You’re Mine by Penny Brooks

Chapter 125

Harper

"It would be so much easier if I still didn't feel like shit!"

I throw myself onto my bed as Sadie paces back and forth as if that's going to help the trauma of the day. Why can't things be easier?

I do love him. I do. I just feel betrayed. Hurt.

And exhausted, quite honestly, I could nap for ten days and probably still not feel rested.

Maybe it's the fact that I was so sick and jumped right back into school, the trauma of my mom finding us, or feeling guilty over not telling my parents about the love of my life.

Wow, take your pick.

"He's an asshole,’ she finally says. "Let him sweat it out a bit."

“Would you?"

I ask. "Let Ryan sweat it out?

Or would you communicate?

Hear him out?

Be mature?

I don't even know what I want to do. One minute, I want to run Easton over, the next I want to hold him and never let go.

He's mine, Sadie. Mine. I love him. I just...I don't understand this side of him. The one that's still holding back, the one that's afraid.”

She sighs. “Love is scary, babe. No matter how young or old you are.

It has no prejudices, it is what it is. One day, it cuts you so deep you think you might bleed out, the next day you wonder how you ever lived without that feeling.

doesn't take sides. It simply exists and you live in it because on those good days,

more second without that person holding your hand and standing by your

each other, you'll get through it, fight for it, and come out on the

claps her hands. “He's

then I burst into tears again. "I'm sorry, I'm just

that I missed school when I was sick, and I

Aisha still feel like a true crime story ready

"Blake seemed extra friendly today.

was pretty tame.

let him because honestly everyone else was

"Was he nice?"

her fingernails. "For Blake, I mean, since

was. We had

smile. "He barely flirted and it at least distracted me for nearly an hour,

still think

"Yeah."

exactly is off because I can't put my finger on it. "Maybe. I don't know. Either way, it was a horrible day and I hate that I can't

"Blake?"

and open it. "Let me

at my door.

himself in. "Hey, beautiful, mind if

kisses Sadie on the

him. "Nope, wait, you're friends with the

knew, blah, blah, blah, you all want to murder me, who runs the world, girls, but for real...he did nothing wrong and

soften. "He loves you. He would never cheat on you. Besides, if he did, I'd

my

“Anytime.”

and pulls her out of my room,

deep breath and get

And then I type.

know we need to

or if I'm just letting life kick my ass, but I miss you. I don't want to break up,

but... can't text you, so I at

And I'm still yours.