Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

I fight all the

where no one knew me. A place so far away from my family

have just

“Ava?”

response. I had gotten lost

drunk, so if they were blaming

look at him with

I ask

was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and

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eyes seer into me. As if he was trying to unveil all

“I got so tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone has pounded

drunken state that sometimes I doubt the events of

memory is faulty.

my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also

down your throat. That’s what happened with

me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if there’s truly any good

He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all.

he was born. I was so tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love with Noah the moment

I didn’t want him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I was afraid

Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t going to let her

have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan

the one that sought

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drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the more I

I was

on” he says then helps

are we going?” I

stay a little bit longer. I

taking you home…I don’t like seeing you

time to say anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather jacket and gets me into