Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son

his throat,

love mommy or not?” Noah

“I love her for giving me you”

was a placation

It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all

me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor

duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except pain

marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

fill my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of crying.

told you it’s rude to

cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in

he stands near the kitchen counter.

eyes pins

and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his

give them a small

Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and

too, my love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and

to be my home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like I don’t

though, I never

unknowingly, he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the

been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t

are you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my time

divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while

a piece of me breaks.

heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving

The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl

chest. Trying to ease the pain that was encased

good. It still fucking hurts even though

up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched

us for a minute before

he

fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes

sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready to