You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

exists and you live in it because on those good days, the really good fucking days, you

imagine breathing one more second without that person

you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight

hands. “He's

it, and then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just so

hate that I missed school when I was sick, and I feel so much

feel like a true crime

tilts her head. "Blake seemed extra friendly

shrug. "He was pretty tame.

my partner in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was pairing up while I was throwing a pity party and he

"Was he nice?"

Blake, I mean, since

We had

flirted and it at least distracted me for nearly an

still think

"Yeah."

wondering what exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it

"Blake?"

my laptop and open it.

sounds at my

mind if I borrow

kisses Sadie on the

you're friends

now, you both need to listen to the reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls,

soften. "He loves you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he

fill my

“Anytime.”

pulls her out of my room, leaving me alone

breath

And then I type.

know we need

ass, but I miss you. I don't

fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could

And I'm still yours.