I Am The Luna

A Lead or I Am The Luna Chapter 112 By Moonlight Muse
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A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

“Dad… come,” I say gently, holding my hand out to him.

He looks at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that he looks aged.

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

“Do you think burying her here was ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark Hollow Falls Pack.

“She lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here …she wanted that.” I say quietly.

wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be

what stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that

“Well,

around, but don’t reply. There is still a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on trips and I’ve

disappointment. Atticus has found something, and I am going

over the phone.

it,

and head to the safe

yummy strew. I have some work to attend to.” I

treating me as if I’m old.” He

smile and shake

to take care of

are you doing

answer to that, and I

with Justin, Jai and Atticus depending on who was available and although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to become a

Atticus is her brother made her warm up to him

also can’t tell anyone openly in case we’re being watched, even

alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a mission to accomplish. I hope he’s safe and that we havé not

driver to take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to attend to some

sit here, talking politely to Harrison. This act of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are rough. For those on the outside, no one knows

the go-ahead. Yet again another reminder

the papers, and

Ms Toussaint, and I will look

We will not disappoint.” I reply gracefully,

what I call the hard

if there are any blips, then that is my job to handle,” I

I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in

didn’t need to give

and slips out of the room before I can ask him, leaving me with

office. I’m in the Toussaint building, but we all agreed it would be the

the

Sebastian’s old proposal for this project. Why would he

uneasy, I

How strange…

to be more to it. Did

there poison on

sniff it but

Is it a warning?

there’s a knock

the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand. “Ah, perfect.” My secretary knew

I am

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

Payne,” I reply as

me that.” He says, sauntering over to my desk as the door slowly thuds shut

at that and people

not a bad thing.” He winks at

up. “Mr Harrsion gave me these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan

give it to you… have you

“Yeah…”

“Go wash your hands and I need some gloves. It could be