I Am The Luna

57. An Understanding ZAIA. or I Am The Luna Chapter 135 By Moonlight Muse

His acceptance of my decision feels like a wave of serenity washing over me. My lungs no longer feel like the air is being squeezed from them.

I can finally breathe, finally try to move on from the torment of my own mind. I need to heal before I can even consider being with another.

His brokén promises and betrayal feel like he had cut a wound to the very core of my being.

It’s as if the ground beneath me had suddenly given way, leaving me in a state of shock and disbelief. Those were emotions I can’t forget, even when I truly want to.

The pain was sharp and unexpected, and when I had clung to the hope that this time, he would not betray me, believing and trusting him implicitly, he broke me.

We now gaze into one another’s eyes, and I find myself engulfed in a whirlwind of emotions – hurt, sadness, guilt – but above them all there is a sense of profound peace that is hard to articulate.

I feel guilty, knowing why he did what he did, hurt because despite it I had suffered greatly and the sadness that I feel deep inside that no matter what, in the end, I must always prepare to be alone. That I should never have looked to another for support and protection because the only person who will not leave you is yourself.

I may love Sebastian, but in the end, when I needed him the most, he cast me aside like I meant nothing more than the clothes he wears. I know he loves me, but love is not always enough. I need to heal the wound that is bleeding within me, and only then can I be happy. 123

Grappling with this new reality, I question my own judgment and the choices that led me here. Trust, once given so freely, now feels like a dangerous gamble, and I can no longer play that game. I’m done being dealt the losing hand.

for those important to me, for my packs and my people, but for myself, I

gaze into those piercing blue eyes that captured my heart from the first time that I saw him. He had caught me hook, line and sinker from that day and even now I still love

I couldn’t entirely. Trust is something that is taken for granted until you’ve lost it, and I gave him all of it,

was another thing I gave him willingly, only for him to show me

hope we all have? We all

person who sees through the smile that is pained. Sees past our flaws and

don’t know what hurts more, the betrayal of trust broken or losing the hope of a future that he led me to believe could be ours when in

see things differently, maybe one day it won’t hurt so much, maybe one day I will no longer yearn for him or maybe one day I will realise he is my destination… and I will await

quietly, knowing that if he continues to chase me, it will only make it harder for

Zaia,” he replies

swallows hard. “Will you at least let me see the children and be there when this one

“I don’t-”

I don’t want to do the same with this

hall outside the birthing room when the

Then it’s a

and he smirks.

it before swiftly moving his hand back and shoving it in his

it doesn’t really mean much, but it’s always niggling in my mind. It’s regarding you

cocks a brow. “Go for

relationship, she made it seem like you two were practically

it, I feel uncomfortable and feel

but that was about it. There was nothing beyond a few kisses and even those were initiated by her,” he