Letting My Brother's Best Friend Take My V-Card

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The apartment felt bigger when Asha wasn't in it. Too quiet. Too empty.

I ran a hand through my hair and exhaled slowly, staring at my phone. Jess had sent a picture an hour ago-Asha sitting between her cousins at a kids' museum, her blonde curls sticking up from static electricity as she pressed her hands to a plasma globe. She looked happy. Excited. Carefree. That should have made me feel better. Instead, it just reminded me how much I hated being away from her.

I tossed my phone onto the couch and paced the length of the living room. I had an entire weekend to myself for the first time in what felt like forever, and I had no idea what to do with it.

Go out? No. That wasn't my scene anymore.

Stay in? Even worse.

Sleep? Wishful thinking.

I glanced toward the kitchen, my stomach twisting. I could cook something. Have a drink. And maybe-

I stopped short. My gaze landed on my phone again. The thought had been hovering at the back of my mind all damn day, and now it had settled there, stubborn and persistent.

Vivien.

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What the fuck was I thinking?

I'd been avoiding her since... Since that night. It hadn't been anything, not really-just dinner, just talking, just something that had made me feel lighter for the first time in a long time. And maybe that was the problem

I'd spent months focused on getting Laura into the Germany program. And now? Now, the doctors had given me the kind of update that felt like a gut punch. No improvement. No change. No real hope. Laura was still breathing. Still existing. But the woman I loved? The woman I married?

She wasn't coming back.

And yet, the idea of moving forward-of stepping toward something new-felt impossible.

picked up my phone before I could talk myself out of it. My thumb hovered over Vivien's name.

What the hell was I even going to say?

Hey, want to come over?

For what? A date? A distraction?

Jesus. I was a mess.

my

Josh:

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Hey.

was it. That was all

little dots appeared almost immediately,

rubbed the back of my neck, suddenly regretting

Then-

Vivien:

Hey yourself.

the screen, my heart pounding harder than

it there. I could back off,

Or-

Josh:

Dinner?

appeared again. This time, they

I exhaled, my grip tightening around

Vivien:

I'd like that.

Fuck.

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So would I.

at Vivien's text, my thumb hesitating over the

Josh:

you in

overthinking.

myself, I fired off another text to the pizza place down the street. Something

chest like I was about to walk into a championship game with

That was fine. I could do

just to be

and hit Luke's name. He picked up on

answered, voice distracted. Probably

right?" I asked

"I'm gonna need

"I just asked Vivien to

beat of silence.

"Like a date?"

down my face. "I don't fucking know, man. I

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I feel like an idiot