You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 30

Harper

It’s like the Easton Twilight zone. He shoves me away, pulls me close, he kisses me with the same mouth that curses me. I don’t think he even knows what he wants, but it’s addicting and stupid the way he kisses like I’m forever when I’m not even a right now.

This time he doesn’t take my shirt off, he just shoves it up while his mouth devours mine, his lips and tongue moving at a pace that drives me insane, I can’t digest what’s even happening because it’s happening so fast.

It’s Easton’s house.

Easton’s bathroom.

My brother is in the next room over eating pizza like everything is normal and I’m sucking on Easton’s tongue while he bites down on my lip.

This is not a normal Monday.

This is not a normal day.

I want to shove him away because I know this means nothing to him, but I can’t help the way I feel. That way I’ve always felt.

Selfishly I want this maybe more than he does.

Even if tomorrow he goes back to ignoring me. So I say it, out loud, I don’t want to get hurt and he has the power to do exactly that. “This means nothing.”

He moans into my mouth. “Absolutely nothing.”

“It’s just sex.” I agree even though I know it’s not. Even though this will be my first time and everything is right and wrong and confusing and imperfect.

“One hundred percent.” He agrees, his mouth leaving mine briefly as he kisses my chin then roughly pulls my leggings down along with my underwear, I’m completely bare to him. I have no time to be embarrassed. Cold air hits my ass as he lifts me onto the counter tugging off my shoes, socks, and letting my leggings dangle from my right leg while he unbuttons his jeans.

1 help him.

is seriously wrong with

to stop, I’d compare it to

It’s impossible to survive.

suck him in like an addict-he holds me close like an

to no end as he reaches into the drawer by the sink pulling out a

This is happening.

“Easy access?” I taunt.

them in here while you ordered the pizza.” He

I pull away.

unfocused, crazy. Just hopeful. Do you really think I’m that insane

reach for him, biting down on his bottom

good.” He ducks his head into my hair, his lips on my neck, frozen there like he wants to memorize

about being a

ch

seriously so softly that I look at him, his eyes lock on mine, and then he’s kissing

He owns me.

me since my brother announced he had

I’ve wanted him since I can

foil wrapper open, he puts on the condom. I’m afraid to

he’s changed his mind, and shocks the hell out of me

I realize I’m shaking.

He knows it.

gently making my body tremble as

soft in the next instant, disarming me as his fingers move. My lips part on a scream as he covers my mouth with his other hand fingering me, before his mouth replaces them–his tongue is invasive and hot. It’s perfect. He knows exactly what he’s doing and who he’s doing it to. My head falls

tears. I’m not embarrassed. I’m scared. Scared this feeling will go away, scared this means too much to me and nothing at all to