Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight all the

place where no one knew me. A place so far away from my family and Rowan. A place no one knew them. I’m sure they

just been

“Ava?”

I had gotten lost in

if they were blaming you, they should

look at him with

me?” I ask

I mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took advantage of an innocent

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don’t you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes seer

blame. That I wasn’t drunk at

of his drunken state that sometimes

is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty isn’t that the

God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also something everyone has told me. That my

keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started

Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves

that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During the times when I felt so alone

tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love with Noah

that darkness when I realized what leaving Noah would mean. I didn’t want him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her

vile words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t going to let

blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for

I’m the one that sought

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from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the more I

all, I was beginning to

says then helps me

we going?”

wanted to stay a little bit longer. I didn’t want to go to an

taking you home…I don’t like seeing you trying to drown your sorrows” he

me time to say anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather