You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

sides. It simply exists and you live in it because on those good days,

more second without that person holding your hand and standing by

all sucks, I know if you really love each other, you'll

hands.

I can't help it, and then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just

and I feel so

feel like a true crime story ready to

myself. Sadie tilts her head. "Blake seemed extra friendly today. Wanna talk

"He was

because honestly everyone else was pairing up while I was throwing a pity party and he just

"Was he nice?"

examining her fingernails. "For Blake, I

was. We

flirted and it at least distracted me for nearly

nods. "I still think something's off

"Yeah."

my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it

"Blake?"

to my laptop and open it.

at my door.

himself in. "Hey, beautiful, mind if I

Sadie on

"Nope, wait, you're friends

blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls,

never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully kill him and go to

my eyes.

“Anytime.”

room,

a deep breath and get on

And then I type.

know we need to

I overreacted or if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to

complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you know that no matter what, right

And I'm still yours.