I Am The Luna

29 A Painful Want or I Am The Luna Chapter 107 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

Blow after blow…

The pain in my body is screaming at me to stop, to take a break and breathe… but I don’t want to.

I refuse to.

This is a way to release the rage inside of me and it’s… empowering.

“Zaia… let’s take a break.” Atticus’s breathless voice comes as he grabs my fist, yanking me against him, and twists my arm behind my back. “That’s enough for today.” He says, looking down at me.

His hair is drenched in sweat, as is his body. I’m the same. The hairs that refused to stay back are sticking to my face and I can feel the trickles of sweat dripping down my bare stomach as we stand there chest to chest.

“No. I’m not… but if you want to go, I’ll continue with one of my guards.” I say quietly, breaking free and turning away from him, about to summon one of my men when he grips.

hold of my elbow and forces me to face him.

“Zai “There’s concern in his eyes as he

obst s me, but I refuse to let people see the cracks within me…

I raise an eyebrow and tilt my head.

“What’s wrong Atticus? Can’t you handle me?” I ask challengingly as I slowly tug out of his hold and cross my arms.

He smirks slightly before sighing and shaking his head.

“Alright then, Red, let’s go again.” He says as he adjusts his sweatpants and re-ties the string. He’s shirtless, and he’s getting a lot of attention from the other females here and a couple of the guys.

He would make a good partner. I just hope he finds the one and gets that happily ever after he deserves without being hung up over me.

“Checking me out?” he asks, cocking a brow.

“I appreciate the view, but no, I was just thinking you aren’t getting any younger. I want to see you settle down.” I say as I fall into stance. I’m proud to say I’m a fast learner and this time I make the first move.

“That won’t happen,” he replies as he blocks me

“Ok, I’m done, even if you aren’t. I give up.” Atticus says breathlessly as I pin him to the ground, I’m straddling his stomach a dagger to his throat. He raised his hands in surrender, dropping them onto the ground beside his head as he looks up at me.

Hours have passed and we are the only ones left in the training hall. I know I pushed him today, but I feel a little calmer, or maybe that’s because I’m just exhausted.

“You went easy on me, didn’t you?” I ask, tilting my head.

“Honestly? No. I didn’t because this isn’t a joke, and I don’t want you to underestimate the

enemy or a real match. Not that you don’t know how to handle yourself on the battlefield,” he says quietly, slapping the side of my thighs. ” You did good Red.”

I suddenly become aware of our position and dropping the dagger, I climb off him groaning at how achy my body is.

“Take a breather.” He says, grabbing my arm ling me onto the ground beside him.

My back hits the mat beneath me as I lay there beside him staring at the ceiling.

The sound of our thundering hearts as we recover is loud in the room, but it’s oddly satisfying.

There’s silence between us until he speaks.

“You really want me to settle down…” Atticus says, making me turn my head to look over at him.

“Yes, you aren’t getting any younger. Find a good woman. Life is short.” I say with a small smile.

“But would that be fair to the woman?” he asks, his smirk fading slightly.

can be a little annoying, but you’re a

I have any right to give him advice when my own relationship is something I can’t even keep

fair to the woman I settle for when I am in love with someone else?” his voice

it,”

told you I’ll wait. Even if there’s no end… I’ll still

it go, I’m never going to return those feelings… don’t waste your life over me. It’s foolish.” say, about to stand up when he

“Hey, look at me.”

get it? I can’t

trying

those feelings, and I respect that. But you don’t have the right to say whether they are a waste of time or foolish, because

“Atticus…”

trying to make matters worse or

my arm pulling me

I lay there beside him staring

hearts as we recover

silence between us until

making me turn

getting any younger. Find a good woman. Life

would that be fair to the woman?” he asks, his smirk fading

mean, you can be a little annoying, but you’re a good

right to give him advice when my own relationship is something I

for when I am

him. “I’m not worth it,” I say quietly

I’ll wait. Even if there’s no end… I’ll still wait.” He sits up, but

go, I’m never going to return those feelings… don’t waste your life over me. It’s

“Hey, look at me.”

get it? I can’t

eyes, trying to

know you will never reciprocate those feelings, and I respect that. But you don’t have the right to say whether they are a waste of time or foolish, because that’s my choice and I don’t think they are. You are an

“Atticus…”

make matters worse or use your emotional state to forward my gain, but just remember, you are

not the one I

I look away, ashamed that I let it get

see you tonight, Atticus,”

as I

changing room, I kick off my shoes and step into one of the showers. Switching it on, I sink

If only…

Love hurts…

it plays. I want the one who doesn’t care for me, and the one who wants me…

my mind, telling me that the kids are asking for me. The mind link is something

I get up and push

you sure you still want to do

Atticus asks.

of Mom’s postmortem,

with so

test out the Moon Dust,

Mom had been sick.

Cancer…

while… and it seemed that the poisoning around my birth had just made it

assuming it could be the man Annalise was speaking to in your pack. Gerard wouldn’t

clue, anything that could help. We do have footage of every New Year’s ball and I have had the tapes searched. Some files were deleted, but we are trying to recover them. Someone should show

to know…” I

that she was sick. Did she never mention

gentle squeeze as she stands behind me and I

She never

I didn’t even

she just kept you in the dark?” Jai sounds a little frustrated now, but deep down I know why she

to worry me… Even

She

leave the Moon Dust tonight… you need a break,

not like you again,”

trying to help.” Atticus says, a

little. too cosy the moment Seb isn’t in the picture.” Jai