shaped by our experiences, the good and the bad. They live inside you, in your heart. Halima is my inner child that needed someone to care about her, and I had abandoned

nestling her tiny body between our hips. Neron smiled small, petting her head as she

take responsibility for my abuse. They weaponized it against me. Ashley, Steven, your father, and everyone in between wanted my

forgive them