Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this,

clears his throat,

love mommy or not?” Noah asks

defeat. “I love

was a placation not

time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of me had hoped that his

I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed

him my all but he gave me nothing

me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to

fill my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man that

it’s rude to listen to

space. Interrupting my thoughts in

he stands near the kitchen counter.

grey eyes pins me

The only good thing in my life. His good looks are

I give them a

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me

love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

stand there awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I feel out

though, I never

built this house with HER in mind. This was HER dream house,

the first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go.

in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my time with

the divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the copy

me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can

my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving

a nightmare. I was

Trying to ease

no good. It still fucking hurts

room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping

us for a

he commands

ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the

son” the words leave his lips in a growl.