I Am The Luna

57. An Understanding ZAIA. or I Am The Luna Chapter 135 By Moonlight Muse

His acceptance of my decision feels like a wave of serenity washing over me. My lungs no longer feel like the air is being squeezed from them.

I can finally breathe, finally try to move on from the torment of my own mind. I need to heal before I can even consider being with another.

His brokén promises and betrayal feel like he had cut a wound to the very core of my being.

It’s as if the ground beneath me had suddenly given way, leaving me in a state of shock and disbelief. Those were emotions I can’t forget, even when I truly want to.

The pain was sharp and unexpected, and when I had clung to the hope that this time, he would not betray me, believing and trusting him implicitly, he broke me.

We now gaze into one another’s eyes, and I find myself engulfed in a whirlwind of emotions – hurt, sadness, guilt – but above them all there is a sense of profound peace that is hard to articulate.

I feel guilty, knowing why he did what he did, hurt because despite it I had suffered greatly and the sadness that I feel deep inside that no matter what, in the end, I must always prepare to be alone. That I should never have looked to another for support and protection because the only person who will not leave you is yourself.

I may love Sebastian, but in the end, when I needed him the most, he cast me aside like I meant nothing more than the clothes he wears. I know he loves me, but love is not always enough. I need to heal the wound that is bleeding within me, and only then can I be happy. 123

Grappling with this new reality, I question my own judgment and the choices that led me here. Trust, once given so freely, now feels like a dangerous gamble, and I can no longer play that game. I’m done being dealt the losing hand.

be deemed selfish, but I’m ok… I know what I have done for others and for everyone around me. I know the love I feel for those important to me, for my packs and my people, but for myself, I am ready to be selfish because they aren’t the ones in my shoes. I’m the one living with the

captured my heart from the first time that I saw him. He

entirely. Trust is something that is taken

love, that was another thing I gave him willingly, only for him to show

some hope

through the smile that is pained. Sees past our flaws and still loves us because we

that he led me to believe

I will no longer yearn for him or maybe one day I will realise

he continues to chase

me, Alpha Zaia,” he replies in

slightly and he glances down at my stomach, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows hard. “Will you at least let me see the children

“I don’t-”

missed the other’s births… I don’t want to do the same with this

can be in the hall outside the birthing room when the time comes,”

Then it’s

a brow, and he smirks.

he’s about to reach for. it before swiftly

question, it doesn’t really mean much, but it’s always niggling in

cocks a brow.

your relationship, she made it seem like you two were practically ready to get married… but

and feel it’s something so

that was about it. There was nothing beyond a few kisses and even those were