Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his

clears his throat,

you love mommy or not?”

defeat. “I love her for giving me

was a placation

eyes against the rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t

Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the

the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave

us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his

but I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after

it’s rude to listen to

my thoughts

stands near the kitchen counter.

pins me to

joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has my brown hair and his penetrating grey

I give them a

his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the

I kiss his forehead before he steps away

awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I feel out of place

truth though, I never

in mind. This was HER dream

indication that he wasn’t planning on

are you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you

and I thought I could bring you the

and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that doesn’t mean a damn thing to

has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving

love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always

ease the pain

still fucking hurts even

could you go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through

looks between us for a

fighting” he commands before

Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger.

to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted