I Am The Luna

57. An Understanding ZAIA. or I Am The Luna Chapter 135 By Moonlight Muse

His acceptance of my decision feels like a wave of serenity washing over me. My lungs no longer feel like the air is being squeezed from them.

I can finally breathe, finally try to move on from the torment of my own mind. I need to heal before I can even consider being with another.

His brokén promises and betrayal feel like he had cut a wound to the very core of my being.

It’s as if the ground beneath me had suddenly given way, leaving me in a state of shock and disbelief. Those were emotions I can’t forget, even when I truly want to.

The pain was sharp and unexpected, and when I had clung to the hope that this time, he would not betray me, believing and trusting him implicitly, he broke me.

We now gaze into one another’s eyes, and I find myself engulfed in a whirlwind of emotions – hurt, sadness, guilt – but above them all there is a sense of profound peace that is hard to articulate.

I feel guilty, knowing why he did what he did, hurt because despite it I had suffered greatly and the sadness that I feel deep inside that no matter what, in the end, I must always prepare to be alone. That I should never have looked to another for support and protection because the only person who will not leave you is yourself.

I may love Sebastian, but in the end, when I needed him the most, he cast me aside like I meant nothing more than the clothes he wears. I know he loves me, but love is not always enough. I need to heal the wound that is bleeding within me, and only then can I be happy. 123

Grappling with this new reality, I question my own judgment and the choices that led me here. Trust, once given so freely, now feels like a dangerous gamble, and I can no longer play that game. I’m done being dealt the losing hand.

my people, but for myself, I am ready to be selfish because they aren’t the

gaze into those piercing blue eyes that captured my heart from the first time that I saw him.

let me believe I could trust him when I couldn’t entirely. Trust is something that is taken for granted until you’ve lost it, and I

another thing I gave him willingly, only for him to show me

pain that it hurts to breathe, is it truly love or just some hope we all have? We all wish desperately for that one person that truly sees past

sees through the smile that is pained. Sees past our flaws and still loves

hurts more, the betrayal of trust broken or losing the hope of a future that he led me to believe could be ours when in reality, it

one day I will see things differently, maybe one day it won’t hurt so much, maybe one day I will no longer

he continues to chase me, it

to thank me, Alpha Zaia,” he

hard. “Will you at least

“I don’t-”

don’t want

the birthing room when the time comes,” I say with a small

it’s

a brow, and he

hair across my face, he’s about to reach for. it before swiftly moving his hand back and shoving it in his pocket and I slowly move

much, but

a brow.

you two were practically ready to get married…

that I’ve asked it, I feel uncomfortable and feel it’s something so small

was never anything to say. I took her to a few work meetings, but that was about it. There was nothing beyond a few kisses and even those were initiated by her,” he