Her Unwanted Mate On The Throne

#Chapter 31 A little bit of peace

"I don't know why you're losing sleep over this. He wasn't the first man you killed." Cordelia said inside her. It was the first time her wolf had spoken up since the incident occurred, and she didn't sound very happy. Doris knew that she was avoiding this discussion, but it appeared that her gloomy demeanor annoyed her inner wolf enough to finally speak up.

"Self defense is different." Doris said. ''That man ... he didn't deserve that. He was just out there doing his job and could have lost his life. I feel like I was almost a murderer."

Cordelia was silent again for a long moment. " Don't be too hard on yourself. It was an accident, and William said he's going to be fine. When he wakes up in a few days, you can apologize." « Doris closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "I don't think I can handle the power. Maybe you were right to keep it from me."

"I think I came at it all wrong." Cordelia admitted. "I shouldn't have let you have it without finding your peace first. All white wolves have their inner peace. Since Alec is out with William today, let's go to the forest and we will work on that."

Doris couldn't find the strength to pull herself up and do that. Before she would have hopped out of the bed and followed Cordelia down any path if it meant she would be stronger. But now—she wasn't so sure what she wanted. All the tales in the book sounded like they were made for people much better than herself—but no. She had to stop thinking that way. She had to allow her self confidence if she wanted to be better.

After a push, Doris forced herself off the couch and picked her cloak up before she followed her wolf out of the palace. The last thing she wanted was to see Daemon. William was a saint for taking Alec when he knew that she needed a little time alone.

Doris followed their usual path but broke off to go the opposite way. She didn't want to risk anyone following her to her route. She only stopped when they were far enough away from the palace.

cloak and leaned down on her

said soothingly. Doris did as she asked. "A lot of the time, we lose ourselves and try to take more than given because our minds are so loud. When the power flows through you, you have to learn that your own peace is what matters the most." "Okay... why didn't you tell me this

and felt like her insides were kicked. "Focus. I didn't think you would disobey what I told you, but I should have known that the lure of power was too strong to resist. It's

desire to take

But you can find your peace and it might be enough to resist

everything in the forest and felt the power pulse in her veins. Instead of trying to hear everything at once, she focused on

always the loudest and normally couldn't be silenced without a distraction. Today, she took out each thought one by

a big glass box with a muffled world around her. The sounds of the

power felt as if it had calmed from the spike in her blood. "There." Cordelia whispered. "If you ever feel like you're losing control, this will help you

slow breath and allowed herself to hear the outside. She could hear the river where it always was, but there was

have I

lives without reaching the maximum amount. You didn't get to grow up with wolves. You didn't get to learn how to take a bit at a time and now you're overdue for a lot. I can sense your body getting used to it. Soon you

the first time she realized that she could do that—even in her human form.

her cloak flowing behind her. For once she didn't feel as if she