Found by the Lycan King by Natalie Winter

Chapter 134

I was reeling from the information overload and I had lost count of how many times I was left speechless by Callahan’s words.

He kept looking at me, waiting for my reaction as I processed whatever he had revealed. My legs felt shaky and my knees wobbled, so I gripped the edge of the table for support.

Callahan had been in love with Aislynn…long ago. He was the

commander in chief of Selene’s forces and fell in love with the daughter of the enemy. So Selene cursed him to die a pained death, and live a loveless life…just because he fell in love with an enemy?

For a while we sat in an awkward silence, the only noises in his office being him drinking more whisky and me clicking a pen on and off to give my fingers something to do. My heart was thudding wildly and, despite all the other jarring things he had told me, just one of the many revelations cut through my heart like a sharp blade.

The fact that Callahan had been in love made a spark of white hot jealousy course through my spine, sending tingling sensations all over my body. I was not supposed to feel this way about a dead girl but I could not help it. My nails dug into my palms as I tried to maintain my

composure.

Was he still in love with her? Is that why he would always say no to me? I remembered how girls would die to get just one look from him. Even at the ball, Cynthia and the others had tried hard to grab his attention. But he had only maintained a polite distance from them.

I had felt so nice to show Cynthia that she did not deserve Callahan because he preferred to make me his anchor. But…it had never been me.

His first choice, his first love, had been Aislynn. I recalled Aislynn’s beautiful face.

She truly used to look like a goddess herself, with her otherworldly appearance. My thoughts went haywire as I began comparing myself with her.

I had only seen her for a few minutes in the memory, but those minutes had been more than enough to tell me that she was a beauty. She had long hair and dressed like a princess. Her voice had been calming, too.

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And I…I just scream and yell for the most basic things. I look ordinary as well.

witch queen or some noble to

His hair used to be shorter and his build leaner, giving him an

Had he kissed her just like I kissed him, looked at her as if she was the center of the world? Well, I did not need to ponder over that. The look on his face when he saw her covered

her die and held her dying body in his arms as she took her last breath, cradling

head. What was I

saw her die. And he lives with that

The cogs in my brain were churning as I began

but wishful thinking. That must also be the reason why Drusilla had to put in so much effort for him to agree to finding an anchor, nag him endlessly to give

Moon Goddess. He had turned into an atheist and at that

now, after hearing the truth, I could not blame him for

protect him. She had shunned him….left him to die a painful and miserable death and a long, agonizing life. She sat on her throne comfortably while he risked his life every day, waging a war that was not his and lives with the burden of deaths of many warriors that is also not

Aislynn at this moment when he needs me to support him? How could I ever think of myself as his lover when

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not even contain my

thrummed as I felt pain and grief, both of which did not belong to me. I could feel what he was feeling, not just by

over the place. I could sense all of it and it suddenly became too

hurting me, he would shut himself off again. I could not risk that. I had to let him speak for

stay strong by bearing a huge chunk of the pain

you,” I whispered to her as tears stung the back

well,” she replied, gladly sharing the load with me. Now that she had

truly understand why he was so cold and aloof, so

into a cold and brutal person. Maybe that is why he did not want to live longer or

if he had read my thoughts,

live. It was cruel and unfair, so I welcomed the curse with open arms. I never wanted a mate or anybody to love me. I knew nobody would want me. If I could not even protect the one girl I loved, I could not protect anyone.”

swig of the bottle and threw it away, the glass bottle thudding softly against the carpet.

die in any other way except the curse slowly seeping the life out of me.