You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days,

can't imagine breathing one more second without that

this all sucks, I know if you really love each other, you'll

her hands.

burst into tears again. "I'm

I missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over finals

Aisha still feel like a true

tilts her head. "Blake

was

gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing up while I was throwing a pity

"Was he nice?"

examining her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean, since all the Aisha

We

flirted and it at least distracted me for nearly an hour, which I

"I still think something's

"Yeah."

her that I'm back to wondering what exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate that I can't talk to

"Blake?"

say, then rush to my laptop and open it. "Let

at

beautiful, mind if

Sadie on the

then shoves him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with the devil.“ He

and right now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls,

He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully

my

“Anytime.”

her out of my room, leaving me

breath and

And then I type.

know we need

or if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't

how things got so complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least

And I'm still yours.