Found by the Lycan King by Natalie Winter

Chapter 134

I was reeling from the information overload and I had lost count of how many times I was left speechless by Callahan’s words.

He kept looking at me, waiting for my reaction as I processed whatever he had revealed. My legs felt shaky and my knees wobbled, so I gripped the edge of the table for support.

Callahan had been in love with Aislynn…long ago. He was the

commander in chief of Selene’s forces and fell in love with the daughter of the enemy. So Selene cursed him to die a pained death, and live a loveless life…just because he fell in love with an enemy?

For a while we sat in an awkward silence, the only noises in his office being him drinking more whisky and me clicking a pen on and off to give my fingers something to do. My heart was thudding wildly and, despite all the other jarring things he had told me, just one of the many revelations cut through my heart like a sharp blade.

The fact that Callahan had been in love made a spark of white hot jealousy course through my spine, sending tingling sensations all over my body. I was not supposed to feel this way about a dead girl but I could not help it. My nails dug into my palms as I tried to maintain my

composure.

Was he still in love with her? Is that why he would always say no to me? I remembered how girls would die to get just one look from him. Even at the ball, Cynthia and the others had tried hard to grab his attention. But he had only maintained a polite distance from them.

I had felt so nice to show Cynthia that she did not deserve Callahan because he preferred to make me his anchor. But…it had never been me.

His first choice, his first love, had been Aislynn. I recalled Aislynn’s beautiful face.

She truly used to look like a goddess herself, with her otherworldly appearance. My thoughts went haywire as I began comparing myself with her.

I had only seen her for a few minutes in the memory, but those minutes had been more than enough to tell me that she was a beauty. She had long hair and dressed like a princess. Her voice had been calming, too.

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And I…I just scream and yell for the most basic things. I look ordinary as well.

brought up by a witch queen or some noble to have the mannerisms of a sweet

look even more vibrant and youthful than now. His hair used to be

him, looked at her as if she was the center of the world?

her die and held her dying body in his arms as she took her last breath, cradling her

head. What was I even

die. And he lives with that memory that must haunt

have been so painful. The cogs in my brain were churning as I began to recall all of my

but wishful thinking. That must also be the reason why Drusilla had to put in so much effort for him to agree to finding

I could recall how he would snort whenever we spoke about fate or the Moon

now, after hearing the truth, I could not blame him

comfortably while he risked his life

Aislynn at this moment when he needs me

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contain my stupid jealousy?

grief, both of which did not belong to me. I could

were intense, and his emotions were all over the place. I could sense all of it and it suddenly became too much for me to bear. I felt as if my

told him it was hurting me, he would shut himself off again. I could not risk that. I had to let him speak for as

stay strong by bearing a huge chunk of the pain even though

I whispered to her as tears stung the

replied, gladly sharing the load with me. Now that she had taken some of the pain off, my brain could think clearly.

could truly understand why he was so cold and aloof,

into a cold and brutal person. Maybe that is why he did

read my thoughts, he suddenly

was cruel and unfair, so I welcomed the curse with open arms. I never wanted a mate or anybody to love me. I

it away, the glass bottle thudding softly against the

little wobbly. “I…I did not want to live. I wanted to die. But, I could not die in any other way except the curse slowly seeping the life out of me. So, in a way, I became an immortal with a death wish.”