Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

66. His letter

1 stare at the piece of paper on my table, not really sure what to do about it.

I was now at home. I had gotten back like an hour ago. The whole time, I spent it debating whether I should open it or tear it to pieces

The paper had been burning a hole in my purse the entire time I drove back home. Now, here I am

Still staring at it.

A part of me was curious about it contents. The other didn’t much care about what was written. The man who wrote it hated me. What good could come out of reading a letter written by him?

I pick it up, about to tear it, but a voice stops me.

‘Just read the damn thing. What’s the worst that could happen?‘ my inner voice whispers.

I cringe at the words.

Famous last words. I think to myself.

The worst thing that could happen is he hurts me.

Words were dangerous. They cause more damage than any weapon can. I still remember some of the harsh words my so called parents said to me over the years. The wounds their words inflicted

have never truly healed.

‘Just open it!‘ the voice screams.

Not giving myself a second to back out, I unfold the letter.

[Dear Ava,

If you’re reading this then it’s because I didn’t make it out of surgery. Truth be told, I don’t think I

will. They’re trying to save me not knowing that their efforts are futile. I am too far gone and I can already see you grandparents calling me to come join them. It may be the imagination of a dying

man or not, but I believe I have a special place in hell for how I treated you.

You were such a sweet girl when Winnie left you with us, but we destroyed that. We destroyed

your light and I will forever regret that I did that to you my sweet girl.

I remember when she still had you. I used to play with you and Emma. You were so innocent and

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you, Travis

confused. None of what he said was making any sense. If he used to like being around me when Winnie was still alive,

down at the piece of paper,

don’t know what happened. I don’t know why I turned out to be such a monster to you, but when Winnie died and she asked us to take you in, something just shifted inside me. Inside all

because nothing can make

and uncalled

a vengeful bitch. I am getting

tell you how sorry I am. For everything I

I did and said, but it’s all I have. I’m

Sorry for being

for forgiveness because I don’t deserve it. What I deserve is to burn in the

you be there for your mother. She’ll

mistakes towards you,

that I love you. I may not have showed it to you, but

darling

paper and shove it back in my bag feeling angry for

why the letter affected me so

was the last thing he wrote before died. Correct that, he wrote it

up abruptly and leave for my bedroom. I push

don’t want to think about them. I don’t want to

block them because I know that

head, then I would

It would cost me more than I’m willing

I wasn’t going to risk going back

my soul.

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bed and lie down Refusing to let the

tears on people that didn’t deserve anything from me.

to me. The fatigue, both emotional and physical weighs me down and I fall into

I wake up it’s around eleven

to pick Noah up at nine

it in less than ten minutes. Once I’m done I rush down the stairs, praying I don’t

my tracks when I notice Rowan and Noah in the kitchen having breakfast. He was wearing a suit and was making pancakes. It was so weird given I’ve never seen him

“I wanted to wake you up,

on here?” I ask

seat and eat something. I want to

your meeting? You should have woken me

like you needed the sleep, so I let you sleep” he

what to think. This was a side of him I didn’t know existed. I don’t want to see it because I don’t want to think of him as the good guy.