Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

is he doesn’t love me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still

throat, obviously stalling.

mommy or not?”

in defeat. “I love her for

a placation

that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again.

to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the

the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave

Him, me

my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing

it’s rude

deep voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square

near the kitchen counter. My now

pins me

The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his

give them a

and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs

you too, my love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I feel out of

though,

in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the color

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go.

doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised

divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you

like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t mean a damn thing to

my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding

finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a

to ease the pain

still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated for

and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the

looks between us for a

fighting” he commands

he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter

my son” the words leave his