Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight all the

one knew me. A place so far away from my family

have just been

“Ava?”

I ask as a response. I had gotten lost in

if they were blaming you, they should have

him with round

me?” I ask him

one and I mean no one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought I

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also innocent?” his blue eyes seer into me. As if he was trying

“I got so tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that

that I took advantage of his drunken state that

I think that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone

went through at Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that

beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started

they put me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if

thing that came out of that mistake is Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end

after he was born. I was so tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love with Noah the moment he

realized what leaving Noah would mean. I didn’t want him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I was afraid she would

the vile words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t going to let

You were both drunk so no one was to blame. You parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for

one that sought

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matter. He gave you alcohol knowing that you weren’t supposed to be drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know

After all, I was beginning to

then helps me stand

are we going?” I ask

little bit longer. I didn’t want to go to an empty

taking you home…I don’t like seeing you trying to

out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather jacket and gets me into