Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

61. Her life line

Rowan

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Fuck run my hand through my hair as I watch her sleep. Tears tracks were still visible on her

cheeks and it breaks me seeing her so broken.

Ava has always been fucking good at hiding her feelings. Today she didn’t and it was fucking raw

It was drowning her and without even her realizing it, she was drowning me along with her.

I take a seat near her sleeping form. I push my fingers through her hair as I massage her scalp

gently. How the fuck have I never realized how soft and thick her hair is? It was bliss just

touching it.

She sighs in her sleep in contentment. Her face relaxed. All the pain from earlier melted away. In

her sleep, she’s at a peace. She doesn’t have shadows accosting her.

I know it’s fucking creepy, but watching her sleep has become my favorite thing. I did the same

thing yesterday and here I am doing it today. She’s so beautiful it hurts. Even with dark under

eyes, she’s still stunning. I don’t know the fuck I ever thought she couldn’t compare to Emma.

I softly kiss her cheeks before standing up. I am reluctant to leave. I fight the part of me that

wants to pull the covers and slide in next to her. I don’t know where this need is coming from. It

was never there when we were married. Back then, I didn’t want her next to me. I always avoided

cuddling. Right now though, it’s all I can fucking think of.

I force myself to leave her room and walk out of her house. Taking a breath, I contemplate going

back, but I don’t. I know she won’t appreciate me being in bed with her. She might have accepted

my comfort, but that doesn’t mean she’s forgiven me for my part in hurting her.

I haven’t even asked for her forgiveness for heaven’s sake. I should and I will. I just need her to be

more stable when I do. 2

phone and call my

club” I

don’t have to wait for his reply. I just know that he will be

before I jump into my car and drive away. About half

through the VIP entrance that’s

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I nod

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it was giving me a headache.

my private

the entrance. It’s not once or twice that

to get

walks in with my drink and hands it to me. I

knows. Just like he knows what Gabe and

you in such foul

younger than me by three minutes. While he’s

antisocial twin.

mumble leaning back in my

fucking image of Ava on the cliff. The way she was so close to the edge.

me when she took a hesitant step forward.

like I’ve ever felt. It was tangible

stopped and I saw my fucking life flash before my eyes. She was

nothing more than to piece her back

done if I had been

then my heart would have died

than you know yourself brother” he takes

slips out of my mouth

“You care about her”

fucking care about her. She’s the mother

frustrating me. She was spiraling out of control and

she needs. I’ve

what makes her

than that big brother, you just refuse to open your fucking eyes and see

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that one issue. That my concern for Ava stem from feelings that

arguing about that. I think I would fucking know if I was in

have feelings I can’t describe,

when I don’t

“She’s pregnant

and me with wide eyes and

else would she pregnant for?” I ask him in

that bastard’s baby just made everything

found out, there was this primal part of me that wanted to kill Ethan for touching what’s mine. After that I blocked it out. Tried pretending that it didn’t happen because that’s the

could calm myself down. Her pregnancy now was proof that she did sleep with another

some reason it fucking hurts and drives me insane knowing that.

her to leave me alone. I was planning to woe Emma and marry her later