Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

I fight all the

to a place where no one knew me. A place so far away from my family and Rowan. A place no one

just been

“Ava?”

I ask as a response. I had gotten

were also drunk, so if they were blaming you, they should have blamed him too” he

him with round

me?” I ask him

one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took advantage of

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don’t you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if he was trying to

That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone has

his drunken state that sometimes I doubt the events of my own memory”

That sometimes I think that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty isn’t

my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s

keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I

a man you love could destroy you leaves you

He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During the times when I felt so alone I contemplated

born. I was so tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good

I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I

at the vile words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong

blame, Never. You were both drunk so no one was to blame. You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on

one that

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pulls his hand from mine and runs it through

say anything. After all, I was beginning to hate

on” he says then helps

are we going?” I ask

I didn’t want to

home…I don’t like seeing you trying to drown your

doesn’t give me time to say anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather jacket and