Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight

to a place where no one knew me. A place so far away from my family and Rowan. A place no one knew them. I’m sure they

have just been fine

“Ava?”

as a response. I had gotten lost in thought

were also drunk, so if they were blaming you, they should have blamed him

him with round

believe me?” I ask

I mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took advantage

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I do, don’t you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if he was

so tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what

his drunken state that sometimes I doubt the events of my own memory”

think that my memory is faulty.

hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s

the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started believing them. Believing that I was a fault. Believing that

of everything they put me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves you

one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During the times when I felt

tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love

was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as

vile words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to

on an eighteen year old

the one

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hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your

say anything. After all, I was

then helps me stand

are we going?”

longer. I didn’t want to go to an empty

home…I don’t like seeing you

to say anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his