Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

**Trigger Warning - This chapter has sensitive content related to S.A.**

Sam scoots back on his backside away from me, wide-eyed, then clambers up and runs away as fast as he can.

Suddenly, I'm thrust back into my normal state of mind and I fall back to the ground, exhausted. My hands are no longer glowing but they feel like they are on fire and full of static electricity. 

"Lex! What was that?" I scold her, but mostly because it scared me.

"I couldn't help it. He was threatening us."

"Okay, but what was with the glowy purple, burny hands thing?! That's not normal!"

"Kas, we've been through this. We are a child of the Moon Goddess. We are special. The 'glowy purple, burny hands thing' is a gift from our mother. There is more too. You will see after we shift for the first time. Until then, I'm not strong enough to show you. Besides, it isn't like I hurt him; his wolf will heal him before he is back in his office." 

"I-I don-, wait, you mean the Moon Goddess is my actual mom? Like she gave birth to me, specifically? Not just, like, mother of all werewolves because she created us a gazillion years ago?" 

"That's what I've been saying since I woke up. It's not my fault you didn't believe me." 

I pick up a towel to wipe the blood from my nose. Lex is already healing me from the break. But my face is clearly going to be bruised for a couple of days. I pull my hat down low so no one can see the bruises then pick up the first two platters and rush out to the dining room.

"Okay, well if you're able to do that to Sam, how come you can't do it to Alpha Graham or Ryan?"

"Well, I think it happened one time before I woke up, but I wasn't fully in control then. I can't do it now because he's our Alpha, Kas. I can't go against what he says. I can't attack our Alpha or our future Alpha." 

argue with her. I'm just trying to figure out the rules. I'm kinda in uncharted territory here. I mean, it's cool territory but I don't know

out, I make the list of extra supplies I need and put it in the box hanging outside Sam's office.

dinner. I decide to go to the stockroom and put

help you with something, Ryan?" I try to swallow the panic that instantly builds in

the way you are

and push lightly against him to get him to move, but he's stronger than me and doesn't budge. I

you, Kas. You never complain. You just take it," he moves closer, breathing deeply until he's fully pressing himself against me, "I think you like when he does

in the actual Hell?! There is no way I

I say in disbelief, "and you're

as he slips an arm around

think about what I'll do to you when it's finally my turn. I can't wait until he lets me treat you like that. I want to hear you moan with pleasure when I beat you. I want you on your knees so I can whip you instead of him. I want you to be my toy, Kas, not his. You'd like that, wouldn't you? Bowing down to me with that pretty ass in the air?

I push hard against him but he's too strong. He doesn't budge, "Get off of me, you

dad torture me? What

evil to disgusted. Without warning, he takes a step back and kicks me in the stomach causing me to double over in pain. He elbows me in the back, dropping me to my knees. Then he bends over behind me, pressing his body against mine, and slides his arm under my shirt roughly massaging my breast while he grunts in my ear. He slides his other hand inside my leggings, rubbing his fingers against my lower area. He pulls me toward his body, pressing his erection against my butt, moving back and forth to rub himself against me, his mouth right next to my ear. He's breathing

I take you. I want to make

fight back or to even say

wolf claws extended. I feel him pressing himself against my entrance. I know what was about to happen and I can't take it anymore. I turn my mind off. Just like the night his father beat me within an inch of my life. My mind cannot be present

of my shirt open and releases his seed on the skin of my scarred back. He kicks me in the stomach again and walks away. I lay on the floor of the

Lex commands in my

is stern