Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

102. Her side of the story

Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

1. me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.

Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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not to let it show. Tried to make

was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like

exploded, and I’d been left with nothing. When I went back to school,

tell any of you, but I

as I did back

with Ava.

was fading away. I didn’t eat, I didn’t sleep, and I

this. She started pushing, and when I refused to get better, she threatened

you to know how I was

out how tough things were

so much bitterness and resentment towards

she ever found out how far I’d fallen, she would have been ecstatic. It was

that I discovered she had been going through her own kind

that. Molly became my anchor. My grades were improving, and

constantly cry or think about Rowan every second.” I take a deep breath “It was

turns out we went to the

assignment partner.” 2

talk to him. After all, we

show any remnants of the obsession he had for me in high school,

him. We co–existed. He stayed out of my way and

hard. I wanted to stop, but now more than ever,

I said, things were going well for some time. They weren’t perfect, but they

alled me to let me know that Ava had

in love with his son at first

I try to breathe through the pain of

so fucking hard.

was in pain, and I was really angry. Angry at myself for turning down

and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for

man I loved and angry at the baby for being

hear a sharp intake of air. I don’t need to turn to know that it is from Rowan.

Noah because if everything had gone the way I wanted it to, then

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that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him.

tell them, but it’s also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave it to the guy who kept fighting for me to love

Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about what happened between

I been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was

1. us.

until my period was late. A cheap test. and later, a doctor’s appointment confirmed that

ever received. Deep in my heart, I believed that one day Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want an unwanted baby to hinder that. I didn’t

of my mistake to always

didn’t you get an emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks, making me

from being a complete mess, everything was new to me. To put it plainly, I

time I’ve ever h–had s–S** so I didn’t really

n’t really enough to

get one, but like I said, I was so

anyone to know.”

me that during all the years

a virgin?”

Rowan wasn’t. Before we started dating, which was at seventeen, he’d previously

and had a vagina.

wait till I was ready. My biggest regret was

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releases a groan uncomfortably “Can we not talk about this? It

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yes I was still a virgin. Anyway,” 1 paused. “I told Calvin

and I wanted to get rid of it, but he

an abortion?” Mom asks, her

“Calvin threatened to tell

my mistake, so