Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight

would have gone to a place where no one knew me. A place so far away from my family and Rowan.

would have just been fine

“Ava?”

as a response. I had gotten lost

drunk, so if they were blaming

look at him with

I ask him

that I was drunk. They

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his blue eyes seer into me. As if he

“I got so tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what

that I took advantage of his drunken state that sometimes I doubt

that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty isn’t that

was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that

throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started believing them. Believing

man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if there’s truly any

one that saved. He was anchor during the times when I wanted to end it all. During the times when

the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan

want him to think I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I was afraid she would transfer

glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t

on an eighteen year old

I’m the one that sought him

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you weren’t supposed to be drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the more

anything. After all, I was beginning

on” he says then helps me

going?”

stay a little bit longer. I didn’t want to go to an

seeing you trying to drown your sorrows” he

before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar.