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The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

heaven’s sake, why the hell did this kiss affect me

don’t fucking get

groan in frustration, wishing I could erase the feel of his lips

me so much that I let go of the eggs I

holding.

lights out of me,”

beating heart.

“I thought you heard us, given Gunner and Noah

munching on the cookies that

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I was just a little bit lost in

you still

It was a lie, but he didn’t need to

different thing.

making for breakfast,

fry up” I

the air. “I love

at

day Emma will see the error of her

almost done?” Noah asks. “I’m so

yet. Just a few more minutes, and I’ll be done. Why

I finish up?”

time, before rushing to the

the cleaning tools from me and proceeds to clean up the mess

have given you more time to

that they wanted

was a bad cook. He just didn’t make it like I

mine.

some over anyway,

get back to frying the

up, all things considered?” I

relieved that now everyone

a dirty secret. After my grandfather

it being just the two of us, but I knew it was

a family. Gunner deserves to know his uncle

Travis and Kate weren’t people worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well, so

safe for Gunner to

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let go of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part

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