Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear

throat,

you love mommy or not?” Noah asks again,

love her for giving me

placation

pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his answer would

words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in

back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return

in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man that

told you it’s rude to listen

thoughts

stands near the kitchen counter. My

grey eyes pins me

my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy

them a small

eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs

you too, my love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back to

stand there awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I feel out of place in

truth though, I never

unknowingly, he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house,

planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate my love for

are you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You

the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the

and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I

we got married I thought I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always

to ease the pain that was

does no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve

go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother

between us for a

he commands

soon as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are

my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands