Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

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Calvin

I wait. I wait patiently for her to come back. I didn’t know where she went, but I can take a pretty

damn good guess. She was mad; I understand that more than anything. If anyone is pissed off and

hurt at what Emma has been doing, then it’s me. She has caused me and Gunner more hurt than

I’m ever willing to admit.

I hear the door unlock, but I don’t move. I’m not even sure what the hell I am doing here. The boys

are at my house with the nanny. For some reason, I feel like I should be here.

Ava stops dead in her tracks. “Cal, I didn’t expect you to still be here.”

Her eyes were red and puffy. She has been crying; that much is clear. Words honestly fail me. I

have no fucking idea what the hell to tell her.

“I thought I would wait for you,” I say as she takes a seat. “Where have you been?”

I knew where she went after she realized that Emma was Gunner’s mom. That was hours ago. I

don’t know where she went after. I’m sure confronting Emma didn’t take almost three hours.

“I needed to think, so I just drove around,” she whispers. “Gosh! This is so hard for me. Not only

because I love Gunner like my own and it kills me to watch him hurt, but

also because I see

myself in him.”

I don’t know much about Ava. I was about two years ahead of her in school. We weren’t friends

back then, and I didn’t pa ention to any girl that wasn’t Emma.

Even now, I don’t know much about her. I kept myself closed off. I felt it would be unfair to dig

deep into her life when I barely told her anything deep about mine. All I know is that Rowan hurt

her pretty badly. Just like Emma destroyed.

“Why?” I ask curiously.

Because I suffered the same fate as him when I was younger. I was unwanted. For me, it was

nuch harder because I was unwanted by both my family and Rowan’s family. I didn’t understand

why they didn’t like me. I tried so hard to get them to love me, but they never did. In fact, it got

Jorse as I got older.”

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I didn’t know that about het. Unlike other boys who tried getting close to her so they could get

close to Emma, I didn’t I thought their tactic was downright cruel Using one sister to get another

was utterly disgusting

“I’m soony, Ava.”

There was nothing else I could say to comfort her. I don’t even know how to comfort Gunner when

was

about Emma, so how

a long time ago, and I’m slowly starting

about me. I want to know the truth. How did Emma end up being Gunner’s

dreading this question. Not because I don’t

I don’t want to remember

love for her from high

just like everyone

messed up. We both somehow ended up with the people we wanted,

out to be a nightmare. Both of us got hurt really, fucking badly.

and Emma were

in the way of

everything to get her to notice me, but she never did.

person I had to compete against was Rowan. Like

was nothing S**y about me,” I began, but Ava interrupted me

in glasses? You’re like a woman’s

dreams as either a

laugh at

now, but not back then. Emma was probably disgusted with me.

to admit I looked terrible back then. I wouldn’t have

and in the summer before college, I decided

the point where I

appreciative glances from girls.”

highlight of my life at that age. It felt good to be attractive.

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and continued working further on myself I became

all over me. I had my pick from a large pool. Soon, I started to forget

when I could have someone

she didn’t enjoy college life. Not after

then became a mother and wife. She didn’t have time to be a

worries or responsibilities. At least I got to have that experience

back in

going great until my grandfather had a

me after both my parents died in an accident. He was all that I

changed schools so that I could be closer to him.

to take care of

swings her finger back and forth. “You transferred to the

Emma and Rowan were”

campus, but unlike before, I kept

besides, I had a lot going

fine with

rejection. I wasn’t willing to let

seeing her and Rowan

was

away, and it was the most challenging time of

off school only to come back to the news that the

that Rowan had cheated on

honestly unbelievable.”

never expected that. Everyone was sure of their love. Sure that they would stay

ever thought that Rowan

that, Emma came back as a totally different person. It was like she was dead on the

few times you saw her outside her dorm, she looked like a fucking zombie.

wouldn’t let me near her.

to be her

didn’t want to be involved with anyone in Emma’s life. When Molly was assigned

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captivated Like she couldn’t even remove her eyes

of her way. I didn’t want to be a nuisance like I had been back in high school

sad realization, but a much–needed

you did. It would’ve probably saved me from a lot of

it didn’t work out for me… One day, out of the blues, Emma showed up at my dorm room and kissed me. It was unexpected, but it was the best

still remember that day like it was yesterday. She had been a virgin, and even though I’d slept with countless girls, she had been by far the best. Probably because I had

it happened. That, finally she had noticed and wanted to build something with me. Only I had been wrong. We woke up the next morning, and she was disgusted with herself. I tried talking to her. I tried

first time I found out that the girl Rowan slept with and

can’t imagine the pain that hit me. I felt crushed. I loved her with my body, only to find out that she didn’t feel a thing. That

didn’t know how to be a father. For heaven’s sake, I’d never even been near any babies. It was overwhelming, but I knew I loved

close tightly against the