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The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

why the hell did this kiss

don’t fucking

I could erase

frustrated?” Calvin’s voice startles me so

holding.

the living day lights out of me,” I say with my hand pressing

beating heart.

heard us, given Gunner and Noah didn’t really

said boys to find them munching on

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I was just a little bit lost

his face. “Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday

lie, but he didn’t need to know that I was

different thing.

making for breakfast,

fry up” I

up in the air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like

at once.”

that one day Emma will see the error of her ways and mend her fences with Gunner

you almost done?” Noah asks.

be done.

I finish up?”

they say at the same time, before

to clean up the mess I’d made. “Sorry I

should have given you more time to yourself.

they wanted your

Calvin was a bad cook. He just didn’t make it

mine.

I would have finished cooking and brought some

as I get back to

holding up, all things considered?” I

“I feel relieved that now everyone knows about Gunner. He’s an amazing

like a dirty secret. After my

was born. I didn’t mind it being just the two of us, but

family. Gunner deserves to know his

worth knowing,

for Gunner to

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really let go of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part of my life, so it didn’t matter what they did to me

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