Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

4 He’s hurting

Ava

I’m still reeling from Rowan’s actions a couple of days ago. I don’t get what the hell has the inte him. Was he trying to jeopardize his relationship with Emma? Did he want to get me trouble with her?

She already thought that I was out to get her man That I was doing everything can to take hu away from her. What she didn’t understand is that I just wanted peace I didn’t want Rowan I’ve been there, tried that and learned my lesson the hard way.

“Are you sure about that?” an annoying little voice asked me. “You can’t deny that you liked the kiss. That’s how you always imagined him kissing you. With nothing but want and passion”

I shake the thought away. It was wrong. I was determined to move on from Rowan and find a life and love of my own. Just because my body betrayed me didn’t mean anything. My re pons- was purely biological. There was nothing more to it

“Keep lying to yourself” the voice argued

I wasn’t lying to myself. Or maybe I was, bottom line is I wasn’t going to read into Rowan

uncharacteristic behavior or his unexpected kiss.

Pushing thoughts of Rowan completely to the back of my mind, I focus on the door to the coffee

shop. It was five and I had just gotten out of work. Letty and I had made plans to meet up before

going home.

I take a bite of my cake just as the door opens and Letty walks in. Her eyes searches the sea of

people before finally landing on me. She rushes towards me, a smile on her face.

“I’m so sorry I’m late, we had a last minute meeting at the office” she says as she takes a seat

opposite me. (0

I smile back at her. “It’s okay. No worries”

“I see you’ve already ordered” she points out.

“I missed lunch so I was a bit hungry”

She nods her head before making her order. When that’s done, she turns and faces me. Giving me

her full attention.

O

+15 BONUS

“So tell me, how did your date with Ethan go?”

has come to mean a lot to me in the short time we’ve known each other. She is the best friend I never knew I needed. The one I never got to have

went really well” I

and a

isn’t much to tell, Letty. We went to dinner at this fancy restaurant and then he took me out for ice cream. Which was my favorite

you?” excitement was written all over her

I said to her registered. All she wanted to know

wanted to, but he didn’t. I don’t know whether I

“Why?”

how it feels to be kissed by someone who actually wants me, but the other part was

ready for that yet”

and just stares at me. I see the wheels in her mind turning as

just told

has never kissed you?” she asks, a

meant it. I saw him kiss Emma when we were

he couldn’t get over the taste of her lips on his. Like he could

I take a breath. “He has never kissed me like

eyes because I don’t want her to see my shame. This is

pieces of my marriage to Rowan in my heart for so long. Not

to know just how much his actions

kiss you like that last Friday”

Besides it can’t erase all the times

2/5

*15 BONUS

me like you wouldn’t believe That my husband found me so unattractive that he didn’t even want to kiss me. Even when we had S**, he would kiss anywhere except my

be kissed like the world is going to end in the next minute” Letty’s words pull me out of my head. She has my hand in hers, offering me support

at me with pity or sympathy That was the last thing I needed from

everything else was perfect?”

see Rowan and Emma though

“You’re serious?”

a sip of my drink

made sense Everyone saw it then and

to see it now,

and I hope it sinks in that he let go of a

beauty”

you Letty was good for my ego For

how beautiful Emma was Finally, someone who wasn’t comparing me to my

her beauty in

that’s it? Nothing else interesting

shake

about Rowan’s visit, but I

say things they aren’t supposed

is Emma ever finding out that Rowan came to my house

that he

easily, but I

her.