Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

57. Still hurts

Emma

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“I still can’t believe that Ava is a Howell” Travis says as we enter our parent’s home.

I was having a hard time with the news myself. Everything seemed so surreal. Like I couldn’t for the love of me believe everything that has been revealed.

“I know right?” I mutter.

I thought I had an advantage against her. Finding out she was adopted was the best feeling ever. After Ethan told us that her parents were actually rich, every happy feeling was destroyed. I wanted her to come from a poor background. It would have given me an advantage over her even if she was rich right now.

If she had come from a poor family then I would always be better than her. Superior to her in a

way. The way our society works is that, you’re respected more if you family has connection. If

your family has roots and comes from a long line of money. You may be rich and they will respect that, but you’ll be respected more if you come from a wealthy family. 3

I had hoped that would be the case when Ethan told us she’s adopted. I thought that maybe her parent’s couldn’t afford to raise her or maybe they were junkies and they decided to put her up for adoption. It would have been a big mark against her in our social circle and I would have been

there to see them whisper and gossip about her.

The jokes on me though. The Howell’s may not live in our city, but they’re known. Just like Rowan’s family, they are really powerful and they run this country. If they announce that Ava is their daughter. Her social standing will go up. She’ll be above me in every way. Worse than that, she’ll be in the same standing level as Rowan. 3

“What are we going to do though? How are we going to get her to forgive us?” Travis asks breaking the silence and pulling me from my thoughts.

Was he fucking seriously right now? Why the fuck would I want her damn forgiveness? She’s the one who should be asking for forgiveness. Begging me to forgive her for what she did to me.

“Why would we want her forgiveness?” I ask him bitterly. “Have you forgotten what she did to me?”

“I know and I remember, but like her parents said, it’s in the past. She has already paid enough for her mistake, besides we learned that she was truly drunk”

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it. Ava had wanted Rowan for years, there is just no way that everything is a fucking coincidence. Even if she was drunk she still probably planned the

her Travis” I

a long time ago. I wasn’t going to let go of the bitterness

to heal, Emma. Holding on to all that pain and anger isn’t good for you” he tells me softly, coming to

wish that the bastard that Ethan had hired to kill her had done it

him.

I storm upstairs completely pissed off. I get to my room and slam the door in anger.

I wake up then go to sleep, the pain is still

me. Meshed its–self deep inside me that I don’t

without it. 2

I just don’t know how to let go of it. I don’t

Ava. She took everything from me. All I ever

she took him from

that we would end

away.

now, when I came back and I was sure that things

any attention to me.

or checked

makes me hate

want to admit it, but things have changed. Rowan isn’t the same

fell I love with me.

tell. He has some feelings for Ava. I don’t know exactly

but the feelings are there. My biggest fear is that he’s in love with her. I don’t know what

would really

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out my phone, I

love” Molly answers

back my tears. “Everything is falling apart Molly. I

Tired. Everything was so exhausting and I felt like I was carrying this huge burden on my

bothering you, then we can

Just going over it again brings a sharp pain to my heart. I don’t want to imagine living life with Rowan. I know we hadn’t talked for nine years, but the moment we decided to try,

to agree with Ava”

forms on my

fan, but when you threatened her son, you crossed the line. Not to mention all the stupid lies you told Rowan. This isn’t like you Emma,

she says

she cuts

is Ava fault. She seems to have backed off. I would