Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight all

have gone to a place where no one knew me. A place so far away from my family and

would have just been fine with

“Ava?”

as a response. I had gotten lost in thought

it wasn’t you fault. You were also drunk, so if they were

look at him with

me?” I ask him in

that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took advantage of an

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I do, don’t you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if he was trying to unveil all

that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone has pounded it in me, cementing

state that sometimes I doubt

sometimes I think that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty

Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also something everyone has

when the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me.

Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if

that mistake is Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During the times when I

it. I

pulled myself from that darkness when I realized what leaving Noah would mean. I didn’t want him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want

she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that

drunk so no one was to blame. You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to

one that sought him

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his hand from mine and runs it through

say anything. After all, I was

on” he says then helps me stand

are we going?” I ask

a little bit longer. I didn’t want

like seeing you trying to drown your sorrows” he

before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather jacket and