You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

doesn't take sides. It simply exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you can't imagine waking up without your

that person holding your hand and standing by your

know if you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out

hands. “He's dead

I can't help it, and then I burst into tears again.

sick, and I feel so much pressure over

Aisha still feel like a true crime

head. "Blake seemed extra friendly

was pretty

else was pairing up while I was throwing a pity party and

"Was he nice?"

examining her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean, since all the

was. We had

least distracted me for nearly an hour, which

"I still think something's off

"Yeah."

on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate

"Blake?"

my laptop and open it. "Let me just

at my door.

beautiful, mind if I

Sadie

blushes, then shoves him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with

now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who

cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully kill him and go

fill my eyes.

“Anytime.”

room, leaving me alone

breath

And then I type.

we need to

if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to break up, I just need some time...but I

at least thought I could email

And I'm still yours.