Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

4. Utterly broken

Have you ever felt like your heart has been put in a mincer? That is how I feel right now looking at them. I feel like my heart has been shredded into pieces.

If I could take the useless piece of organ and throw it away then I would. Because the pain that was tearing through me was unimaginable.

I wanted to run away. To look away, but I couldn’t. My eyes were fixed on them and no matter how I wanted to avert them it was like they were glued there. To the loving scene that was playing before me.

I watch as they separate. Rowan’s eyes soften as he stares at the love of his life. I continue to watch as he cups her face in his hands. He brings her closer to him. He doesn’t kiss her, just lays his forehead against hers.

He looks peaceful. Like he’s finally home after a long time. Like he was finally whole.

‘I’ve missed you’ I read the words forming on his lips.

I don’t want to imagine what would be happening between them right now if they had met under a different circumstance. If they had met when we were still married. Would he have cheated on me?

Part of me wants to deny that thought but I can’t be sure. After all, this was Emma we were talking about. Rowan would go to hell and back for her sake.

Unable to take it anymore. I stand up and rush outside.

The moment I get outside the tears begin to fall. It fucking hurt and I didn’t know how to numb or stop the pain. But who could I blame? I was the one at fault for falling in love with a man that didn’t belong to me.

pain stop” I beg whichever higher power is there to listen

is no answer though.

I feel my chest constricting. I couldn’t get enough air into my lungs no matter what I tried. I felt like I was slowly dying. Slowly

you want a man that doesn’t belong to you” his mocking voice penetrates the

want Travis…if you’re here to mock me or warn me to stay away from your precious little sister then you can walk your ass back to the hospital where your family is. There is nothing here for

I won’t give them the chance

The shock is etched on his face. I guess he never expected me to talk

took him away from her but

let out a

don’t worry, I won’t get in anyone’s way ever again. After this, none of you will have to see or put

at me. His brows pinched in confusion. “What

sleep and forget this day ever happened.

help with burial preparations, that’s if she even wants my help. And tell your sister I said

that, I walk away. Heading towards my car. I can hear Travis calling my name but I don’t

want to deal

reminded me how truly alone I am. I have no one to comfort me or

falling down my

of crying yet I can’t seem to stop. If only I could go back in time and change things. Maybe right now I

Once

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to everyone. He was a well

was probably all loved up and in Emma’s arms right now. She has

those bitter thoughts, I focus on

Noah’s voice comes

with tears in his eyes. I kneel

it my love?”

much. We were supposed to go fishing with this Saturday” his voice catches