Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

66. His letter

1 stare at the piece of paper on my table, not really sure what to do about it.

I was now at home. I had gotten back like an hour ago. The whole time, I spent it debating whether I should open it or tear it to pieces

The paper had been burning a hole in my purse the entire time I drove back home. Now, here I am

Still staring at it.

A part of me was curious about it contents. The other didn’t much care about what was written. The man who wrote it hated me. What good could come out of reading a letter written by him?

I pick it up, about to tear it, but a voice stops me.

‘Just read the damn thing. What’s the worst that could happen?‘ my inner voice whispers.

I cringe at the words.

Famous last words. I think to myself.

The worst thing that could happen is he hurts me.

Words were dangerous. They cause more damage than any weapon can. I still remember some of the harsh words my so called parents said to me over the years. The wounds their words inflicted

have never truly healed.

‘Just open it!‘ the voice screams.

Not giving myself a second to back out, I unfold the letter.

[Dear Ava,

If you’re reading this then it’s because I didn’t make it out of surgery. Truth be told, I don’t think I

will. They’re trying to save me not knowing that their efforts are futile. I am too far gone and I can already see you grandparents calling me to come join them. It may be the imagination of a dying

man or not, but I believe I have a special place in hell for how I treated you.

You were such a sweet girl when Winnie left you with us, but we destroyed that. We destroyed

your light and I will forever regret that I did that to you my sweet girl.

I remember when she still had you. I used to play with you and Emma. You were so innocent and

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playing with you, Travis

None of what he said was making any sense. If he used to like

at the piece of paper, I continue

don’t know why I turned out to be such a monster to you, but

not using this as an excuse because nothing can

and

punishment. Karma is really a vengeful bitch. I am getting exactly what I deserve for

want to tell you how sorry I am.

but it’s all I have. I’m so sorry for

worst father. Sorry for being the monster in

for forgiveness because I don’t deserve it. What I deserve is to burn

your mother.

mistakes towards you, she’ll

not have showed

my darling

and shove it back in my bag feeling angry for

me so much

thing he wrote before died. Correct

leave for my bedroom.

about them. I don’t want to think about the pain they caused me. I just

about anything. I block them because I know that

head, then

be weak right now. It would cost me more than I’m willing to bargain. I had

point. I wasn’t going to risk going back to the

my soul.

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to let the tears flow. I’ve cried enough for these

my tears on people that didn’t

physical weighs

I wake up it’s around

process. I was supposed to pick Noah up at nine since Rowan had to fly

and get ready. Doing it in less than ten minutes. Once I’m done I rush down the stairs, praying I don’t trip and break

Rowan and Noah in the kitchen having breakfast. He was wearing a suit and was making pancakes. It was so weird given I’ve never

with his mouth full. “I wanted to

here?” I

seat and eat something. I want to finish these

your meeting? You

sleep, so I let you

what to think. This was a side of him I didn’t know existed. I don’t want to see it because I don’t want to think of him as the good guy. I don’t want to see this caring and kind