Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0489

Ava gave him the kind of motherly love he lacked from me. The kind of love he longed for me to give him. I see it now. The moment he met Ava. The moment she took him in, even before the truth came out. It's the moment he gave up on me. It's the moment Gunner stopped caring about a relationship between us.

"I hear you Emma." Mia gives me a tissue. "I do hear you, but I have to ask, where was this same determination back then? Why did you refuse to have a relationship with Gunner?"

I've asked myself the same question over and over again.

For eight years, I denied his existence. For eight years, I treated him like he didn't matter. For eight fucking years I held him at arm's length.

"I know it's a stupid reason now that I think about it, but back then I didn't want anything or anyone reminding me of the life I had when Rowan and I were separated. To me, Gunner was a mistake. He never should have been conceived. I didn't want my life with Rowan to be shadowed by the child I had with another man. I wanted to remain perfect in Rowan's eyes."

child with Ava? Much the same with you, Ava's pregnancy was unplanned,

right there. Her words shame me to

never have pushed Noah aside for my sake. Hell, he broke off our relationship when he learned all the shit I'd spouted about

pain intensifies. I felt raw. Like my chest

showed me what a

you can truly see yourself. It's to help you come to terms with your mistakes and help

her. How do you think he felt every time you ignored him?

My throat is clogged with emotions and I feel like my soul

feel like pointed arrows aimed towards my already bleeding heart. I couldn't stop the heart-wrenching

knew what pain was when I found out Rowan had slept with Ava, then I was wrong. That was nothing compared to what I was

gut-wrenching. Soul crashing. I don't know