You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

take sides. It simply exists and you live in it because on those good days,

can't imagine breathing one more second without that person

while this all sucks, I know if you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out on the

claps her hands. “He's dead

then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just so emotional these

I missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much pressure over

a true crime story

Sadie tilts her head. "Blake seemed extra friendly today. Wanna talk

"He was pretty

to be my partner in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing up

"Was he nice?"

Blake, I mean, since all

We had

flirted and it at least distracted me for nearly an hour, which

still think something's off

"Yeah."

back to wondering what exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know.

"Blake?"

to my laptop and

at

in. "Hey, beautiful, mind

kisses Sadie on the

wait, you're friends with the devil.“

just say right here and right now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls, but for real...he did

you. Besides, if he

my eyes. "Thanks,

“Anytime.”

Sadie's arm and pulls her out of my room, leaving me alone with my

a deep breath and get

And then I type.

we need

just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to

so I at

And I'm still yours.