Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Divorce decree

I get out of my car and slowly walk towards the mansion. My hands were trembling and my body was sweaty.

I still couldn’t believe that it was done. That I was finally divorced from him. The proof of that was currently in my handbag. I was here to bring the final papers to him and to pick Noah up.

Entering the house, I follow the sounds of hushed voices but stop in my tracks when I near the kitchen.

Right now I could hear them clearly and what I heard encased my soul in ice.

“I still don’t understand why you can’t live with me and mommy?” Noah asks his father.

My shaking hands go to my chest. My heart breaking at the sadness in his voice. I would do anything for him, but this divorce was inevitable.

Our marriage had been a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake. It just took me a while to see the truth.

“You know why Noah, you mother and I are no longer together” His voice is soft as he replies.

It’s weird really. That during the duration of our marriage he has never once spoken to me softly. It was always cold. Always flat and devoid of any emotion

“But why?”

“These things just happen” he mumbles.

I can imagine his face frowning. As he tries to make Noah understand so that he doesn’t ask any more questions. But Noah is my son. Curiosity and inquisition is in his blood.

“Don’t you love her?”

My breath gets caught at the simple heartfelt question. I take a step back and lean against the wall. Heart racing, I wait in anticipation for his answer.

I knew his answer. I’ve always known what it is. Everyone with the exception of Noah probably knows that damn answer.

day. Knowing this, I still wanted to hear his reply. Would he tell our son the truth

throat, obviously stalling.

not?” Noah asks

hear him sigh in defeat. “I love

placation not

fills me. After all this time. It still hurts. I feel my heart breaking all over again. I don’t

those three words to me. Not when we got married or when I gave birth

gave him my all but he

married but instead of two, there were three of us in our marriage. Him, me and the love of his life. The woman he’s refused to let go

my eyes but I rub them way. I was tired of crying. Tired of

told you it’s rude to listen to other people’s

deep voice cuts through the silent space. Interrupting my thoughts in the process. I square

kitchen counter.

grey eyes pins me to the

joy. The only good thing in my life. His good looks are definitely

them a

eaten sandwich down and jumps down from the counter. He rushes to

kiss his forehead before he steps away from me

home, but now I

though, I never

in mind. This was HER dream house, everything

first indication that he wasn’t planning on letting her go. That he wouldn’t reciprocate my love for

annoyance and stares at his watch. “You promised you wouldn’t interrupt my

know…I got the divorce degree today and I thought I could

Every time he looks at me like this, a piece of me breaks. I’ve

and over, he has broken my heart and shattered my soul. I

love. The love I’ve been craving since I was a child. I was wrong. Marriage turned to be a nightmare. I was always fighting with the ghost of his

to ease

no good. It still fucking hurts even though we’ve been separated

could you go up to your room? Your mother and I need to discuss something” Rowan says through clenched teeth, the word mother slipping out of his mouth in

between us for a minute before

fighting” he

out of ear shot, Rowan bangs his fist on the counter in anger. His grey eyes are icy as he

my son” the words leave his lips in a