1. The past

Nine years ago.

My phones pings with a new notification waking me up from yet another restless sleep. For some reason, I haven’t been able to sleep well for the past two years.

Part of me thinks it’s because of Rowan. That my heart and head aren’t at peace because he isn’t near me anymore. My restlessness started when he joined university two years ago. During the time he’s away at Uni, I rarely sleep but when he’s home for the breaks, I sleep like a baby.

Groaning at yet another night without sleep, I wake up and check my phone. I’m surprised but it quickly turns to happiness when I see what the notification is.

I paid someone money to install an app that lets me track Rowan every time he’s around. Right now it just notified me that he was home.

Jumping out of bed, I get dressed quickly. He was probably back with Emma or maybe Travis or Gabe, but I didn’t mind. I just wanted to see him even if it’s from a far.

Once I’m done getting ready, I sneak out through my bedroom window. I had the furthest room in the house. It’s nearly Impossible for my parents or the maids to hear me leaving.

I get safely down and begin walking. Taking my phone out, I order an Uber.

“This is a terrible idea!” a voice niggles in my sub–consciousness

I ignore it. My head is already swimming with visions of my Rowan. I haven’t seen him in months and my eyes were dying to feast on him.

“Ava, go back home. You’re making a mistake” the voice continues shouting.

I stop in my tracks. That isn’t right. Nothing about Rowan would ever be a mistake. Cementing that in my head, I push all other thoughts to the back of my mind.

Minutes later, my ride arrives.

“Please, Ava, turn back” the damn voice pleads with me just as I am getting into the car.

I feel torn. Like I was fighting against my own mind and body. Finally I manage to push the thought aside and get inside the car.

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I should have listened to its warning.

Another thirty minutes, we arrive at a bar. I pay the guy and get out. I stare at the dingy place

wondering what the hell Rowan was doing here. This wasn’t his kind of scene. 1

Squaring my shoulders, I walk towards it and manage to get in using a fake ID. Quickly, I walk to a hidden spot and survey the place looking for him. I locate him within seconds, surprised to find

he was alone.

I stay hidden for a while. Waiting to see if any of the others will arrive but none of them do. He was here alone.

“You’ve feasted your eyes, now let’s leave” damn that stupid voice.

I ignore it completely. This might be my chance to get him to notice me. Now that he was here alone and Emma wasn’t by his side.

I take a deep breath and walk the short distance to him.

“Hey Rowan” I greet shyly.

He turns and gives me a blinding smile. Catching me off guard. We rarely talk and he has always gone to great lengths to ignore and avoid me, so the smile catches me off guard.

“It’s little Ava” he shouts. “How are you doing?” he asks.

It’s then I realize he was completely drunk. That was the only reason he looked so happy and receptive towards me.

I take the chair next to him. Immediately he orders me a drink. I take my first taste and it was disgusting. I have never drank in my life but I force myself to do it.

“So how’s school?” I ask, feeling myself relax little by little.

He smirks and nudges my shoulder. “Is that really what you want to ask me?”

“No, I want to ask what you’re doing here drinking alone but I didn’t want to come off as rude.”

He sways in his seat as he leans forward. “Aren’t you sweet” he says then goes back to drinking.

“Are you okay?” I ask in concern. He wasn’t acting like his normal self

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I should have listened to its warning.

Another thirty minutes, we arrive at a bar. I pay the guy and get out. I stare at the dingy place

wondering what the hell Rowan was doing here. This wasn’t his kind of scene.

Squaring my shoulders, I walk towards it and manage to get in using a fake ID. Quickly, I walk to a hidden spot and survey the place looking for him. I locate him within seconds, surprised to find

he was alone.

hidden for a while. Waiting to see if any of the others will arrive but none

here alone.

now let’s leave” damn

my chance to get him to notice me. Now

and Emma wasn’t by his

deep breath and walk the short distance to

Rowan” I

he has always gone to great lengths to ignore and avoid me, so the smile catches

shouts. “How are you

realize he was completely drunk. That was the only reason

receptive towards me.

me a drink. I take my first taste and it

have never drank in my life but

I ask, feeling myself relax

my shoulder. “Is that really what you want to ask

you’re doing here drinking alone but I

forward. “Aren’t you sweet” he says

in concem. He wasn’t acting

continues drinking, I continue drinking too and just keep quiet Waiting for

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marry me”

him. I was already feeling a kind

“Who? Emma?”

her to marry me. I had the ring and I proposed. I even took her

on one knee. I did everything right but she still

believe that he had

it down.

she wasn’t ready. That she wants to focus on school

love me?” he ask, his voice full of hurt and

didn’t know what to say. Part of me was glad she turned

because I could see that it

If she doesn’t want to marry you then that’s her loss. I say fuck

better”

before smiling. “You’re right, fuck

glasses.

We talk, dance and drink. By the time we were leaving

both drunk, him more so

agree. I couldn’t go

alive given I could barely stand

calls a cab and a few minutes later we are

closes behind us, he is on me. Kissing

until I’m left in nothing but

this for so

you

too good to be true. That I was finally

“Definitely”

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his touch, his kisses and his love. It hurt

her name

can’t help but think that something was wrong. He

the familiar panicked voice

wondering what the hell was happening, and why Rowan

when I see him pacing the room shirtless. It’s then I

bed. Holding

I start chanting. Fear and

with rage and hatred. I try

blurry. What I thought was a damn dream was

fuck happened and what the hell are you doing in

anger lacing his voice.

refuse

mess but also because I didn’t know what

had an app that tracks his movement when he’s in town? How do I explain that I

sleep with

trembling. The fact that I was sore and winced with

I had slept with

love with. The one she planned on having a future

he shouts,

a bar and we started drinking, that’s all I remember” I lie even

bits and pieces.

over his face. Rowan loved Emma

just lose her

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that? You have been after me since I was twelve. I go

just conveniently there?” he

clothes as best

think I planned all this?” I asks motioning to the room and scattered clothes. “You’re not

one who was

have gone there intentionally but I hadn’t planned on getting

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