Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

4. Utterly broken

Have you ever felt like your heart has been put in a mincer? That is how I feel right now looking at them. I feel like my heart has been shredded into pieces.

If I could take the useless piece of organ and throw it away then I would. Because the pain that was tearing through me was unimaginable.

I wanted to run away. To look away, but I couldn’t. My eyes were fixed on them and no matter how I wanted to avert them it was like they were glued there. To the loving scene that was playing before me.

I watch as they separate. Rowan’s eyes soften as he stares at the love of his life. I continue to watch as he cups her face in his hands. He brings her closer to him. He doesn’t kiss her, just lays his forehead against hers.

He looks peaceful. Like he’s finally home after a long time. Like he was finally whole.

‘I’ve missed you’ I read the words forming on his lips.

I don’t want to imagine what would be happening between them right now if they had met under a different circumstance. If they had met when we were still married. Would he have cheated on me?

Part of me wants to deny that thought but I can’t be sure. After all, this was Emma we were talking about. Rowan would go to hell and back for her sake.

Unable to take it anymore. I stand up and rush outside.

The moment I get outside the tears begin to fall. It fucking hurt and I didn’t know how to numb or stop the pain. But who could I blame? I was the one at fault for falling in love with a man that didn’t belong to me.

I beg whichever higher power is there to

no answer

my chest. I feel my chest constricting. I couldn’t get enough air into my lungs no matter what I tried.

that doesn’t

to stay away from your precious little sister then you can walk your ass back to the hospital where

let him see me cry. I won’t give them the chance to see me

The shock is etched on his face. I guess

making sure you to understand that Rowan always belonged to Emma. Your selfishness took him away from her but now they can be together.

out

don’t worry, I won’t get in anyone’s way ever again. After this, none of you will have to see or put up with me anymore” I

me. His brows pinched in

tired and all I wanted was to go to sleep and forget this day ever happened. I’ll cry

be by to help with burial preparations, that’s if she even wants my help. And tell your

Heading towards my car. I can hear Travis calling my name but I don’t bother to turn around. I just wanted

I didn’t want to deal yet with another person that hated my guts. He was safe, so I’ll just pick him

I have no one to comfort

start falling down my

If only I could go back in time and change things. Maybe right now I would

that’s the things about the past. Once it’s happened, you can never change

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and everyone is in turmoil. It came as shock to everyone. He

up and in Emma’s arms right now. She has probably even moved in with him already. I didn’t need him

I focus on zipping

voice comes

eyes. I kneel down so that I am

my

much. We were supposed to go fishing with