You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you can't imagine waking

breathing one more second without that person holding your hand and standing by

other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come

hands. “He's dead to

I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just

when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over

feel like a true crime story ready

stop myself. Sadie tilts her head. "Blake seemed extra friendly today.

"He was pretty

gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing

"Was he nice?"

"For Blake,

We

it at least distracted me for nearly an hour, which I

nods. "I still think something's off

"Yeah."

my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day

"Blake?"

then rush to my laptop and open it.

at my door.

"Hey, beautiful, mind if I borrow you

kisses Sadie on the

wait, you're friends with the devil.“ He

to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls, but for real...he did nothing

soften. "He loves you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully kill him and go

my eyes.

“Anytime.”

of my room, leaving me alone with my laptop

breath and

And then I type.

know we need to

if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I

what to do and how things got so complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you know that no matter what, right now, in this moment, you're

And I'm still yours.