You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you can't

without that person

love each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out

hands. “He's dead

and then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just so

that I missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over finals and getting

Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready to unravel

her head. "Blake seemed extra

shrug. "He was pretty tame.

honestly everyone else was pairing up while I was throwing a pity party and he just

"Was he nice?"

examining her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean, since all the

We

it at least distracted me

"I still

"Yeah."

my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know.

"Blake?"

to my laptop and open it. "Let

sounds at my door.

"Hey, beautiful, mind if I

Sadie on the

him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with the devil.“

let me just say right here and right now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world,

He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully

fill my

“Anytime.”

and pulls her out of my room, leaving me alone with my laptop and

a deep breath

And then I type.

we need to

ass, but I miss you. I don't

at least thought I

And I'm still yours.