I Am The Luna

A Lead or I Am The Luna Chapter 112 By Moonlight Muse
ZAIA.

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

“Dad… come,” I say gently, holding my hand out to him.

He looks at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that he looks aged.

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

“Do you think burying her here was ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark Hollow Falls Pack.

“She lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here …she wanted that.” I say quietly.

that Mom once told me, she wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in

stood any longer, but I

“Well,

still a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on trips and I’ve

a disappointment. Atticus has found something, and I am going to meet him later since neither of us

over the phone.

it, but I barely trust

should rest, and head to the

yummy strew. I have some work

treating me as if

smile and

to take care of your

you doing that?”

no answer to that, and I motion for my guards to take

available and although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to become a master of the arts, but every little

Atticus is her brother made her warm up to him a

I also can’t tell anyone openly in case we’re being

and I hope Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a mission

to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to attend to some

painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are

go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that I have to

we have both signed the papers, and he’s

this project to you, Ms Toussaint, and I will look forward to the work getting

I do appreciate it. We will not disappoint.” I reply

call the hard part. Bringing the

have all the details finalised, I think this part will be fairly smooth and if there are any blips, then that is my job to handle,” I say as I walk him to

the files… Here.” He rummages in his briefcase and takes out

He didn’t need to give me any

suit jacket and slips out of the room

all agreed it would be

the door, I walk back to the desk and open the file,

Sebastian’s old proposal for this project. Why would he

I flip

How strange…

has to be more

there poison

it but there’s

Is it a warning?

there’s a knock on

Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand.

am certain that the

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

Mr Payne,” I reply as I

like it when you call me that.” He says, sauntering over

people will think

not a bad thing.”

don’t know what to make

someone told him to give it to you… have you

“Yeah…”

“Go wash your hands and I need