I Am The Luna

Chapter 0313

ZAIA.

His acceptance of my decision feels like a wave of serenity washing over me. My lungs no longer feel like the air is being squeezed from them.

I can finally breathe, finally try to move on from the torment of my own mind. I need to heal before I can even consider being with another.

His broken promises and betrayal feel like he had cut a wound to the very core of my being.

It’s as if the ground beneath me had suddenly given way, leaving me in a state of shock and disbelief. Those were emotions I can’t forget, even when I truly want

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The pain was sharp and unexpected, and when I had clung to the hope that this time, he would not betray me, believing and trusting him implicitly, he broke me.

We now gaze into one another’s eyes, and I find myself engulfed in a whirlwind of emotions – hurt, sadness, guilt but above them all there is a sense of profound peace that is hard to articulate.

I feel guilty, knowing why he did what he did, hurt because despite it I had suffered greatly and the sadness that I feel deep inside that no matter what, in the end, I must always prepare to be alone. That I should never have looked to another for support and protection because the only person who will not leave you is yourself.

I may love Sebastian, but in the end, when I needed him the most, he cast me aside like I meant nothing more than the clothes he wears. I know he loves me, but love is not always enough. I need to heal the wound that is bleeding within me, and only then can I be happy. 5

Grappling with this new reality, I question my own judgment and the choices that led me here. Trust, once given so freely, now feels like a dangerous gamble, and I can no longer play that game. I’m done being dealt the losing hand.

I’ll be deemed selfish, but I’m ok… I know what I have done for others and for everyone around me. I know the love I feel for those important to me, for my packs and my people, but for myself, I am ready to be selfish because they aren’t the ones in my shoes. I’m the one living with the constant reminder that I was never enough. When I am. I should be.

A soft wind blows as I gaze into those piercing blue eyes that captured my heart

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that I saw him. He had caught me hook, line and sinker from that day and even now I still

when I couldn’t entirely. Trust is something that is taken

same as love, that was another thing I gave him willingly, only for him

just some hope we all have? We all wish

for that one person who sees through the smile that is pained. Sees past our flaws and still loves

hurts more, the betrayal of trust broken or losing the hope of a future that he led me to

day I will see things differently, maybe one day it won’t hurt so much, maybe one day I will no longer yearn for him or maybe one day I will realise he is my destination… and I

Sebastian,” I say quietly, knowing that if he continues to chase me, it will only make it

thank me, Alpha Zaia,” he replies

hard. “Will you at least let me see the children and be there when this one is born?” he asks

“I don’t-”

I don’t want

in the hall outside the birthing room when the time comes,” I say with a small smile.

Then it’s

he smirks. “Ok,

wind whips my hair across my face, he’s about to reach for it before swiftly moving his hand back and shoving it

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question, it doesn’t really mean much, but it’s

a brow. “Go for

it seem like you two were practically ready to get married… but

I feel uncomfortable and feel

few work meetings, but that was about it. There

thought there was more… “And this is why speaking and sharing your thoughts is so vital,” I murmur, sighing as I gaze up at the sky.