Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Kas’s POV

I wake up in the morning feeling stiff and sore. I slide out of bed with a groan and look in the mirror. Even more than yesterday, I don't recognize the reflection I see. Pale skin with dark bags below my eyes. All the violet from my irises is gone, replaced by a gray so light, it could be mistaken for white. I gently run a brush through my brittle, thinning hair. It is no longer gray and glittery. It's turned into a dull shade of white that matches my eyes.

I put on a loose dress and a heavy long cardigan to hide the joints protruding from all my angles before I go out to address my sisters for one last time before escorting them to Kardia tou Manae.

When I first met Lenora, bruises from my nose being broken upset her. What she would think now at my self- imposed deterioration. I turn to the side and admire my growing belly. I let myself smile when I feel the impatient little kicks coming from inside.

I spend time with each team of sisters and make sure they are still on board with the plan before I introduce the Mavri Magea they have agreed to help rehabilitate. Most of the Mavri Magea are grateful for the opportunity. Some are indifferent and others, as expected, are defiant. I create a portal and take each group to the Kardia tou Manae apartment we assigned them to and show them around the common areas they will use as they see fit. I give them instructions on how to come and go from the facility and place protective spells over everyone before I go.

When it comes time for Desiree and Leticia to meet their new support teams, I sit with them in their rooms and carefully explain my expectations as their Leader. After I'm certain they won't cause any problems, I remove the hexes so Desiree can speak again and give Leticia her mouth back.

“Kas, what if there’s no hope for me,” Leticia cries into my shoulder, reluctant to go with her new team of sisters.

“Leticia, I have faith in you. Mother would not have sent me on this quest if she didn’t think there was hope for you,” I embrace her and pat her back, “No one is saying it's going to be easy, but I know you can do it. Hopefully, when I come to visit, you will show me a ton of progress. Make me proud to be called your Leader.”

She wipes her tears away and looks me over, “I can't believe what this has done to you, Kas. If you change your mind and want me to use my abilities, I’m sure I can help you.”

“No thank you, Leticia. I have accepted my fate for this lifetime. My physical appearance is only a small part of who I am. My spirit will heal and that’s what's important.”

After leaving the last group in Kardia tou Manae, I portal back to the apartment and sit on the sofa.

“Well, old friend. Your work is done,” I look around and address the eerily quiet apartment directly, “You have done a good job and I thank you. I have one more spark of magic in me. You can rest now.”

closes in on itself from the far corners. When I see the edges of the sitting room disintegrating,

kk

he sees me standing on the other

Am I still welcome here? It’s cold and I would like to go home,” I say, making sure my cloak doesn’t expose my frail features to him. I pull the hood down lower to

thought...I mean...I just...” he runs into the guardhouse and pushes a button, allowing the gate to slowly swing open. He rushes out and takes my hand, helping me over the snow and ice into

I smile at him as he sets

says to someone as he grabsa heavy wool blanket and wraps me in

the other guard exclaims as he peeks his head around the corner,

I'll get another blanket.” I watch as the guard named Jamie's eyes glaze over when he sends a mind link. Sam comes out of a back room with another blanket and wraps it carefully over my lap. He is very sweet, asking if I’m sure

to the guardhouse. Milo and Reggie jump

the hood of my cloak back. His face contorts as he sees my transformed features, “Wh-What happened to you,

aren't even any more abilities. I’ve used them all up,” I try to smile, but it turns into a frown. For the

kneels next to Milo, “ We know what you had planned. Does this mean it worked? Are you here because

hard work I have put in over the last four months, all the emotions I pushed down, every moment I dedicated to other people, putting my own

Milo. I swear,” I cry, not being able to contain it anymore. I feel Milo’s hand take mine and he pulls me into his lap and holds me

you, Kas. You did nothing wrong. Nothing I need to forgive you for,” Milo says as he rubs my back. I feel him stop and he pulls me away

and lifts the cloak over my head. The four men in the guardhouse stare at me

“You're so...” Reggie murmurs.

I chuckle between my tears and place my hands on my belly,

anyone. If people know she’s even here, let alone pregnant, your Luna’s life could be in danger.

Beta,” they reply

“Let's get you something to eat. Reggie and I will see if we can