Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

4. Utterly broken

Have you ever felt like your heart has been put in a mincer? That is how I feel right now looking at them. I feel like my heart has been shredded into pieces.

If I could take the useless piece of organ and throw it away then I would. Because the pain that was tearing through me was unimaginable.

I wanted to run away. To look away, but I couldn’t. My eyes were fixed on them and no matter how I wanted to avert them it was like they were glued there. To the loving scene that was playing before me.

I watch as they separate. Rowan’s eyes soften as he stares at the love of his life. I continue to watch as he cups her face in his hands. He brings her closer to him. He doesn’t kiss her, just lays his forehead against hers.

He looks peaceful. Like he’s finally home after a long time. Like he was finally whole.

‘I’ve missed you’ I read the words forming on his lips.

I don’t want to imagine what would be happening between them right now if they had met under a different circumstance. If they had met when we were still married. Would he have cheated on me?

Part of me wants to deny that thought but I can’t be sure. After all, this was Emma we were talking about. Rowan would go to hell and back for her sake.

Unable to take it anymore. I stand up and rush outside.

The moment I get outside the tears begin to fall. It fucking hurt and I didn’t know how to numb or stop the pain. But who could I blame? I was the one at fault for falling in love with a man that didn’t belong to me.

pain stop” I beg whichever

answer though. No

enough air into my lungs no matter what I tried. I

man that doesn’t belong to you”

precious little sister then you can walk your ass back to the hospital where your family is. There is nothing here for

see me cry. I won’t give them the chance to

The shock is etched on his face. I guess

was just making sure you to understand that Rowan always belonged to Emma. Your selfishness took him away from her but now they can be together. I hope you won’t get in

out

After this, none of

me. His brows pinched in confusion. “What

forget this day ever happened. I’ll cry myself to sleep then wake up feeling refreshed and ready to

that’s if she even wants

car. I can hear Travis calling my name but I

home. Rowan told me that Noah was with his mother. I didn’t want to deal yet with another person that

truly alone I am. I have no one to comfort me or look after me. No one to love me.

start falling down my

yet I can’t seem to stop. If only I could go back in time and

the past. Once it’s happened,

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and everyone is in turmoil. It came as shock to everyone. He was a well known and loved man. So everyone

Rowan since that day. He has called though multiple times but I ignored his calls. He was probably all loved up and in Emma’s arms right now. She

those bitter thoughts, I focus on zipping my black

voice comes

find him with tears in his eyes. I kneel down so that I am on eye level

it my love?” I

him so much. We were supposed to go fishing with this Saturday”