Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

he doesn’t love me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted

throat,

love mommy or not?” Noah

him sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me you” he finally

was a placation not an

me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part

got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that

the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except pain

us in our marriage. Him, me and the love

tired of crying. Tired of

ever told you it’s rude to listen to other

through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the

kitchen counter. My

mocking grey eyes pins me to the

good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely

them a small

places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter.

kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

to be my home, but now I feel out

though, I never

built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the

that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate my love for

you doing here?” he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised

got the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while

Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved

he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving

would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with

ease the pain

does no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been

mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says

for a

he

on

to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a