Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

His letter

1 stare at the piece of paper on my table, not really sure what to do about it.

I was now at home. I had gotten back like an hour ago. The whole time, I spent it debating whether I should open it or tear it to pieces

The paper had been burning a hole in my purse the entire time I drove back home. Now, here I am

Still staring at it.

A part of me was curious about it contents. The other didn’t much care about what was written. The man who wrote it hated me. What good could come out of reading a letter written by him?

I pick it up, about to tear it, but a voice stops me.

‘Just read the damn thing. What’s the worst that could happen?‘ my inner voice whispers.

I cringe at the words.

Famous last words. I think to myself.

The worst thing that could happen is he hurts me.

Words were dangerous. They cause more damage than any weapon can. I still remember some of the harsh words my so called parents said to me over the years. The wounds their words inflicted

have never truly healed.

‘Just open it!‘ the voice screams.

Not giving myself a second to back out, I unfold the letter.

[Dear Ava,

If you’re reading this then it’s because I didn’t make it out of surgery. Truth be told, I don’t think I

will. They’re trying to save me not knowing that their efforts are futile. I am too far gone and I can already see you grandparents calling me to come join them. It may be the imagination of a dying

man or not, but I believe I have a special place in hell for how I treated you.

You were such a sweet girl when Winnie left you with us, but we destroyed that. We destroyed

your light and I will forever regret that I did that to you my sweet girl.

I remember when she still had you. I used to play with you and Emma. You were so innocent and

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with you,

making any sense. If he used to like being around me when Winnie was still alive,

down at the piece

happened. I don’t know why I turned out to be such a monster to you, but when Winnie died and

as an excuse because nothing can make how we treated you right. It

and

is really a vengeful bitch. I am getting

leave this world, I want to tell you how sorry I am. For everything I

did and said, but it’s

for being the

forgiveness because I don’t deserve it. What I

be there for your mother. She’ll need

mistakes towards

I may not have showed it to you, but I

my darling

back in my bag feeling angry

the letter affected me so

thing he wrote before died. Correct that, he

and leave for my

them. I don’t want to think about the pain they caused me.

because I know that

then

now. It would cost me more

wasn’t going to risk

my soul.

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my bed and lie down Refusing to let the tears flow.

people that

and physical weighs me down and I fall into

wake up it’s around

in the process. I was supposed to pick Noah up at nine since Rowan

it in less than ten minutes. Once I’m done I rush down the stairs, praying I don’t trip and break my neck

He was

to wake you up, but dad

here?” I ask in

eat something. I want to finish these before I leave”

you already late for your meeting? You should have woken

like you needed the sleep, so I let you sleep” he says as if it were that

it because I don’t want to think of him as the good guy. I don’t want to see this caring and kind version of