Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

57. Still hurts

Emma

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“I still can’t believe that Ava is a Howell” Travis says as we enter our parent’s home.

I was having a hard time with the news myself. Everything seemed so surreal. Like I couldn’t for the love of me believe everything that has been revealed.

“I know right?” I mutter.

I thought I had an advantage against her. Finding out she was adopted was the best feeling ever. After Ethan told us that her parents were actually rich, every happy feeling was destroyed. I wanted her to come from a poor background. It would have given me an advantage over her even if she was rich right now.

If she had come from a poor family then I would always be better than her. Superior to her in a

way. The way our society works is that, you’re respected more if you family has connection. If

your family has roots and comes from a long line of money. You may be rich and they will respect that, but you’ll be respected more if you come from a wealthy family. 3

I had hoped that would be the case when Ethan told us she’s adopted. I thought that maybe her parent’s couldn’t afford to raise her or maybe they were junkies and they decided to put her up for adoption. It would have been a big mark against her in our social circle and I would have been

there to see them whisper and gossip about her.

The jokes on me though. The Howell’s may not live in our city, but they’re known. Just like Rowan’s family, they are really powerful and they run this country. If they announce that Ava is their daughter. Her social standing will go up. She’ll be above me in every way. Worse than that, she’ll be in the same standing level as Rowan. 3

“What are we going to do though? How are we going to get her to forgive us?” Travis asks breaking the silence and pulling me from my thoughts.

Was he fucking seriously right now? Why the fuck would I want her damn forgiveness? She’s the one who should be asking for forgiveness. Begging me to forgive her for what she did to me.

“Why would we want her forgiveness?” I ask him bitterly. “Have you forgotten what she did to me?”

“I know and I remember, but like her parents said, it’s in the past. She has already paid enough for her mistake, besides we learned that she was truly drunk”

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there is just no way that everything is a fucking coincidence. Even if she was drunk she still probably planned the

Travis” I tell him firmly

a long time ago. I wasn’t going to let go of the

she’s our sister. You have to let go of the past. You have to heal, Emma. Holding on to all that pain and anger isn’t good for you” he tells me softly,

tell you that I will never forgive her? Gosh Travis, I even wish that the bastard that Ethan had hired to kill her had done

him.

and slam the door in anger. Why couldn’t they understand that this isn’t easy for me? Why couldn’t they understand that it was hard for me to

I wake up then go to sleep, the pain is still there. I

It has become a part of me. Meshed its–self deep inside me that I don’t know

without it. 2

just don’t know how to let go

Ava. She took everything

took him from

him, so sure that we would end up together and she took that

away.

and I was sure

Rowan now barely pays any attention to me. Since

or checked up on

Ava. It makes me hate her

fromme. I didn’t want to admit it, but things have changed. Rowan isn’t the same

love with me.

may not know it, but I can tell. He has some feelings

feelings are there. My biggest fear is that he’s in love with her. I don’t know

It would really

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phone, I call my

love” Molly answers on the first

collapse on my bed as I fight back my tears. “Everything is

so exhausting and I felt like I

bothering you, then

happened since our last talk. Just going over it again brings a sharp pain to my heart. I don’t want to imagine living life with Rowan. I know we hadn’t talked for nine years, but the moment we decided to try, things just felt

Emma, I have to agree with Ava” she

forms on my face. “You

Rowan. This isn’t like you Emma, using such

she says

she cuts me

Ava fault. She seems to have backed off.