Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

I fight all

family and Rowan. A place no one knew them. I’m sure they wouldn’t even have

would have just been fine

“Ava?”

ask as a response. I

if they were blaming you, they should have blamed him too” he

at him with round

me?” I ask

mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took advantage

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do, don’t you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes

drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened.

state that sometimes I doubt the events

that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty isn’t that the

pain I went through at Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also something everyone has told

That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started

put me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves

would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He

constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love with Noah the

especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I was afraid she would

vile words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t

parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to fall

the one that sought him

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runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the more I dislike them” he says

After all, I was

he says then

we going?”

a little bit longer. I didn’t want to

you trying to drown your

out of the bar. I shiver from