You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

take sides. It simply exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good

that person holding

each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out on

claps her hands. “He's dead

I can't help it, and then I burst into tears again.

that I missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over finals and getting

Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready to

myself. Sadie tilts her head. "Blake

was pretty

I let him because honestly everyone else was

"Was he nice?"

her fingernails. "For Blake,

We

least distracted me

"I still

"Yeah."

put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I

"Blake?"

to my laptop and open it. "Let me just

at my door.

lets himself in. "Hey, beautiful, mind if I

kisses Sadie on the

wait, you're friends with the devil.“

you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls, but for

never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd cheerfully kill

my eyes. "Thanks,

“Anytime.”

my room, leaving me alone with

breath and

And then I type.

we need

kick my ass, but I

what to do and how things got so complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you know that no matter what, right now, in

And I'm still yours.