You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

those good days, the really good fucking days, you can't

one more second without that person holding

all sucks, I know if you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight

claps her hands. “He's

I can't help it, and then I burst into tears again. "I'm

I missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over finals and getting

with Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready to unravel and

head. "Blake seemed extra friendly today. Wanna talk

was pretty tame.

partner in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing

"Was he nice?"

her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean,

We

and it at least distracted me for nearly an hour, which

still think something's off

"Yeah."

on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate that I can't talk to

"Blake?"

I say, then rush to my laptop and open it. "Let me

sounds at my door.

in. "Hey, beautiful, mind if I borrow

kisses Sadie on the

wait, you're friends with the devil.“ He rolls his

need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah,

you. Besides, if

fill my

“Anytime.”

room, leaving me

deep breath and get on

And then I type.

we

life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to

text you, so I at

And I'm still yours.