Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight

no one knew me. A place so far away from my family and Rowan. A place no one

just been

“Ava?”

I ask as a response. I had gotten lost

so if they were blaming you, they

at him with

I ask him in

I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I

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you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if

tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened.

advantage of his drunken state that sometimes I doubt

I think that my memory is faulty. I

Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also something everyone has told me.

with me. Soon after I started believing them. Believing that

when I think of everything they put me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love

of that mistake is Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times

I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love with Noah the moment he was placed

I realized what leaving Noah would mean. I didn’t want him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want

at the vile words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t going to

was to blame. You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to

the one that sought him

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drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan

all, I was beginning to hate

on” he says then helps

going?” I ask

I didn’t

like seeing you trying to drown your sorrows”

before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes