Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply.

throat, obviously

or not?” Noah asks again, his

love her for giving me you”

a placation

all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his answer would

married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed

gave him my

marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after

anyone ever told you it’s rude to

deep voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

he stands near the kitchen counter. My

mocking grey eyes pins me to the

my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his

I give them a

jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my

he steps away from me and goes back to

used to be my home, but now I feel out of place

though,

or unknowingly, he built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That

and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t

I thought I could

like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but they

we got married I thought I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I could never

my chest. Trying to ease the

no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated

to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the

us for a minute

he commands

is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger.

the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he