Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply.

his throat, obviously stalling.

or not?” Noah asks

“I love her for giving me you” he

placation

this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his answer would be

or when I gave

back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he

of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s

was tired of crying.

rude to

deep voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the

he stands near the kitchen counter. My

mocking grey eyes pins me to the

joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of

them

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my mid-section. “I’ve missed

too, my love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from

be my home, but now I feel out of place

though,

mind. This was HER dream house, everything down

wasn’t planning on letting her go. That

stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my time

and I thought I could bring you the copy

thin line. Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I

my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but they never

turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a

rub my chest. Trying to ease the pain that was

good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated for

to discuss something”

looks between us for a minute

he commands before

ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy as

son” the words leave his lips in a growl.