Dear Sweetheart novel

Chapter 328 It Was Me First
“I lived for myself,” he mumbled, the desolation in his voice audible. “But I… I don’t have anything anymore. Everything’s just an illusion.”
My father’s words were an illusion, the letters were an illusion, and my mother’s gentleness was an illusion.
Those illusions had accompanied him for over twenty years, and they were what supported him to keep living. Those illusions were his courage, but now, he had lost everything. He was standing in the dark all alone.
No one needed him anymore.
“You do. You still have me.” His tone ached Rayna’s heart. “I’m not an illusion. I’m always by your side. Touch me if you don’t believe my words.”
She then grabbed his hands and placed them on her cheeks. The coldness of his skin made tears spring to her eyes.
Jefferson finally relaxed and turned around.
Even with the dim lights, Rayna could no longer find the light in his blue eyes. It seemed as if he had died on the inside.
She trembled as she held the man’s hand, and she parted her lips a few times before stammering, “Jefferson, don’t do this… Say something… Say anything… Don’t do this…”
She was frightened to see him like that.
He was young, and he should be full of life. He should be prideful and not have soulless eyes.
It was still raining heavily outside, and the raindrops pattered against the window rhythmically. The icy, humid air seeped into the attic through the half-opened door.
Rayna’s tearful and melancholic face was reflected in Jefferson’s eyes, and he stared at her for a long while.
The silence in the attic was deafening.
After what seemed like forever, the man gently moved his hand on Rayna’s face and whispered, “I was the one who met you first, and I was the one to fall for you first, so why did you end up falling for someone else?”
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” Rayna did not know what else to say but to keep repeating those three words. As she held his hands tightly, she said, “I’m right here. I won’t be going anywhere anymore.”
Rayna could see that he had not changed his bandages for a long time and that he had a deathly pallor. She did not know what would happen to him if she did not change his bandages and reapply his medication.

Maybe he never thought of leaving after coming here.
The thought of that tightened Rayna’s throat.
As she unlocked her phone, she softly said, “I’ll get the doctor to come and treat your wound. Didn’t you say that you have a gift for me? I’m looking forward to receiving that gift.”
“Do you still need it?”
“I do,” she answered. “I love every gift you gave to me, and I’ve kept them all properly. I love camellia, so give me more of them, okay?”
Even though he knew she was probably lying, he could not help but accept her words as they were.
“Okay.”
Rayna then contacted Hallsbay’s best doctor and informed him about the patient’s current condition and address. She also told him to come in an hour’s time and that she would pay any price he wanted.
After ending the call, she continued coaxing Jefferson. She told him that the attic was too cold, so she draped the coat over their heads and led him into the house before turning on the lights and the heater.
Jefferson stayed seated on the couch in silence, and his eyes lowered the entire time.
Forty minutes later, the doctor came. Fearing that he would not be able to handle the situation alone, he brought a nurse with him.
After entering the house, the doctor did a checkup for Jefferson. His expression turned grim as he said, “The wound has bled again, and it’s sticking with the gauze. I’m afraid it’ll be a little difficult to remove the bandage.”
A nervous look crept upon Rayna’s face at that. “Is it very bad?”
“No,” the doctor answered. By then, he had already worn his glove and had instructed the nurse to prepare the medication. “But it’ll hurt, and he’ll have to bear with the pain for a while.”
Rayna then reached out to hold Jefferson’s hand before muttering, “It’ll hurt a little, so bear with it for a while, okay? I’ll be right by your side, and if it hurts too much, you can bite my arm.”
Jefferson shook his head. “I can’t bring myself to do that.”
The doctor took a sterilized pair of scissors and slowly cut away the bandages around Jefferson’s body.
When the gauze fell, Rayna saw the innermost layer sticking to the wound. It had turned into a dark shade of red, and it looked dirty. It was a frightening sight.
In the next second, a cold hand covered her eyes.
“Don’t look.”
Rayna’s heart lurched painfully, but she tamped down the pain and hummed in response.
Although she could not see anything, she knew it had to hurt when the doctor separated the gauze from the wound, for Jefferson’s arms were shaking, and his repressed groans had traveled into her ears.
After what seemed like forever, the hand covering Rayna’s eyes moved away. It was then she saw that Jefferson had new bandages, and the doctor was packing up.
After writing the medical report, the doctor passed the paper to Rayna.
“I’ve brought some medication according to the symptoms you’ve told me, but his condition is more severe than what you’ve described. Get these medications from the pharmacy tomorrow. Remember to change his gauze and check his wound every day, and make sure he takes his meds on time. He’ll be on a liquid diet for the month, and he has to stay away from spicy food, tobacco, and alcohol.”
“Thank you.”
The doctor was detailed in his explanation, and Rayna did not have any questions to ask. After paying the doctor, she escorted him and the nurse out of the house.
Filling a glass of warm water, she then passed the glass and the medicine to Jefferson. “Get a good sleep after taking your meds.”
Jefferson silently took the medicine.
Rayna then helped him to the bedroom. Right as she was about to turn on the lights, Jefferson placed a hand on her hand and said, “I don’t like the light.”
“Okay, I won’t turn them on, then.”