Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

4. Utterly broken

Have you ever felt like your heart has been put in a mincer? That is how I feel right now looking at them. I feel like my heart has been shredded into pieces.

If I could take the useless piece of organ and throw it away then I would. Because the pain that was tearing through me was unimaginable.

I wanted to run away. To look away, but I couldn’t. My eyes were fixed on them and no matter how I wanted to avert them it was like they were glued there. To the loving scene that was playing before me.

I watch as they separate. Rowan’s eyes soften as he stares at the love of his life. I continue to watch as he cups her face in his hands. He brings her closer to him. He doesn’t kiss her, just lays his forehead against hers.

He looks peaceful. Like he’s finally home after a long time. Like he was finally whole.

‘I’ve missed you’ I read the words forming on his lips.

I don’t want to imagine what would be happening between them right now if they had met under a different circumstance. If they had met when we were still married. Would he have cheated on me?

Part of me wants to deny that thought but I can’t be sure. After all, this was Emma we were talking about. Rowan would go to hell and back for her sake.

Unable to take it anymore. I stand up and rush outside.

The moment I get outside the tears begin to fall. It fucking hurt and I didn’t know how to numb or stop the pain. But who could I blame? I was the one at fault for falling in love with a man that didn’t belong to me.

beg

answer

couldn’t get enough air into my lungs no matter what I tried. I felt

when you want a man that

or warn me to stay away from your precious little sister then you can walk your ass back to the hospital where your family is. There

won’t give them the chance to see

shock is etched on his face. I guess he

sure you to understand that Rowan always belonged to Emma. Your selfishness took him away from her but now they can be together. I hope you won’t get

let out

ever again. After this, none of you will have to see

pinched in confusion.

forget this day ever happened. I’ll cry myself to sleep then wake up feeling refreshed and ready to face the next few

that’s if

can hear Travis calling my name but I don’t bother to turn

that Noah was with his mother. I didn’t want to deal yet with another person that hated my guts. He was safe, so I’ll just pick him

get home in record time. Being there alone just reminded me how truly alone I am. I have no one to comfort me or look

falling down

back in time and change things. Maybe right

that’s the things about the past. Once it’s happened, you

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It came as shock to everyone. He was

multiple times but I ignored his calls. He was probably all loved up and in Emma’s arms right now. She has probably

bitter thoughts, I focus on zipping

Noah’s voice comes from behind

tears in his eyes. I kneel down so that I am

is it my love?” I

miss him so much. We were supposed to go fishing with this Saturday” his voice catches and my heart breaks