Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son the

his throat,

love mommy or not?” Noah

sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me

was a placation not

that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over

married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or

our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except

instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to

I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man

ever told you it’s rude to listen to other

voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the

near the kitchen counter. My

eyes pins me to

thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my brown hair and his penetrating grey

them

places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my mid-section. “I’ve missed

before he steps away from me and

used to be my home, but now

truth though,

HER in mind. This was HER dream

been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her

at his watch. “You promised you

the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while I pick up

turns stone cold and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on.

a nightmare. I

Trying to ease the pain that was

does no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been

discuss something” Rowan

between us for a minute

he commands

soon as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy as he

have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a