I Am The Luna

A Lead or I Am The Luna Chapter 112 By Moonlight Muse
ZAIA.

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

“Dad… come,” I say gently, holding my hand out to him.

He looks at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that he looks aged.

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

“Do you think burying her here was ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark Hollow Falls Pack.

“She lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here …she wanted that.” I say quietly.

from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to

what stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order of hers from long

“Well,

are listening in on our conversations. We

has found something, and I am going to

over the phone.

hate to admit it,

and head to the safe

have some work to attend

me as if I’m old.” He

smile and

just that you need to take care of your mental and physical health.” I remind

doing that?” Dad

have no answer to that, and I motion for my guards to

been training with Justin, Jai and Atticus depending on who was available and although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to become a master of the arts, but

out that Atticus is her brother made her warm up to him a little more, much to Jai’s

them about Sebastian, but I also can’t tell anyone openly in case we’re being

hope Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a mission to

telling my driver to take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to

This act of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on

give us the go-ahead. Yet again another reminder

the papers, and he’s ready for the official

that I gave this project to you, Ms Toussaint, and

it. We will not disappoint.” I reply gracefully, as we both stand

call the hard part.

that we have all the details finalised, I think this part will be fairly smooth and if there are any blips, then that is my job to handle,”

chuckles. “I do like your confidence! Ah, before I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in his briefcase and takes out a

need to give

good day Ms Toussaint!” He fastens the button of his suit jacket and slips out

the Toussaint building, but we all agreed it would be the safest place for a meeting considering all that has happened before, like

I walk back to the desk and open the file, scanning it

Sebastian’s old proposal for this project. Why would he give

uneasy, I flip through

How strange…

at the file, thinking there has to be more to it. Did someone put him up to this and

there poison on

sniff it but there’s

Is it a warning?

a

open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in

smug expression on his face, I am certain that the briefcase he is carrying contains

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

Mr Payne,” I reply as I sit

you call me that.” He says, sauntering over to my desk as the

people will think

a bad thing.” He winks at

know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan for Mr Harrison’s project. Why would Mr Harrison give it

to you… have you handled these with

“Yeah…”

and I need some gloves. It could