Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

66. His letter

1 stare at the piece of paper on my table, not really sure what to do about it.

I was now at home. I had gotten back like an hour ago. The whole time, I spent it debating whether I should open it or tear it to pieces

The paper had been burning a hole in my purse the entire time I drove back home. Now, here I am

Still staring at it.

A part of me was curious about it contents. The other didn’t much care about what was written. The man who wrote it hated me. What good could come out of reading a letter written by him?

I pick it up, about to tear it, but a voice stops me.

‘Just read the damn thing. What’s the worst that could happen?‘ my inner voice whispers.

I cringe at the words.

Famous last words. I think to myself.

The worst thing that could happen is he hurts me.

Words were dangerous. They cause more damage than any weapon can. I still remember some of the harsh words my so called parents said to me over the years. The wounds their words inflicted

have never truly healed.

‘Just open it!‘ the voice screams.

Not giving myself a second to back out, I unfold the letter.

[Dear Ava,

If you’re reading this then it’s because I didn’t make it out of surgery. Truth be told, I don’t think I

will. They’re trying to save me not knowing that their efforts are futile. I am too far gone and I can already see you grandparents calling me to come join them. It may be the imagination of a dying

man or not, but I believe I have a special place in hell for how I treated you.

You were such a sweet girl when Winnie left you with us, but we destroyed that. We destroyed

your light and I will forever regret that I did that to you my sweet girl.

I remember when she still had you. I used to play with you and Emma. You were so innocent and

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with you,

he said was making any sense. If he used to like being around me when Winnie was still alive, then

at the piece of paper, I continue

out to be such a monster to you, but when Winnie

this as an excuse because nothing can make how we

disgusting and

I am getting exactly what I deserve for

tell you how sorry I am. For everything

for what I did and said, but it’s all I have. I’m

father. Sorry for being the monster in

won’t ask for forgiveness because I don’t deserve it. What

I ask is that you be there for your mother. She’ll need you. She has a good heart

mistakes towards

you. I may not have showed it to you, but

darling sweet

the paper and shove it back in my

why the letter affected me so much when

the last thing he wrote before

stand up abruptly and leave for my bedroom. I push

about them. I don’t want to think

I block them because I know that if I

then I

afford to be weak right now. It would cost me

risk going back

my soul.

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Refusing to let the tears flow.

tears on people

The fatigue, both emotional and physical weighs

I wake up it’s

bed, falling down in the process. I was supposed to

in less than ten minutes. Once I’m done I rush

I notice Rowan and Noah in the kitchen having breakfast. He was wearing a suit

full. “I wanted to wake you

going on here?” I ask

want to finish these

late for your meeting? You should have

the sleep, so I let you sleep” he says as if it were that

character that I don’t know what to think. This was a side of him I didn’t know existed. I don’t want to see it because I don’t want to think of him as the good guy. I don’t want to see