Down the Rabbit Hole (Stuck On You)

Chapter 36: Ticking Time Bomb

The first thing I did when I was formally released was go to Hayden's room. I just sat by his bedside, holding his hand. I couldn't really do anything else but wait; so that's what I did. I stayed in his room for days. I didn't eat. I barely slept and if I did, it was in the chair in Hayden's room. "Jo, you have to eat something," he dad said. "That baby is going to die if you don't," he added. I sighed and looked at Hayden's still face.

"I don't care," I said hoarsely. I was feeling weak and dizzy but I didn't care. I was more concerned about Hayden. "I'll eat when Hayden wakes up," I argued.

"No, Jordyn, you are going to eat something. You have someone else to think about now. How could you be so selfish?" my dad said. I looked at him in shock as I stood up.

"Selfish?" I breathed. "My boyfriend. The man I love. The man I would've 4married is lying in a coma and I don't know when he's going to wake up. And you're calling me selfish for being concerned?" I said in disbelief.

"No, I'm calling you selfish for not thinking of that baby that is growing in your stomach," he yelled at me. I flinched at his words. My dad had never really yelled at me like that before.

"You have no idea what this feels like... to be in this position," I said softly. "It hurts," I cried. My dad sighed and pulled me into a hug.

"I know honey... I know," he shushed me softly. I couldn't hold it in any longer. I started sobbing. I hugged him back tightly and let my eyes shut.

"It's not fair," I sobbed.

"I know," he said softly. "It's hard. Remember; we were here with Thomas. I have been through this; maybe not in the same situation as you are right now, but I have been here." How could I forget? I stood there crying on my dad's shoulder until I couldn't stand any longer. He sat me back down in the chair and shushed me.

okay," he whispered. I eventually passed

made me go home. They said that being here was toxic to my own health. It didn't help at all. I tossed the keys on to the counter and sighed as I looked around. Everything in the apartment reminded me of Hayden. Eventually, I went into his room. I put on one of his favorite

saw me. I know I probably looked a mess. My eyes were probably bloodshot and puffy, my skin was probably pale and ghost-like, and I probably looked like a skeleton. I hadn't looked in a mirror since the wreck, but I was assuming

the shower. I sat down and pulled my knees up to my chest. I put my head on my knees and closed my eyes. Tears trickled across my face and landed on my knees as Quinn ran the bath water. She practically gave me a

on my bed and put my head on her lap and just ran her hand over my hair. I took

softly. "He will wake up, and when he does, you don't want him to see you like this, do you?" she asked. I shook my head gently and closed my eyes to keep from crying. I didn't have enough energy to cry anymore. After a while, Quinn dressed me and

go," she said, standing up suddenly. I looked at her

I asked; my voice better due to the

to go talk to Hayden," she said. I sighed

said hopelessly. She dragged me out of the

his peaceful face. "Hayden," I started. "I didn't tell you this earlier, but we're having a baby. Me and you. It would be better if you would wake up. You could come to the doctor appointments with me and we could look at baby names. I need you. I need you to get through this. I need you and this

His brain monitor spiked again. I

and used my fork to move my food

me," I said with a slight smile. "I know I'm stupid for thinking he would wake up, but it was progress," I shrugged. Luca shook

you stupid. You love him. You're going to want to hope for

It should be me at that

to anybody," he tried to comfort me. I wiped away the

shouldn't have happened to him," I said in a whisper. I looked away from him and towards my stomach. I sighed and