You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you can't imagine waking up without your

without that

yeah, while this all sucks, I know if you really love each other, you'll get

hands. “He's dead

and then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just so emotional

when I was sick, and I feel so much

with Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready to unravel and

tilts her head. "Blake seemed extra friendly today. Wanna

"He was pretty tame.

be my partner in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing up while I was throwing

"Was he nice?"

"For Blake, I mean, since all the

was. We

least distracted me for nearly an

still think

"Yeah."

it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate that I

"Blake?"

then rush to my laptop and open it. "Let me just send

at my door.

himself in. "Hey, beautiful, mind if I borrow you

Sadie on

him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with the

here and right now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to

you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd

my

“Anytime.”

Sadie's arm and pulls her out of my room, leaving me

take a deep breath and get

And then I type.

I know we need to

just letting life kick my ass, but I

and how things got so complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you know that no matter what, right now, in this moment, you're

And I'm still yours.