Down the Rabbit Hole (Stuck On You)

Chapter 35: I Won’t Go

"Wow," I breathed. The other doctor, Dr. Reynolds, checked out everything else on me as Dr. Brown started wiping the gel off of my stomach. Dr. Reynolds picked up the iPad and typed in something. Dr. Brown handed me a tiny picture of the sonogram of my baby. "You're looking good, Ms. Campbell. I think we can take the IV out tomorrow," Dr. Reynolds stated.

"And prescribe you a prenatal vitamin," Dr. Brown added. I hesitated before I looked to Dr. Reynolds.

"Can I see Hayden?" I asked. She gave me a sympathetic look.

"I don't want you moving around so much," she said.

"I can use a wheelchair," I tried. She thought about it before she sighed.

"Tomorrow; you can see him tomorrow," she said. I sighed and sunk into my bed defeated. I didn't want to talk anymore. I looked at the white wall across from me and waited until the doctors left. I handed the picture of the baby to Quinn.

"I'm going to sleep," I said softly. She pecked my cheek gently before she squeezed my hand one last time and left. I closed my eyes and let sleep take me.

The next day, I woke up groggily. The doctor hadn't visited me all day. I think she was trying to prolong me leaving the room. I was starting to get anxious. Finally, Dr. Reynolds came into my room and went over my charts. I was practically holding my breath, waiting on her to give me the okay to go see Hayden. Dr. Reynolds turned back to me. "I'll get a nurse to wheel you down there," she said.

"Thank you," I said, relieved. I didn't know how much longer I could go without seeing him. A little later, I was wheeled beside his still figure on the hospital bed. I hated seeing him like this. I took a shaky breath as I reached over and held his hand. It hurt my side but I didn't care. Silent tears ran down my face as I watched his still face.

"Hayden," I said hoarsely. "I need you to come back to me. I love you," I said. For some reason, I was expecting him to wake up and tell me that everything was going to be okay, but he didn't. His face was still. He was still. I stood out of the wheelchair on shaky legs and held onto his bed. My legs were weak but I wanted to be closer to Hayden. I needed to be. I held his hand again as my tears continued to fall.

"Hayden, I have some big news for you whenever you wake up. Everyone is worried about you. I'm worried. The doctor said that you might be paralyzed, but I know you. You're a fighter... so fight. Fight for me and everyone else you love here," I said. "Please wake up," I begged softer. I still had hope. I had hope that he would wake up.

"Ms. Campbell, it's time to go back to your room," a nurse said, walking in. My eyes grew wide. I didn't want to leave him. I don't think I'd ever leave him.

"No, please," I begged, my tears falling harder. I took a step away from her and closer to Hayden as she approached me. My breathing picked up as I started panicking. I squeezed Hayden's hand a little more subconsciously. My breathing caused a stabbing pain in my side. I yelled as I leaned over and held my side tenderly.

"Ms. Campbell," the nurse said again, coming closer.

even more causing my breathing to become more labored. It became a vicious cycle. When I felt the nurse's hand on my shoulder, I freaked out; afraid that she would try to

you need to calm down," she said with a little more force. Two more nurses charged

side hurt worse. Seeing that it was only making me worse, the nurse stepped back. "I'm staying here... with Hayden," I said

to your room," the nurse said instead. I

shut as my side started hurting again. The nurse sat me down in the wheelchair and put something into my arm. I hissed in a breath but kept my eyes closed. I started to feel slower

back in my hospital bed. My eyes watered. I wanted to see Hayden. I needed to. I hit the big yellow button that was

Ms. Campbell, did you

please take these restraints off

would need to get an okay from your doctor,"

mood to amuse anyone right now. I was pissed and sad and upset, and I just wanted to go back to Hayden. I was surprised at

Jobear?" he asked, coming to my bedside. Those words again: are you okay. They brought tears to my eyes every time because I wasn't okay. I was far from okay. I was being restrained in the hospital, the man I love is in a coma, and I was pregnant. I was not okay. A lump rose in my throat so I

"Hayden's not doing well at all, dad. He's in a coma and I don't know when or if he'll wake up," I

that they're putting the best doctors and nurses on his room. He'll wake up, I just know it," he tried to comfort me. "What about you, honey? Are you okay... physically?" he asked. I shrugged. "Dad,

the state that he was in. "Hayden will wake up; I'm sure of it," he said again. The nurse came back and took the restraints off of my

here in a moment," the nurse said.

in restraints?" my dad asked.

Hayden," I

nodded.

care of all

worried, Jobear. You're only 19 years old, and you might have to-" he stopped himself, but I already got

to go through this alone... without Hayden," I finished in a whisper. He

can move in with Cindy

"Dad, stop," I begged.

you told your

sure she would smite me or