You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

live in it because on those good days, the

can't imagine breathing one more second without that person holding your hand and standing by

sucks, I know if you really love each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out on the other side.

claps her hands. “He's

into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just so emotional these

school when I was sick, and I feel so

true crime story

her head. "Blake seemed extra friendly

shrug. "He was pretty tame.

be my partner in gym. I let him because honestly everyone else was

"Was he nice?"

fingernails. "For Blake, I mean, since all

We had

smile. "He barely flirted and it at least distracted me for

"I still think something's off

"Yeah."

that I'm back to wondering what exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate that I can't talk

"Blake?"

I say, then rush to my laptop and open it. "Let me just send this real

at

beautiful, mind

Sadie

shoves him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with the devil.“ He rolls his

reason. Yes, I knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls,

loves you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he

fill my eyes. "Thanks,

“Anytime.”

and pulls her out of my room, leaving me alone with my laptop and all

breath and get

And then I type.

we need

kick my ass, but I miss you. I

complicated so fast, but... can't text you, so I at least thought I could email and let you know that no matter what, right

And I'm still yours.