Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

Alec’s CHAPTER 65

Chapter 65

Alec..

Regret. Regret. Regret.

That’s the one f**g emotion that no one ever wants to feel. One of the emotions that has the ability to gut you and leave you hating yourself for the **t you did.

I look at my daughter and my f**g heart hurts. I almost killed her. I hurt her mother. I lost three f**g years with her. She doesn’t know who the hell I am or just how important she already is to me.

To her, I am no one but a stranger. Someone staying in their pack. Someone who doesn’t have an impact on her life. I am a nobody to her. I doubt I even exist in her little world.

These last couple of weeks, since I learned she’s mine, I’ve watched her. Watched her play. Watched her laugh. Watched her smile. Watched her cry.

I’ve been studying her. Learning about her. Her likes and dislikes. What makes her happy and sad. I’ve watched and studied her personality. She’s an amazing little girl, so full of joy. Sadie really did a great job raising her, because Aspen was an angel through and through.

So many times, I’ve wanted to pull her into my arms and hug her. So many times, I’ve wanted to kiss her rosy cheeks. So many times, I’ve wanted to hold her and just be with her. It has gutted me over and over watching her interacting with King. Watching her run to him when she sees him. Watching her treating him like a father figure. Knowing your daughter doesn’t even recognize you is like a stab to the heart over and over again

I know that I don’t have anyone to blame, but **k it. That doesn’t mean it hurts any less.

“Hey, are you okay?” Micah’s voice pulls me from my tumultuous thoughts.

Running my hands down my face, I shake my head. “No”

While Micah, Jason and I traveled in one car, Sadie, Aspen, Raven and the nanny were in the car in front of us.

My jet could only carry ten people, so the rest of my warriors who had come with us and some of Sadie’s warriors would arrive the next day. Their flight was for tonight.

I would send my jet back once we arrived to pick up Piper, who had refused to leave without Calvin. They would both come, but Calvin would continue staying in my dungeon until Sadie and I decided on what to do with him.

“Is this about the pack? You know you don’t have to worry since Sadie agreed to help. Everything will be okay. We won’t lose anyone,” Jason says, once again pulling me back to reality.

have no f****g idea where to start to fix s**t. It was messing with my head. I dug a hole for myself when I treated Sadie like s**t. Ahole that, now, three years later is my own

message on the wall?” Micah turns to Jason and asks. “What Alec is dealing with isn’t just about the pack. Have you forgotten about Aspen, who doesn’t even know who the f**k he is? Or what about Sadie, who wants nothing

f**g complicated? I wish every person you met would come with a f**g sign. Something like, hey this person will be important

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carefully. That would have surely stopped me from making the biggest f*g *istake

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Jason turns to Micah in a relaxed and casual manner. “It’s only a matter of time

forgiving bone in her. I doubt she’ll let this go. The fact that she

believe in the mate bond. And I f**g believe she’ll

bond that is clear as day she’s fighting and, from the looks of

annoyance.

I needed to come up with ways to deal with this whole s**t storm. I needed

you just shut up?” I growl, massaging

turn to look at me, but otherwise shut their mouths.

plays on my f**g mind like a broken record. Every punch, every insult, every slap, every whip, every

them, but it doesn’t f**g work. Her screams and cries invade my headspace. I can’t shake them off no matter

comes to a stop. Turning to the

for the others; I get

her?” I ask Sadie, coming to stop

my daughter

a simple No. Nodding my head, I then guide her. All through the short journey, Aspen couldn’t stop talking about how happy she was that she

and laughter warm my heart, but also brings a pang of longing. I want her to smile at me like that. I want her to hold me the way she’s

where my jet is. We get in and the moment we are settled, my

Sadie hisses, when I take the

needed to be next to her. I needed to smell her scent. I needed to touch her. To mark her. To mate her. I couldn’t do the last three things,

“Sitting, obviously”