I Am The Luna

29 A Painful Want or I Am The Luna Chapter 107 By Moonlight Muse

ZAIA.

Blow after blow…

The pain in my body is screaming at me to stop, to take a break and breathe… but I don’t want to.

I refuse to.

This is a way to release the rage inside of me and it’s… empowering.

“Zaia… let’s take a break.” Atticus’s breathless voice comes as he grabs my fist, yanking me against him, and twists my arm behind my back. “That’s enough for today.” He says, looking down at me.

His hair is drenched in sweat, as is his body. I’m the same. The hairs that refused to stay back are sticking to my face and I can feel the trickles of sweat dripping down my bare stomach as we stand there chest to chest.

“No. I’m not… but if you want to go, I’ll continue with one of my guards.” I say quietly, breaking free and turning away from him, about to summon one of my men when he grips.

hold of my elbow and forces me to face him.

“Zai “There’s concern in his eyes as he

obst s me, but I refuse to let people see the cracks within me…

I raise an eyebrow and tilt my head.

“What’s wrong Atticus? Can’t you handle me?” I ask challengingly as I slowly tug out of his hold and cross my arms.

He smirks slightly before sighing and shaking his head.

“Alright then, Red, let’s go again.” He says as he adjusts his sweatpants and re-ties the string. He’s shirtless, and he’s getting a lot of attention from the other females here and a couple of the guys.

He would make a good partner. I just hope he finds the one and gets that happily ever after he deserves without being hung up over me.

“Checking me out?” he asks, cocking a brow.

“I appreciate the view, but no, I was just thinking you aren’t getting any younger. I want to see you settle down.” I say as I fall into stance. I’m proud to say I’m a fast learner and this time I make the first move.

“That won’t happen,” he replies as he blocks me

“Ok, I’m done, even if you aren’t. I give up.” Atticus says breathlessly as I pin him to the ground, I’m straddling his stomach a dagger to his throat. He raised his hands in surrender, dropping them onto the ground beside his head as he looks up at me.

Hours have passed and we are the only ones left in the training hall. I know I pushed him today, but I feel a little calmer, or maybe that’s because I’m just exhausted.

“You went easy on me, didn’t you?” I ask, tilting my head.

“Honestly? No. I didn’t because this isn’t a joke, and I don’t want you to underestimate the

enemy or a real match. Not that you don’t know how to handle yourself on the battlefield,” he says quietly, slapping the side of my thighs. ” You did good Red.”

I suddenly become aware of our position and dropping the dagger, I climb off him groaning at how achy my body is.

“Take a breather.” He says, grabbing my arm ling me onto the ground beside him.

My back hits the mat beneath me as I lay there beside him staring at the ceiling.

The sound of our thundering hearts as we recover is loud in the room, but it’s oddly satisfying.

There’s silence between us until he speaks.

“You really want me to settle down…” Atticus says, making me turn my head to look over at him.

“Yes, you aren’t getting any younger. Find a good woman. Life is short.” I say with a small smile.

“But would that be fair to the woman?” he asks, his smirk fading slightly.

mean?” I ask. “I mean, you can be a little annoying, but

right to give him advice when my own relationship

for when I am in love with someone else?” his voice is quiet, but his words are

“I’m not worth it,” I

end… I’ll still wait.” He

I’m never going to return those feelings… don’t waste your life over me. It’s foolish.” say, about to stand up when he takes hold of my

“Hey, look at me.”

it? I can’t deal with

his eyes, trying to keep

can’t choose who you love, and I know you will never reciprocate those feelings, and I respect that. But you don’t have the right to say whether they are a waste of time or foolish, because that’s

“Atticus…”

make matters worse or

arm pulling me onto the ground

me as I lay there beside him staring at the

sound of our thundering hearts as we recover is loud in the room, but

us

Atticus. says, making me turn my head to

woman. Life is

would that be fair to the woman?” he asks,

“I mean, you can be a

right to give him advice when my own relationship is

for when I am in love with

worth it,” I say

if there’s no end… I’ll still wait.” He sits up, but I refuse to

your life over me. It’s foolish.” say, about to stand up when he takes hold of

“Hey, look at me.”

I can’t deal

look into his eyes, trying to

have the right to say whether they are a waste of time or foolish, because that’s my choice and

“Atticus…”

my gain, but just remember, you are worth way more. There are so many

not the one

look away, ashamed that I let

you tonight, Atticus,”

He replies softly as I

I enter the changing room, I kick off my shoes and step into one of the showers. Switching it on, I sink to the ground, wrapping my

If only…

Love hurts…

for me, and the one who wants me… I will only hurt

me that the kids are asking for

for them, I get up and push the

still

Atticus asks.

close the report of Mom’s postmortem, my mind

several broken bones, along with so much other

were ready to test out the Moon Dust,

Mom had been sick.

Cancer…

report, she’d been sick for a while… and it seemed that the poisoning around my birth had

say quietly. “I’m assuming it could be the man Annalise was speaking to in your

been trying to find some clue, anything that could help. We do have footage of every New Year’s ball and I have had the tapes searched. Some files were deleted, but we are trying to recover them. Someone

to

she

my shoulders a gentle squeeze as she stands behind me and I

never did.”

feel like I

sounds a little frustrated now, but deep down I know why she

to worry me… Even though it upsets me;

She was so good at hiding her

need a break, Zaia.” Atticus says as he crouches down in front of

beginning to not like you

says, a sliver of irritation

getting a little. too cosy the moment Seb