You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

doesn't take sides. It simply exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good

that person holding your

know if you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out on the

her hands. “He's

help it, and then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just so emotional these

when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over finals and getting

Aisha still feel like a true crime story

"Blake seemed extra friendly today. Wanna

shrug. "He was pretty tame.

in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else

"Was he nice?"

examining her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean, since all the

was. We had

and it at least distracted

"I still think something's

"Yeah."

I'm back to wondering what exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate that I can't talk to

"Blake?"

to my laptop and open it. "Let me just send this

sounds at my

himself in. "Hey, beautiful, mind if I

Sadie on the

you're friends with the

need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the

He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully

my eyes. "Thanks,

“Anytime.”

her out of my room, leaving

take a deep breath

And then I type.

we

kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to break up, I just need some time...but I also

at least thought I could email

And I'm still yours.