Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

had and never will. That was as clear as day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our

clears his throat, obviously

not?” Noah asks again,

“I love her for

was a placation not

It still hurts. I feel my heart

or when I gave birth to Noah, nor after in the years that had passed or when we slept

duration of our marriage. I gave him my all but he gave me nothing in

in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused

them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of chasing after a

you it’s rude

Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square my shoulders and

he stands near the kitchen counter. My now ex-husband,

eyes pins me to

The only good thing in my life. His good looks are

them

from the counter. He rushes to me

his forehead before he steps away from me and goes back

now I feel out of place in

though, I never

with HER in mind. This was HER dream house, everything down

wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t

stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my

divorce degree today and I thought I could bring you the

me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve loved him since I can remember

shattered my soul. I

a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his past. The ghost of a girl I could never measure up

to ease

does no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been

up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of

looks between us for a minute before

he

shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are

sent them to my damn office instead of interrupting my time with my son” the words leave his lips in a growl.