Alpha Alec's Redemption by Kathy M

Alec’s CHAPTER 65

Chapter 65

Alec..

Regret. Regret. Regret.

That’s the one f**g emotion that no one ever wants to feel. One of the emotions that has the ability to gut you and leave you hating yourself for the **t you did.

I look at my daughter and my f**g heart hurts. I almost killed her. I hurt her mother. I lost three f**g years with her. She doesn’t know who the hell I am or just how important she already is to me.

To her, I am no one but a stranger. Someone staying in their pack. Someone who doesn’t have an impact on her life. I am a nobody to her. I doubt I even exist in her little world.

These last couple of weeks, since I learned she’s mine, I’ve watched her. Watched her play. Watched her laugh. Watched her smile. Watched her cry.

I’ve been studying her. Learning about her. Her likes and dislikes. What makes her happy and sad. I’ve watched and studied her personality. She’s an amazing little girl, so full of joy. Sadie really did a great job raising her, because Aspen was an angel through and through.

So many times, I’ve wanted to pull her into my arms and hug her. So many times, I’ve wanted to kiss her rosy cheeks. So many times, I’ve wanted to hold her and just be with her. It has gutted me over and over watching her interacting with King. Watching her run to him when she sees him. Watching her treating him like a father figure. Knowing your daughter doesn’t even recognize you is like a stab to the heart over and over again

I know that I don’t have anyone to blame, but **k it. That doesn’t mean it hurts any less.

“Hey, are you okay?” Micah’s voice pulls me from my tumultuous thoughts.

Running my hands down my face, I shake my head. “No”

While Micah, Jason and I traveled in one car, Sadie, Aspen, Raven and the nanny were in the car in front of us.

My jet could only carry ten people, so the rest of my warriors who had come with us and some of Sadie’s warriors would arrive the next day. Their flight was for tonight.

I would send my jet back once we arrived to pick up Piper, who had refused to leave without Calvin. They would both come, but Calvin would continue staying in my dungeon until Sadie and I decided on what to do with him.

“Is this about the pack? You know you don’t have to worry since Sadie agreed to help. Everything will be okay. We won’t lose anyone,” Jason says, once again pulling me back to reality.

pack? That this is about more than just being worried about the injured members? Everything is a f**g mess and I have no f****g idea where to start

Have you forgotten about Aspen, who doesn’t even know who the f**k he is? Or what about Sadie, who wants nothing to do

life have to be so f**g complicated? I wish every person you met would come with a f**g sign. Something like, hey this person will be important to you

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Chapter 65

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and casual manner. “It’s only a matter of time before

to have a forgiving bone in her. I doubt she’ll let this go. The fact that she asked

f**g opinion. I believe in the mate bond. And I f**g believe

same f***g mate bond that is clear as day she’s fighting and, from the looks

annoyance.

to think. I needed to come up with ways to deal with this whole

just shut up?” I growl, massaging my temples. “You are

at me, but otherwise shut their mouths. I lean back against the chair and just close my

plays on my f**g mind like a broken record. Every punch, every insult, every slap,

doesn’t f**g work. Her screams and cries invade my headspace.

my eyes open when the car comes to a stop. Turning to the window, I realize that we were at

I get out because

you need help with her?” I ask Sadie, coming to stop

hold my daughter

she says a simple No. Nodding my head, I then guide her. All through the short journey, Aspen

her to smile at me like that. I want her to hold me the way she’s holding on to Sadie. I want her sweet warmth to erase the coldness inside me. To destroy the monster that I

s**t, we are led to where my jet is. We get in and the moment we are settled, my pilot takes

doing?” Sadie hisses, when I

scent. I needed to touch her. To

“Sitting, obviously”