Found by the Lycan King by Natalie Winter

Chapter 135

Zenovia

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Pushing the hair away, he continued when I stepped back.

“So…it took me a while, but I realized I was not going to die no matter how much I fought and pushed myself. But those around me were dying…at an alarming rate. I had to change that. I could not save all of them but a few whom I could, I tried my best to care for them. Slowly, I found the survivors and gathered them to form a pack. I devoted my life to their betterment while silently hoping every day that I would not open my eyes the next morning. But guess what?”

He asked, smiling like a madman.

My heart broke to see him like this and I went towards him, trying to calm him down, but he stepped away again.

“I…I never fucking died. Aisy died, but I am still alive. And… I would not have wanted to live…until I found you.

Callahan said, the last four words leaving his mouth in a pained whisper. I felt as if somebody was squeezing my heart in a deathly grip and I could not breathe anymore.

This. This was his way of telling me that I mattered to him. That he found the will to live…because of me. He had never been good with words, but his admission told me I was not just a random girl crushing on him.

It told me that he felt something as well. And the burden of so many deaths, along with the guilt of staying alive with those memories, made him think he was unworthy of love.

I could not bear to see him so vulnerable.

“I would never let you die, Cal.” I began sobbing bitterly, and ran towards him, my hands holding him tightly. This time, he did not step away or push me back.

And I held onto him like he was the last breath of air I needed to survive.

The fear of losing him made my heartbeat race, and I gripped his shirt tightly, coiling my hands around him.

My head was resting on his chest and I let the steady rhythm of his

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I could not bear the thought of not hearing his heart beat like this. He had to live.

me. “You…you changed me.” He said, and I chuckled despite the tears streaming down my face like

live again. I had built walls around my heart to not let anybody come near me. But you…my little kitten, you

pushed the hair sticking to my temples behind and

begging him to tell me everything from day one, yet he took so much time. I plotted running away from him, hated him and bickered so much with him, called him names while

just admitted

him.

of making him realize just how much he wanted me, and loved me with the same ferocious intensity I did, I would

if you would stay with me till the end. The pain of losing Aisy still haunts me to this day. And I did not allow myself to fall for anyone. I was afraid I would lose you, too. So it was better to make

I smiled through the tears. “We both saw how good that plan turned

and I saw the first signs of relief cross

to her own daughter, Zee. I cannot bear to see something happen to you. I promised you the truth and I gave it to you. The complete

my cheek and I saw the way he gasped. This was my Callahan. The Lycan King who

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show of being cold and unreachable, but I could

loved one leaves wounds and pain that seldom goes away. I had lost my mother, so I knew how that felt. But I had not seen the light in her eyes

Zee. I don’t deserve you

to stop him from talking, but he pulled it away and continued to talk. “I could not protect Aisy and…and I attacked you, too. That is why I was not letting you become my anchor. I feel…I feel I will not be able to

could not hold back any longer. The fact that he had been living with so much burden and did not have anybody to share with all this life was heart

did not deserve this life. Nobody did. It was not his fault that Aislynn

living with a tremendous amount of guilt

all his life.

else spoke about fate. He never really worshiped the Moon Goddess either. I only thought he was

been created by and left to rot. How could Selene do this to

our Goddess

her, thought of her as my own mother. There were countless nights I would keep staring outside the window, looking at the moon

Callahan went through, that belief in the Moon Goddess was shaken. I did not know what to think of her anymore. Not that she would care.

never thought I would feel anything but devotion to the Moon Goddess. But I guess now she did not