Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight all

one knew me. A place so far away from my family and Rowan. A place no one knew them. I’m sure they wouldn’t even have bothered

would have just been fine with

“Ava?”

I had

fault. You were also drunk, so if they were blaming

look at him with

I ask

was drunk. They all thought I was malicious

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I do, don’t you believe you’re also innocent?” his blue eyes seer

so tired of hearing that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what

that sometimes I doubt

sad really. That sometimes I think that my memory is faulty. I

that the pain I went through at Rowan’s hand was my punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with a man that didn’t belong to me. That’s also something everyone has told me. That my pain was

used to people’s words when the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon

everything they put me through, Rowan especially. That a man you love could destroy you leaves you wondering if there’s

Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during the

I was so tired of the constant pain, the constant hate that I thought of it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in

weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as

words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I

parents should have been ashamed for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to fall

the one

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to be drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The

all, I was

on” he says then helps me stand

are we going?” I

bit longer. I didn’t want

like seeing you trying to drown your sorrows” he

he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the bar. I shiver from the chill. He removes his leather jacket and gets me