Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight

so far away from my family and

would have just

“Ava?”

I had

also drunk, so if they were blaming you, they should have blamed him too” he gives me

look at him with

me?” I

I mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I was malicious and I took

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innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if he was trying to unveil

wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone

took advantage of his drunken state that sometimes I doubt the events of my own

think that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone

I think that the pain I went through at Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also something everyone

when the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started believing them. Believing that I was a fault. Believing that I was

man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if there’s truly any good

saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During the times

I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love

him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I was afraid

spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t going to let her hurt

no one was to blame. You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to fall on

the one

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he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the

anything. After all, I was

on” he says then helps me

going?” I ask

a little bit longer. I didn’t want to go to an

don’t like seeing you trying

doesn’t give me time to say anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from