Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

**Trigger Warning - This chapter has sensitive content related to S.A.**

Sam scoots back on his backside away from me, wide-eyed, then clambers up and runs away as fast as he can.

Suddenly, I'm thrust back into my normal state of mind and I fall back to the ground, exhausted. My hands are no longer glowing but they feel like they are on fire and full of static electricity. 

"Lex! What was that?" I scold her, but mostly because it scared me.

"I couldn't help it. He was threatening us."

"Okay, but what was with the glowy purple, burny hands thing?! That's not normal!"

"Kas, we've been through this. We are a child of the Moon Goddess. We are special. The 'glowy purple, burny hands thing' is a gift from our mother. There is more too. You will see after we shift for the first time. Until then, I'm not strong enough to show you. Besides, it isn't like I hurt him; his wolf will heal him before he is back in his office." 

"I-I don-, wait, you mean the Moon Goddess is my actual mom? Like she gave birth to me, specifically? Not just, like, mother of all werewolves because she created us a gazillion years ago?" 

"That's what I've been saying since I woke up. It's not my fault you didn't believe me." 

I pick up a towel to wipe the blood from my nose. Lex is already healing me from the break. But my face is clearly going to be bruised for a couple of days. I pull my hat down low so no one can see the bruises then pick up the first two platters and rush out to the dining room.

"Okay, well if you're able to do that to Sam, how come you can't do it to Alpha Graham or Ryan?"

"Well, I think it happened one time before I woke up, but I wasn't fully in control then. I can't do it now because he's our Alpha, Kas. I can't go against what he says. I can't attack our Alpha or our future Alpha." 

to figure out the rules. I'm kinda in uncharted territory here. I mean, it's cool territory but I don't know what our

are out, I make the list of extra supplies I need and put it in the box hanging outside Sam's office. That way, I don't have to

go to the stockroom and put supplies on the pantry cart for later. As I'm working, I hear someone clear their throat behind me. I look up to

Ryan?" I try to swallow the panic that instantly builds in my

I'm Alpha, you won't be treated the way you

push lightly against him to get him to move, but he's

treats you, Kas. You never complain. You just take it," he moves closer, breathing deeply until

is no way I heard him right. Did

being beaten by your father," I say in disbelief, "and

an arm around

Kas. It makes me hard to think about what I'll do to you when it's finally my turn. I can't wait until he lets me treat you like that. I want to hear you moan with pleasure when I beat you. I want you on your knees so I can whip you instead of him. I want you to be my toy, Kas, not his. You'd like that, wouldn't you? Bowing down to me with that pretty

I yell. I push hard against him but he's too strong. He doesn't budge, "Get off of

time, he's been turned on by watching his dad

elbows me in the back, dropping me to my knees. Then he bends over behind me, pressing his body against mine, and slides his arm under my shirt roughly massaging my breast while he grunts in my ear. He slides his other hand inside my leggings, rubbing his fingers against my lower area. He pulls me toward his body, pressing his erection against my butt, moving back and forth to rub

to watch the first time I take you. I want to

I'm afraid to fight back or to even say anything. Lex can't help me because he's my future

Please save me from this!' I cry in my mind as Ryan gropes and rubs himself against me. He pulls my leggings and underwear down, tearing them both in half with his wolf claws extended. I feel him pressing himself against my entrance. I know what was about to happen and I can't take it anymore. I turn my mind off. Just

finally gets off me and I fall to the floor. He tears the back of my shirt open and releases his seed on the skin of my scarred back. He kicks me in the stomach again and

Lex commands in

she repeats. Her voice is stern but caring,