I Am The Luna

Chapter 0312

“What did you want to say?” she turns to me, not wasting a moment to put the question forward, almost like she can’t bear to be near me.

“You said to me that you would hand me the title of Alpha before you left… why do I feel you’re thinking of leaving soon?” I ask, my voice sounding harsher than I mean it too.

There’s a fear deep inside of me, clawing at me like a monster trying to drag itself out of the pits of hell and grasp on as tight as possible.

I don’t want her to go… even if she doesn’t accept me… I can’t live with myself knowing I am who chased her away.

She sighs softly, but it is one that holds a lot of weight behind it. Like she is exhausted, her reserves depleted, and she has nothing left to give, no time, not patience, no love, nor mercy or forgiveness, I’ve used it all up, and it kills me to know I am the reason for it all.

“Why not stay, even if you don’t want to accept me into your life, at least stay so. the kids can have us both close?” I try, when she doesn’t respond.

“I guess that’s what everyone would want me to do, would expect of me, but is it really that wrong to want to take time for me?” she asks softly, as she turns, her eyes filled with pain that mirrors my own but it’s her words that hit a chord, guilt ripping through me.

“No, it’s not wrong.”

I hate this.

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voice trembling. I close the gap

and if I could turn back time, I would… can’t

even as those words leave my mouth, I realise I’ve said them before… right when she was at her most vulnerable and promised me to open up to her. No more

do something just because it’s what others want. I want to put myself first for once. I want to heal and learn what I

+15 BONUS

Please, Sebastian, don’t make this harder for me, she whispers, her voice a murmur

you. I just, I am sorry…” I say,

you, but it also hurts

her like this. She’s beautiful, but at

the warning that if I did, it would break her… but I did, anyway. Even if my heart was in the right place, I did the worst thing I could possibly do

moment as she looks at me what I need to

day finds it in herself to forgive me, then I

life until the end, she will return to me and if not… then our precious moments will be like a passing season that I

and I am proud that you are putting yourself first. I’m proud of you Little Fox, I truly am.” I lean down and kiss her forehead softly, closing my eyes as the pain of what