Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

66. His letter

1 stare at the piece of paper on my table, not really sure what to do about it.

I was now at home. I had gotten back like an hour ago. The whole time, I spent it debating whether I should open it or tear it to pieces

The paper had been burning a hole in my purse the entire time I drove back home. Now, here I am

Still staring at it.

A part of me was curious about it contents. The other didn’t much care about what was written. The man who wrote it hated me. What good could come out of reading a letter written by him?

I pick it up, about to tear it, but a voice stops me.

‘Just read the damn thing. What’s the worst that could happen?‘ my inner voice whispers.

I cringe at the words.

Famous last words. I think to myself.

The worst thing that could happen is he hurts me.

Words were dangerous. They cause more damage than any weapon can. I still remember some of the harsh words my so called parents said to me over the years. The wounds their words inflicted

have never truly healed.

‘Just open it!‘ the voice screams.

Not giving myself a second to back out, I unfold the letter.

[Dear Ava,

If you’re reading this then it’s because I didn’t make it out of surgery. Truth be told, I don’t think I

will. They’re trying to save me not knowing that their efforts are futile. I am too far gone and I can already see you grandparents calling me to come join them. It may be the imagination of a dying

man or not, but I believe I have a special place in hell for how I treated you.

You were such a sweet girl when Winnie left you with us, but we destroyed that. We destroyed

your light and I will forever regret that I did that to you my sweet girl.

I remember when she still had you. I used to play with you and Emma. You were so innocent and

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with you, Travis

If he used to like being around me when Winnie

the piece of paper, I

don’t know what happened. I don’t know why I turned out to be such a monster to you, but when Winnie died

as an excuse because nothing can make

disgusting and

vengeful bitch. I am getting exactly what I deserve for how I treated you my

leave this world, I want to tell you how sorry I am. For

but it’s all I

father. Sorry for

ask for forgiveness because I don’t deserve it. What

ask is that you be there for your mother. She’ll need you. She has a good heart

her mistakes towards

you. I may not have showed

my darling sweet

back

letter affected me so much

the last thing he wrote before died. Correct that, he wrote

and leave for my bedroom. I

want to think about the pain they caused me. I

them because I know that if I allow them

then I

right now. It would cost me more than

my breaking point. I wasn’t going to risk going back to the darkness

my soul.

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on my bed and lie down Refusing to let the tears flow. I’ve cried enough for

on people

and physical weighs me down and I fall into a dreamless

I wake up it’s around eleven

supposed to pick Noah up at nine since Rowan had to fly out

less than ten minutes. Once I’m done I rush down the stairs, praying I don’t trip

having breakfast. He was wearing a suit and was making pancakes. It was so weird given I’ve

awake” Noah screams with his mouth full. “I wanted to wake you up, but dad told

going on here?”

and eat something. I want to finish

your meeting? You should have woken

the sleep, so I let you sleep” he says as if

him I didn’t know existed. I don’t want to see it because I don’t want to think of him as the good guy. I don’t want to see this caring and kind version of him because I wasn’t ready