Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

62 Noah’s back

Ava

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I’m cleaning the house. A thorough cleaning just to keep my mind off things. I’m still coming to

terms with the fact that I’m pregnant.

When Rowan rejected the idea of us having another baby. I all but gave up on giving Noah a

sibling. Now I have another baby on the way and I didn’t know how to feel.

My phone rings and I pick it up. Normally I would have refused to pick up, but not today. Pushing

those close to me away wasn’t doing me any good..

“Hi Letty” I murmur while sitting down.

I’ve been so tired of late. I should have known that there was something more to it.

“Oh my God. You picked up. I thought you wouldn’t” she screams through the phone before

sniffing. “I missed hearing your voice. It’s been weeks”

م

“I’m sorry.” I release a breath. “I just didn’t know how to handle everything so I pushed you away”

I’ve never been good at communicating my feelings. I’ve never been good at even acknowledging

them. When I’m stressed or over emotional, I shut down. I try to bury them so that I can function

properly. Pushing my emotions down is usually better than acknowledging them. Now I know

that isn’t healthy at all.

“Are you okay now?”

“Not all the way, but I will be” I assure her.

I don’t know how I plan to do that, but I was going to come out of this stronger.

I still can’t believe that I thought of killing myself and my own child. I may not know how to feel,

but this baby was my blood. Just like Noah is. I plan to be a good mother. I plan to be the best

mother to him or her.

I shake those thoughts away. I don’t want to think of how low I had hit. I don’t want to think of

what I almost did.

“I’m pregnant” I whisper, when she doesn’t say anything after a while.

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What? She shrieks in surprise “When did you find out?”

“About a week ago

Noah, this baby is unexpected and unplanned.

like his or her father right now, but it’s not

Laush

me as the surprises

thought you wouldn’t,

baby is a blessing, and this

heartache you’ve recently been through. This baby is your saving grace. He

a deep breath

could see it. I believe this baby has done

else has managed to do. Pulling you

true. It’s because of Noah and this child that I

to

Even when I kept pushing you away, you still kept trying. You never

up on me” I

thing makes

my bestfriend. More like the sister I never had. Of course I wouldn’t give up

I know you would

serious conversations. By the time we

It was an hour or

nice talking to her. I didn’t realize how much I had missed

past few weeks. I felt more like myself, now. I wasn’t quite

I am exhausted by the time I am done. I collapse on the sofa, just as I

front door open.

frown. Who the hell would dare enter my house without knocking or ringing

when

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Mommy I am

and I stand up.

through the entry way.

“Noah!”

to me as tears fall down my face. His

I had missed

him all over his face, I hold him

he doesn’t push

right now?” I ask him as I

don’t let him go.

on the floor, but I didn’t care. I was just so fucking happy

for me. He said you needed me. It was supposed to be a surprise,

we

after he mentions his father that I realize Rowan was standing before him. Our

in his eyes, but I just can’t figure out what

“Hi” I say softly.

to check up

me. He was so different from the Rowan I was

to react to this version of him.

his words, he got me a therapist who I

left surprised by his action.

are you today?” he asks with a

making steps to get

sleeves and I look at him. “Is it true that

looks at me sheepishly

tell him

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never said anything about wanting a sibling, so I don’t

surprised when a huge smile takes over his face and he bumps his fist in