Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this,

throat, obviously stalling.

not?” Noah asks

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me you” he finally

was a placation not

still hurts. I feel my

gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or when we

him my all but he gave me nothing in return except

there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me

eyes but I rub them way. I was tired

told you it’s rude to listen to

silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

stands near the kitchen

grey eyes pins me to the

shift to my son. My pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good

them a

down and jumps down from the

his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back to his

home, but now I feel out of place in it. Like

truth though, I

built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down

planning on letting her go. That he

are you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised

today and I thought I could bring you

lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember

over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued

to be a nightmare.

rub my chest. Trying to ease the

It still fucking hurts even

your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says

us for

he commands before

as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His

could have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and he looks about ready