Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son

his throat, obviously

you love mommy or not?” Noah asks

love her for giving me you” he finally

placation not

eyes against the rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his

me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had

marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return

were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go for nine long

I was tired of crying.

it’s rude to listen to other people’s

Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders

the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband, Rowan

pins me to

pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his

give them a

places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter.

he steps away from me and goes back to

This used to be my home, but now I feel

truth though, I

in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down to the color

indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate my

at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my time with

thought I could bring you the copy

stone cold and his lips form a thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me

over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but they

child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost

to ease the pain that was encased

hurts even though we’ve

need to discuss something” Rowan

looks between us for a

he commands

of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy as he addresses

have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands are