Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell

clears his throat, obviously stalling.

not?”

in defeat. “I love her for giving me

was a placation

hurts. I feel my heart

got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after

marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except pain

our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go for nine long

tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man that didn’t

told you it’s rude to

my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

he stands near the kitchen counter. My now

grey eyes pins me to the

eyes shift to my son. My pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He

them a

his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my mid-section. “I’ve

too, my love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

stand there awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I

truth though, I

in mind. This was

been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go.

and stares at

I

a piece of me breaks. I’ve

has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will

Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I could never measure up to no matter

ease the pain

good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated for

room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping

us for a minute

fighting” he

soon as he is out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter

my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are fisted and