Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

he doesn’t love me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would

his throat, obviously

love mommy or not?” Noah asks again, his voice

him sigh in defeat. “I love

placation

against the rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over

me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or

held himself back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave

of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go for nine

I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of

anyone ever told you it’s rude to listen to other people’s

cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process.

he stands near the kitchen

pins

thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my brown hair and his penetrating

I give them

eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me

his forehead before he steps away from me and

now

truth though,

or unknowingly, he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the

first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her

he asks in annoyance and stares at

I could bring you the copy while I

cold and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t mean a damn

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but they

been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost

ease the pain that

good. It still fucking hurts even

up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says

looks between us for

he commands before

fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy

sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his