You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you can't imagine waking up

second without that person holding your hand and standing by your

you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out on the

claps her hands. “He's dead to

and then I burst into tears

I missed school when I was sick, and I feel

Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready to unravel and

her head. "Blake seemed extra

shrug. "He was pretty tame.

be my partner in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing up while

"Was he nice?"

Blake, I mean, since all the

We

distracted me for nearly an hour, which I

nods. "I still think

"Yeah."

that I'm back to wondering what exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe.

"Blake?"

say, then rush to my laptop and open it.

sounds at

beautiful, mind if

kisses Sadie

you're friends with the devil.“

here and right now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who

loves you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd

fill my eyes.

“Anytime.”

her out of my room, leaving me alone with my

deep breath

And then I type.

I know we

know if I overreacted or if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you.

do and how things got so complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you know that no matter what,

And I'm still yours.