Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

I fight

A place so far away from my family and Rowan. A place no one knew them. I’m sure they wouldn’t even

have just been fine

“Ava?”

I ask as a response. I had gotten lost in

were blaming you, they

him

believe me?” I ask him

I mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk.

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blue eyes seer into me. As if he was trying to unveil all my

was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone has pounded

his drunken state that sometimes

is faulty. I mean if everyone says

hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to

the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started believing them. Believing that

when I think of everything they put me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if

Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to

constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of

I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together

me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen

You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to fall on you.

the one

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you alcohol knowing that you weren’t supposed to be drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know

anything. After all, I was beginning to hate them

he says then helps

we going?”

I didn’t want to

you trying to drown your sorrows” he

before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather jacket