Found by the Lycan King by Natalie Winter

Chapter 134

I was reeling from the information overload and I had lost count of how many times I was left speechless by Callahan’s words.

He kept looking at me, waiting for my reaction as I processed whatever he had revealed. My legs felt shaky and my knees wobbled, so I gripped the edge of the table for support.

Callahan had been in love with Aislynn…long ago. He was the

commander in chief of Selene’s forces and fell in love with the daughter of the enemy. So Selene cursed him to die a pained death, and live a loveless life…just because he fell in love with an enemy?

For a while we sat in an awkward silence, the only noises in his office being him drinking more whisky and me clicking a pen on and off to give my fingers something to do. My heart was thudding wildly and, despite all the other jarring things he had told me, just one of the many revelations cut through my heart like a sharp blade.

The fact that Callahan had been in love made a spark of white hot jealousy course through my spine, sending tingling sensations all over my body. I was not supposed to feel this way about a dead girl but I could not help it. My nails dug into my palms as I tried to maintain my

composure.

Was he still in love with her? Is that why he would always say no to me? I remembered how girls would die to get just one look from him. Even at the ball, Cynthia and the others had tried hard to grab his attention. But he had only maintained a polite distance from them.

I had felt so nice to show Cynthia that she did not deserve Callahan because he preferred to make me his anchor. But…it had never been me.

His first choice, his first love, had been Aislynn. I recalled Aislynn’s beautiful face.

She truly used to look like a goddess herself, with her otherworldly appearance. My thoughts went haywire as I began comparing myself with her.

I had only seen her for a few minutes in the memory, but those minutes had been more than enough to tell me that she was a beauty. She had long hair and dressed like a princess. Her voice had been calming, too.

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And I…I just scream and yell for the most basic things. I look ordinary as well.

some noble to have the mannerisms of a sweet

Callahan used to look even more vibrant and youthful than now. His hair used to be shorter and his

each other. Had he kissed her just like I kissed him, looked at her as if she was the center of the world? Well, I did not need to ponder over that. The look on his face

body in his arms as she took her last breath, cradling her like

shook my head. What was I

with that memory

churning as I began to recall all

Moon Goddess, of how he would think of it as nothing more but wishful thinking. That must also be the reason why Drusilla had to put

only now I could recall how he would snort whenever we spoke about fate or the Moon Goddess. He had

hearing the truth, I could not blame him for

painful and miserable death and a long, agonizing life. She sat on her throne comfortably while he risked his life every day, waging a war that was not his

of Aislynn at this moment when he needs me to support him? How could I ever think of myself

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contain my

in my wrist thrummed as I felt pain and grief, both of which did not belong to me. I could feel what he was feeling, not just by

became too much for me to bear. I felt as if my wrist

again. I could not risk that. I had to

by bearing a huge chunk of the pain even though she

tears stung the back

me. Now that she had taken some of

truly understand why he was so cold and aloof, so

his life had turned him into a cold and brutal person. Maybe that is why he did

had read

was…it was not right that Aisy died while I got to live. It was cruel and unfair, so I welcomed the curse with open arms. I never wanted a mate or anybody to love me. I knew nobody would

of the bottle and threw it away, the glass

to wince as his steps got a little wobbly. “I…I did not want to live. I wanted to die. But, I could not die in any other way except