Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0490

Mia's words still continued to ring in my head even as I headed for my car. The truth had been brutal. It wasn't easy to swallow the bitter pill, but swallow it I must.

Instead of peeling out of the parking lot like I usually do, I just sit in my car and allow the tears to fall. I couldn't stop them even if I wanted to. The space fills with the sounds of my cries. My sobs are torn from deep within as the weight of all my actions crash me.

My head falls against the steering wheel because I can no longer hold it up. I wore my shame like a second skin. It was embedded deep inside me like a fucking tattoo.

Why did I let it get that far? Why did I hurt him like that? Why did I allow my selfishness to taint the bond I could have had with Gunner?

Why. Why. Why?

If I knew one day I would long to hold Gunner in my arms. To be in his life. To have him call me mom. I would have held on to him like he was a lifeline... But that's the thing about hindsight. It's a bitch.

My lips tremble as I sob. Guilt racks my body, jolting me as if I've been electrocuted. I want to scream. I want to hit something. I want to curl up in a ball and just die. It hurts. It fucking hurts and I don't know how to stop the pain.

to cry until there are no more tears. Until my tear dam is empty. I'm not sure how long I stay there crying, but when I'm calmer, I turn the

I won't deny that. But it's not just because I've been crying my eyes out for the last couple of minutes. Hell, it's hours, given

do I even begin? It would be easier if it had been a

first time saying mommy. I missed his first birthday, and those since then. How do

I could have handled things differently. I regret a lot of things, but my biggest regret is how cruel I

but thankfully I don't get into any trouble. I was so lost in my head that it was a

Part of me feels like there isn't hope. That I should give up on my relationship with Gunner.

car to the front of the house and

than I expected," mom's

past thirty years old, but at this moment, I feel like a little girl who needs her mommy

today's session wasn't easy" she

had finally dried, but I was wrong.

me to the couch. Once there, she pushes us down on it, before