Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

63. I love her

Ethan

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When put my plan in motion, I never expected to fall in love with her. That was the biggest

hindsight known that has ever happened to me.

I thought it would be easy. Just kill her and I would have everything I’ve worked for. I didn’t know that it would turn out to be harder than anything I’ve ever done.

Ava isn’t the kind of woman you ignore. She isn’t the type of woman you brush aside. She’s the type you fall in love. The kind of woman who makes you want to be a better man.

I knew the moment I started falling in love with her. I tried preventing it, but it was impossible. It was similar to trying to avoid a head on collision. It was just nearly impossible.

When I realized I had fallen for her, I tried fixing things but it was already too late. The damage had been done and I knew that it was only a matter of time before the truth came out. Instead of letting her go and backing away, I held on to her for the little time I knew I had with her.

Hurting her will always be my biggest regret. Her pain was mine too. While her heart was breaking, mine was breaking alongside hers. I destroyed a future we might have had because of

greed and if she never forgave, I would understand.

“Ethan, you got a visitor” a guard says.

I refused to see my parents every time they came to see me. I was fucking ashamed. They took me in. They loved me. They gave me their name and I turned around and stabbed them in the back by

trying to kill their biological daughter.

I don’t understand how they can still want to see me or be near me. If I were them, I wouldn’t have

been so forgiving.

“Ethan…” he shouts. I turn back and give him a cold look.

For a moment I think of telling him to tell them I don’t want to see them, but something stops me.

Something prevents the words from coming out.

I nod my head and he gestures to my hands. After extending them, he handcuffs me, before

leading me out of my cell.

I’m a new bee here, but no one dares to touch. Mainly because I’m a tough motherfucker and I

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I walk out and freeze. The last person I expected to come see me was seated in the furthest corner.

as if I was in a daze. Unable to believe that Ava

unlocks

choke out as I take a seat and

time I would see her. She was

eyes. As if just looking at me was causing her pain. Seeing her beautiful face just makes all I’ve lost the more real. I will never have her again. Never have a future with her. I’ll never make her my wife nor will I get

the loss deep inside my bones. My cold beating heart hurting in a way that it has never before. Because of my own greed, I lost the only women I’ve ever

didn’t know whether to come or not. Whether you’ll even care or not, but

a

grip around my heart tightens. The fact that she’s unsure while talking to me, just shows how much I’ve broken her. All the progress she was able to

betrayal.

Ava?” I ask

just wasn’t sure if she would let me. If she

mine, so I had no

a deep breath.

finish the sentence. My brows pull together as I try to stem the worry inside. Was

“Ava…”

pregnant” she whispers, looking down at

Sure that I hadn’t heard her correctly. She said she was

fucking case.

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“What?”

She repeats. “I found out a week ago and got it confirmed. I’m around three

along

was going to be a father. That Ava and I managed to create life together.

honored that she was carrying my child. I wouldn’t have picked a better mother

my baby.

crosses my mind another one crashes inside my

are getting an abortion, right?” I

For a moment I

think that?” she snaps. “I admit, when I found out I wasn’t in my right frame of mind and I thought the baby would be better off not being born,

to my senses.”

what I would have fucking

have

do. I know that you don’t really care about me so maybe you wouldn’t care about the baby too. Do you want to be in his or her life?”

it

the baby was better off without me. I am a monster for what

stands up and

pain that I was

goes to leave, but then

“Is it because you

him or her? I’m in prison, Ava. By the

all the milestones, I’ll never get to be a real father to them, plus who wants

mom?” I ask, desperate to

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for a while. I think I’ve made her see reason,

through every milestone, Ethan. I can include you if you want. You never have to miss anything. This baby derserves to know his or her father and your child will love you despite your