Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

36. His remedy

Present day.

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“So you see, they have a reason to hate me…I ruined their love” I mutter as tears fill my eyes.

It’s always painful for me to go down memory lane. I was naïve and foolish. Thinking that I could

ake him love me after I literally ruined his life. Nine years later and I’m still paying the price for

loving Rowan Woods.

“It wasn’t your fault?” Ethan asks me, his fingers slowly caressing mine.

“It was. I let my obsession with him take center stage and because of that I made the biggest

mistake of my life” the tears fall freely now.

If only I could go back in time. If only I could change things. I’ve lived my life in regret. I wish I

had listened to that nagging voice in my head. I wish I had payed attention to it instead of

ignoring it. It would have saved me from so much heartache and pain.

Hell, I wish I had realized earlier that I was pregnant. I could have escaped earlier. I would have

left and never told Rowan that I was pregnant with his child. No one would have been the wiser. I know it sounds downright evil but looking back now it would have saved Noah from seeing Rowan

fight all

my family and Rowan. A place

have just been fine with

“Ava?”

ask as a response. I had gotten

they were blaming you,

him

I ask him in

one has ever believed that I was drunk. They all thought

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innocent?” his blue eyes

that I was to blame. That I wasn’t drunk at all, that sometimes I believe that’s exactly what happened. Everyone has pounded it in me,

state that

think that my memory is faulty. I mean if everyone says I’m guilty

punishment. That God was punishing me for wanting and sleeping with

words when the keep forcing their truth and beliefs down your throat. That’s what happened with me. Soon after I started believing

a man you love could destroy you leaves you

is Noah. I would never regret my son. He was the one that saved. He was anchor during

it. I knew that Rowan would take good care of him. He fell in love with Noah the moment he was placed in

I was weak. Most especially I didn’t want Emma as his step mother. I knew Rowan would get back together with her and I was afraid she would transfer her hate for

words she spewed at me concerning Noah, I’m glad that I had chosen to stay strong I wasn’t going to let her hurt

for placing the entire blame on an eighteen year old girl. Rowan should have taken responsibility for his actions instead of allowing all the blame to fall on you. He was

one that

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alcohol knowing that you weren’t supposed to be drinking” he pulls his hand from mine and runs it through his hair. “The more I know about Rowan and your family, the more I dislike them” he says

say anything. After all, I was

then helps

we going?” I

I didn’t

like seeing you trying to drown your

anything before he’s pulling me across the dance floor and out of the