Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

Chapter 0489

Ava gave him the kind of motherly love he lacked from me. The kind of love he longed for me to give him. I see it now. The moment he met Ava. The moment she took him in, even before the truth came out. It's the moment he gave up on me. It's the moment Gunner stopped caring about a relationship between us.

"I hear you Emma." Mia gives me a tissue. "I do hear you, but I have to ask, where was this same determination back then? Why did you refuse to have a relationship with Gunner?"

I've asked myself the same question over and over again.

For eight years, I denied his existence. For eight years, I treated him like he didn't matter. For eight fucking years I held him at arm's length.

"I know it's a stupid reason now that I think about it, but back then I didn't want anything or anyone reminding me of the life I had when Rowan and I were separated. To me, Gunner was a mistake. He never should have been conceived. I didn't want my life with Rowan to be shadowed by the child I had with another man. I wanted to remain perfect in Rowan's eyes."

given Rowan had a child with Ava? Much the same with you, Ava's pregnancy was unplanned, but

words shame

our relationship when he learned all the shit I'd spouted about Noah.

I felt raw. Like my chest had been ripped wide open for everyone to

with Gunner after this? Mia just showed me what a horrible person I was to a little boy. Not just any

not here to shame you, Emma, or judge you. Apart from helping you heal; my work is to point a mirror in your direction so you can truly see yourself. It's to help you come to terms with your mistakes and help you forgive yourself. My work is to drill in some hard truths so it can help

for life much like Ava's past experiences with your family had scarred her. How do you think he felt every time you ignored him? Every time you treated him like he was nothing? Every time you pushed him away. He is a child, Emma, that kind of emotional pain has probably done a lot of

My throat is clogged with emotions and I feel like my

feel like pointed arrows aimed towards my already bleeding heart. I couldn't stop the

what pain was when I found out Rowan had slept with Ava, then I was wrong. That was nothing compared to what I was

don't know how to