You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

simply exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you

without that person holding your hand and standing by

know if you really love each other, you'll get through it,

hands. “He's

burst into tears

missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over finals and getting into

Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready to unravel

her head. "Blake seemed

was pretty

let him because honestly everyone else was pairing up while

"Was he nice?"

her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean,

was. We had

at least distracted

still think something's

"Yeah."

off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe.

"Blake?"

laptop and

at my

mind if I borrow you

kisses Sadie on

then shoves him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with the devil.“ He

now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls, but

eyes soften. "He loves you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully kill

my eyes.

“Anytime.”

her out of my room, leaving me alone with

deep breath and get

And then I type.

we

if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to break up, I

and how things got so complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you

And I'm still yours.