Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son the truth or lie to

clears his throat,

or not?” Noah asks again, his

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me

placation not

all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his answer would

Not when we got married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor

duration of our marriage. I gave him my all

two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man

rude to listen to

my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and enter

he stands near the kitchen

grey eyes pins me

pride and joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad.

them

down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my mid-section. “I’ve

his forehead before he

there awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I feel out of place in

though, I

HER in mind. This was HER dream

have been the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate

at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt

degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy while I pick up

looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember but that

over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change,

I would finally get love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the

Trying to ease the pain

does no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated

something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of

looks between us for a

he

his fist on the counter in

to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands