Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

as day. Knowing this, I

clears his throat, obviously stalling.

mommy or not?” Noah asks

in defeat. “I love her for giving me

a placation not an

After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had

when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the

entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me

of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go for

my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing

you it’s rude to listen

space. Interrupting my thoughts in the

stands near the kitchen

grey eyes pins me to

in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my

give them

from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my

before he

but now I feel

truth though, I never

in mind.

should have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he

annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my time

know…I got the divorce degree today and I thought I

thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking

since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of

my chest. Trying to ease the pain

good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been

to discuss something” Rowan says through

between us for a minute before

he

as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter

instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready