I Am The Luna

29 A Painful Want or I Am The Luna Chapter 107 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

Blow after blow…

The pain in my body is screaming at me to stop, to take a break and breathe… but I don’t want to.

I refuse to.

This is a way to release the rage inside of me and it’s… empowering.

“Zaia… let’s take a break.” Atticus’s breathless voice comes as he grabs my fist, yanking me against him, and twists my arm behind my back. “That’s enough for today.” He says, looking down at me.

His hair is drenched in sweat, as is his body. I’m the same. The hairs that refused to stay back are sticking to my face and I can feel the trickles of sweat dripping down my bare stomach as we stand there chest to chest.

“No. I’m not… but if you want to go, I’ll continue with one of my guards.” I say quietly, breaking free and turning away from him, about to summon one of my men when he grips.

hold of my elbow and forces me to face him.

“Zai “There’s concern in his eyes as he

obst s me, but I refuse to let people see the cracks within me…

I raise an eyebrow and tilt my head.

“What’s wrong Atticus? Can’t you handle me?” I ask challengingly as I slowly tug out of his hold and cross my arms.

He smirks slightly before sighing and shaking his head.

“Alright then, Red, let’s go again.” He says as he adjusts his sweatpants and re-ties the string. He’s shirtless, and he’s getting a lot of attention from the other females here and a couple of the guys.

He would make a good partner. I just hope he finds the one and gets that happily ever after he deserves without being hung up over me.

“Checking me out?” he asks, cocking a brow.

“I appreciate the view, but no, I was just thinking you aren’t getting any younger. I want to see you settle down.” I say as I fall into stance. I’m proud to say I’m a fast learner and this time I make the first move.

“That won’t happen,” he replies as he blocks me

“Ok, I’m done, even if you aren’t. I give up.” Atticus says breathlessly as I pin him to the ground, I’m straddling his stomach a dagger to his throat. He raised his hands in surrender, dropping them onto the ground beside his head as he looks up at me.

Hours have passed and we are the only ones left in the training hall. I know I pushed him today, but I feel a little calmer, or maybe that’s because I’m just exhausted.

“You went easy on me, didn’t you?” I ask, tilting my head.

“Honestly? No. I didn’t because this isn’t a joke, and I don’t want you to underestimate the

enemy or a real match. Not that you don’t know how to handle yourself on the battlefield,” he says quietly, slapping the side of my thighs. ” You did good Red.”

I suddenly become aware of our position and dropping the dagger, I climb off him groaning at how achy my body is.

“Take a breather.” He says, grabbing my arm ling me onto the ground beside him.

My back hits the mat beneath me as I lay there beside him staring at the ceiling.

The sound of our thundering hearts as we recover is loud in the room, but it’s oddly satisfying.

There’s silence between us until he speaks.

“You really want me to settle down…” Atticus says, making me turn my head to look over at him.

“Yes, you aren’t getting any younger. Find a good woman. Life is short.” I say with a small smile.

“But would that be fair to the woman?” he asks, his smirk fading slightly.

ask. “I mean, you can be a

him advice when my own relationship is something

settle for when I am in love with someone else?” his

across at him. “I’m not worth it,” I

wait. Even if there’s no end… I’ll still wait.”

never going to return those feelings… don’t waste your life over me. It’s foolish.” say, about to stand up when he takes hold of my

“Hey, look at me.”

get it? I can’t deal

look into his eyes, trying to keep my

to say whether

“Atticus…”

not trying to make matters worse or use

He says, grabbing my arm pulling me onto the ground

I lay

our thundering hearts as we recover is loud in the room,

between us until he

Atticus. says, making me turn my head

younger. Find a good woman.

the woman?” he asks,

mean, you can be a little

right to give him advice when my own relationship is something I can’t even keep

would it be fair to the woman I settle for when I am in love with someone

worth it,” I say quietly as

told you I’ll wait. Even if there’s no end… I’ll still

return those feelings… don’t waste your life over me. It’s foolish.” say, about to stand up when

“Hey, look at me.”

you get it? I can’t deal with

look into his eyes, trying

those feelings, and I respect that. But you don’t have the right to say whether they are a

“Atticus…”

forward my gain, but just remember, you are worth way more. There are so many men who ould sacrifice

not the one

I look away, ashamed that I let it get

see you tonight, Atticus,” I

softly as I take my

I kick off my shoes and step into one of the showers. Switching it on, I sink to the

If only…

Love hurts…

who doesn’t care for me, and the one who wants me… I will

my mind, telling me that the kids are asking for me. The mind link is something

get up and push the

you still want

Atticus asks.

close the report of Mom’s

had several broken bones, along with so much

Moon Dust, but

Mom had been sick.

Cancer…

to this report, she’d been sick for a while… and it seemed that the poisoning around my birth had just made it

never did find out who administered the poison back then,” I say quietly. “I’m assuming it could be the man Annalise was speaking to in your pack. Gerard wouldn’t have done it

of every New Year’s ball and I have had the tapes searched. Some files were deleted,

to know…”

knew… that she was sick. Did she never mention

as she stands behind me and

She never

feel like I didn’t even

kept you in the dark?” Jai sounds a little frustrated now,

me… Even though it upsets me; I

never any signs. She was so good at hiding her

the Moon Dust tonight… you need a break, Zaia.” Atticus says as he

I’m beginning to not like

trying to help.” Atticus says, a

is you getting a little. too cosy the moment Seb isn’t in the picture.”