Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

65 Heart to heart

“Ava can we please talk?” mother pleads when I move to leave.

1 stare at her, not sure what she wanted. What was there to talk about? Hasn’t everything already

been said and done?

“There isn’t anything for us to talk about, Mother” I insist.

Looking back, I see now how I made a distinction when it came to her and father. While Emma and Travis referred to them as mom and dad, to me they were Father and Mother. Clean, cut and

completely impersonal.

I never truly acknowledged them as my parents, because deep down I just knew. Parents don’t hate their children. Parents don’t neglect their child and treat them like shit. I made what I called them impersonal because on a spiritual level, I didn’t consider them my parents.

“Please, I beg you” she pleads with tears in her eyes.

It was so strange looking at her with tears in her eyes. Her face flushed and soft. This is a look I’ve never seen her direct at me. Her face was always in a frown. She always looked at me with a certain cold indifference that was specifically targeted at me.

“How about you show me to our table as they talk?” Martha, Rowan’s mom asks Corrine while

cutting off what I was about to say.

Corrine looks skeptical. Like she didn’t want to leave me. After all, it was known that the Sharp family weren’t my biggest fan even though I was apparently their daughter.

Martha doesn’t give Corrine a chance. Instead she links their hands and pulls her away in the

opposite direction.

I sigh and take my seat. “Let’s just get this over with, looks like you won’t leave me alone until

piece, so do it now before I change

this woman back in my younger days. When I was around five or six.

that she didn’t feel the same way. It changed when I

was more of a burden,

hesitantly takes her seat before taking my hands in hers. I pull them away. Not wanting

me. I didn’t want her near me. The part of me that had longed

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than you’ll ever know” she whispers,

then pulling me into her arms. I used to crave it. Pray for it. Hope for the day to come. Now that it’s here, the joy I thought I would feel is nonexistent. I feel absolutely

wrong. You were just a child and instead of embracing you, I pushed you away. You loved me, loved us, but we gave you nothing but scorn. I wish more than anything that I could go back in time and change things. Go back

before continuing.

value. Never acknowledged that you’re the best daughter anyone can have. It took almost losing you

crying. If I was my old self, then her tears would have moved

her tears meant

erased by a few drops of tears. It just doesn’t work

we can discuss it as adults. There is no need for you to try and sweeten me up, that shit won’t work. Instead of all the drama, why don’t you tell me the

emotionlessly.

eyes, but I don’t care. She’s been hurting me for years. This was nothing compared to what

hurt. I was sure that the only reason she

their

the only reason I was apologizing was so I

own actions that you find me

now, you couldn’t tell she was the same woman who used

Who used to treat me like I didnt matter. It was so weird. We’ve never

here as she pours out

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want to be your mother in every way. I want to

That will never happen. Lastly, I don’t want you in my life. In fact, I would prefer if you and your children continued ignoring me like I didn’t