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The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

sake, why the hell did this kiss affect me so

don’t fucking get

in frustration, wishing I could erase the

you so frustrated?” Calvin’s voice startles me so much that I

holding.

the living day lights out of me,” I say with my

beating heart.

“I thought you heard us, given Gunner and Noah didn’t

to said boys to find them munching on the cookies that I

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a little bit lost

from his face. “Are you

was a lie, but he didn’t need

different thing.

you making for breakfast, mom?”

fry up”

up in the air. “I love

food at

day Emma will see the error

you almost done?” Noah asks. “I’m

a few more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why don’t you go

I finish up?”

time, before rushing to the other

proceeds to clean

when we should have given you more time

they wanted your

Calvin was a bad cook. He just didn’t make it

mine.

some over anyway, so it’s not a

I get back to

holding up, all

now

hidden away like a dirty secret. After my grandfather died, I had no

I didn’t mind it being just the two of us, but I knew it was unfair to him

his mother had a family. Gunner deserves to know

my eyes, Travis and Kate weren’t people worth knowing, but they’d

was safe for Gunner to be around

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should really let go of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part of my life, so it didn’t matter what they did to me before.

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