Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

57. Still hurts

Emma

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“I still can’t believe that Ava is a Howell” Travis says as we enter our parent’s home.

I was having a hard time with the news myself. Everything seemed so surreal. Like I couldn’t for the love of me believe everything that has been revealed.

“I know right?” I mutter.

I thought I had an advantage against her. Finding out she was adopted was the best feeling ever. After Ethan told us that her parents were actually rich, every happy feeling was destroyed. I wanted her to come from a poor background. It would have given me an advantage over her even if she was rich right now.

If she had come from a poor family then I would always be better than her. Superior to her in a

way. The way our society works is that, you’re respected more if you family has connection. If

your family has roots and comes from a long line of money. You may be rich and they will respect that, but you’ll be respected more if you come from a wealthy family. 3

I had hoped that would be the case when Ethan told us she’s adopted. I thought that maybe her parent’s couldn’t afford to raise her or maybe they were junkies and they decided to put her up for adoption. It would have been a big mark against her in our social circle and I would have been

there to see them whisper and gossip about her.

The jokes on me though. The Howell’s may not live in our city, but they’re known. Just like Rowan’s family, they are really powerful and they run this country. If they announce that Ava is their daughter. Her social standing will go up. She’ll be above me in every way. Worse than that, she’ll be in the same standing level as Rowan. 3

“What are we going to do though? How are we going to get her to forgive us?” Travis asks breaking the silence and pulling me from my thoughts.

Was he fucking seriously right now? Why the fuck would I want her damn forgiveness? She’s the one who should be asking for forgiveness. Begging me to forgive her for what she did to me.

“Why would we want her forgiveness?” I ask him bitterly. “Have you forgotten what she did to me?”

“I know and I remember, but like her parents said, it’s in the past. She has already paid enough for her mistake, besides we learned that she was truly drunk”

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had wanted Rowan for years, there is just no way

her Travis” I tell him firmly and

decided a long time ago. I wasn’t going to let go of the bitterness anytime

let go of the past. You have to heal, Emma. Holding on to all that pain and anger isn’t good for you” he tells me softly, coming to stand

that the bastard that Ethan had hired to

him.

I get to my room and slam the door in anger. Why couldn’t they understand that this isn’t easy for me? Why couldn’t they understand that it was hard

Every day I wake up then go to sleep, the pain is still there. I breathe

It has become a part of me. Meshed its–self

without it. 2

I know it’s destroying me, but I just don’t know how to let

to stop myself from hating Ava. She took everything from me. All I ever wanted was

him from

we would end up together

away.

back and I was sure that

pays any attention to

or checked up on

makes me hate her

didn’t want to admit it, but things have changed. Rowan

love with

may not know it, but I can tell. He has some feelings for Ava. I don’t

her, but the feelings are there. My biggest fear is that he’s in love with

It would really

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phone, I call

love” Molly answers on the first

collapse on my bed as I fight back my tears. “Everything is falling apart Molly. I don’t know what

and I felt like I

bothering you, then we

to my heart. I don’t want to imagine living life with Rowan. I know we hadn’t talked for

agree with Ava” she

frown forms on my

Rowan.

says in one

she cuts

Ava fault. She seems to