Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 106 A note

The bright light coming through my window makes me open my eyes. Instead of getting up

immediately, I just stay in bed for a while as I rub my belly and feel my baby move inside me.

I look at the calendar on my bedside table and realize that today I just hit the sixth–month

milestone. It’s scary to have a baby. The whole journey is filled with uncertainty. I always make

sure to thank God each time I pass a milestone with my baby, knowing not all babies get to be

born.

After saying a small thank–you prayer, I get up and move downstairs. I could always shower later,

but right now I am hungry. With everything that happened yesterday, I forgot to eat.

Thinking about yesterday brings me to what happened with Rowan. I still can’t believe that I let

him kiss me or that I actually enjoyed it.

It bugs me so much that I wanted more. I wanted him to deepen the kiss. I wanted him to take it

further. I can blame it on the hormones, but we all know that I’d be lying to myself.

Rowan hurt me so much. The fact that I wanted him yesterday makes me hate myself just a little

bit. I promised myself to move on, yet there I was making out with him in my living room.

I want to believe that Rowan has changed, but I just can’t. Even if, by some miracle, he has, don’t

you think it’s a little too late for us? Too much has already happened for us to make something out

of the mess he created.

Taking out the ingredients for breakfast, I get to work. No matter what I try, I still can’t stop

thinking about the

did this kiss affect

fucking get it,

frustration, wishing I could erase the feel

got you so frustrated?” Calvin’s voice startles me so much

holding.

you scared the living day lights out of me,” I say with my hand

beating heart.

“I thought you heard us, given Gunner

said boys to find them munching on the cookies that I

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I was just a

“Are you still thinking

but he didn’t need to know that I was

different thing.

are you making for breakfast, mom?” Noah

fry up”

the air. “I love fry–ups; it’s like having all

at

day Emma will see

Noah asks. “I’m

done. Why don’t

I finish up?”

same time, before rushing to the

proceeds to clean

breakfast when we should have given you

they wanted

not that Calvin was a bad cook.

mine.

and brought some over anyway, so it’s not a big

as I get back to frying the

holding up, all things

He pauses. “I feel relieved that now everyone knows about Gunner. He’s an amazing

secret. After

it being just the two of us, but I knew it was unfair to him

his mother had a family. Gunner deserves to know his uncle

worth knowing, but they’d treated Noah well,

for Gunner to be around

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go of my resentment towards them. They were no longer part of my life, so it didn’t matter what they did to me

to keep him