Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

doesn’t love me. Never had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I

his throat, obviously

love mommy or not?” Noah asks again, his

sigh in defeat. “I love her for giving me you” he

placation

the rush of pain that fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t know why a small part of

married or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the

himself back through the entire duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in return except

married but instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a man

you it’s rude to listen to other people’s

through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my

near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband,

mocking grey eyes pins me

joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely curtesy of his dad. He has

give them

mommy” Noah places his half eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to me and hugs my

my love” I kiss his forehead before he steps away from me and

awkwardly. This used to be my home, but now I

though, I

house with HER in mind. This was

indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That

he asks in annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you

and I thought I could bring you the copy while

time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks.

over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I continued loving him. Holding on. Thinking things will change, but

wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past.

to ease the

good. It still fucking hurts even though

room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of his mouth in

between us for a

he

Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy

have sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl. His hands